Dear Mom, I'm sorry

Foreword from Author - Dear Mom, I'm sorry, is a fictional end of life journal from a 15 year old girl to her mom. Certain content and subjects throughout the story may be distressing to readers. TW: suicide, mental health.

Dear Mom,
I grabbed this pad to write you a final goodbye.
Out of all the things in the world I am 100% certain of, your love for me is top of that list. You have loved me since the day I was born, and only ever wanted the best for me. Unfortunately, you can’t possibly understand what it’s like to live in my body and to be stuck with these broken feelings. I am certain that if you understood how truly difficult is for me, you would let me go. You would grant me your blessing, and I would never need to wake up to another day of suffering.

So, that’s what I intend to do. Write in this journal until I feel you can appreciate how hard life is for me. Sharing my despair and fears with you until I am convinced, you won’t want to read anymore. Unveiling my lies until you are finally ready to say goodbye.

If you’re reading this, I’m already gone. Maybe it’s just days since or perhaps it’s weeks but I trust you might eventually come to terms with the truth, that this was my choice. If I could have done things differently, I would have. I hope that this truth, no matter how difficult it is to read, will set you free.
I love you, Mom.

Chelsie

x o x