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Beautiful Chaos

Narrated by: Michael Pauley
Length: 9 hrs and 27 mins
4.5 out of 5 stars (120 ratings)
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Silas

My home is my sanctuary. Or is it my prison? Some days it's hard to tell.

I've confined myself behind these walls for protection. I have my reasons, but that doesn't change the profound loneliness I've discovered in the process.

Then one day I find myself drifting toward the window to see him. Corey Marshall, my new neighbor. Quiet, reserved, and cute as can be. He infects my thoughts, becomes the image I fantasize about.

I want to taste his lips, smell his scent...feel what it's like to be inside him.

And soon, watching becomes exchanging gifts and messages, which becomes so much more.

It's wrong to want this as badly as I do, but I can't help myself. I crave him so desperately. It's hard to tell if what we're doing is going to make me lose my mind or change my entire world, but it's too late to turn back now....

Corey

I've never been quite right. Too high or too low. Pain is my constant companion...at the hands of my abusive ex, and often from myself. The sweet relief is only temporary, but in those moments, it's like I can finally breathe.

Then I meet him. Silas Rizner calms the chaotic storms inside me. He makes me feel loved, treasured, even when I don't deserve it. I cherish the moments we share - cooking, cuddling, and when Silas reads to me until I fall asleep. When he's inside me, it's the only time in my life I've ever felt complete.

Silas becomes the glue that holds me together, that bandages my scars. Inside the walls of his home, we're almost safe, but our demons are always there, waiting to break free.

We're a mess. We're broken, chaotic, beautiful; we're in love. 

But not even love can slay our monsters. No, only we can do that.

Unless our monsters destroy us first.

TRIGGERS: Self-harm, depression, anxiety, mentions of past domestic violence.

*While the sexual situations depicted in Beautiful Chaos are imperative to the characters' development throughout the course of the novel, listeners are advised to hear the "Dear Reader" letter at the beginning of the book to help them make an informed decision about whether this particular story will be to their tastes.

©2018 Devon McCormack, Riley Hart (P)2018 Devon McCormack, Riley Hart

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Dark, but powerful

I am really glad there was a pro-log on this book it helped setup the situation. The characters are amazing and the story was almost over powering. Very well done to Devon, Riley, and of course Michael.

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Oh my broken heart!

This book...my heart broke for these 2 beautiful, broken men. The intense trauma both of them survived to then be able to find each other...breathtaking! Michael Pauley always delivers a stellar performance. I'm telling everyone how much I loved this book❤❤❤

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Amazing

I was a little worried about listening to this book but I know Devon and Riley and I figured if they wrote it, it had to be awesome. They did not fail me. I loved this book so much. It's amazing, beautiful, heartfelt, sad, happy, and a tear jerker . I loved the way they communicated in the beginning. Notes. I'm not sure which one is my favorite. I love them both. I love the way Silas took care of Corey, even though he was battling his own demons.
Michael Pauley did an amazing job narrating this beautiful book. Thank you Riley, Devon and Michael.
This book needs to be in everyone's Audio library but take the warning in the beginning of the book seriously.

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Woa! Wow and Woa! This took me by surprise...

Devon/Riley, the preface basically tried to prepare me for a powerful story and by God you delivered one. The depth of emotion and the descriptions of thoughts, feelings, actions...wow...it's an amazing experience when a story gets right down into the bone. Thank you for that.

Michael, kudos for your excellent performance. I saw those boys in every word you spoke. I could hear their misery, their mental illness, their joy, their love, their lust.

Listener, gird your loins. This has those moments when I literally would get bug eyed and look up from whatever I was doing and it would stop me dead in my tracks. It brought fear, tears, joy, all of it. I even had to turn it off a few times because I had to process the story. These authors have brought us a novel with intensity and purpose. They bring us right into Beautiful Chaos.

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Awesome

This story was sad, hopeful and endearing. I would read it again. i lovec it.

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One of the best books I have heard

This book had a good subject matter was written with great research care, and understanding. One of the best books I have read

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  • 12-30-18

Excellent

I appreciate how this book is not ja predictable romance but a journey into psychological discomfort and distress; the characters are relatable, real, and it made me reflect over my own “demons”. Excellent book, I hope Hart and McCormack will produce others like this.

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Great

Great book and storyline.. narration was wonderful as well. The story really brought me into their world.

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Beautiful Chaos!

This is a moving story of two men who have been affected with horrible things that affected their .dental and physical health. Good with love

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amazing

I loved every second of this book! there was a point I had stop listening at work cause I had tears in my eyes

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  • 11-29-18

Eye opener

Listening to Michael Paisley introduction was interesting and appreciate him explaining about the story. When I first started listening to it, it became clear why he’d hard done so. As the book went on I cam to a point that I nearly stopped, but continued and thought the book was well written and of course love Michael Pauley’s narration well done