here's what i can think of:

highschool setting:

- sabrina the tennage witch

- buffy the vampire slayer

- the vampire diaries

- one tree hill

- 90210

- teen wolf

- gilmore girls

- veronica mars

- pretty little liars

- glee

- gossip girl

- the o.c.

workplace setting:

- severence

- superstore

- madmen

- the office

- brooklyn nine nine

- greys anatomy

- suits

- castle

......

i know thats not everything but its all that comes to mind. in this train of thought, do you think:

1) is there more highschool setting shows?

2) are highschool setting shows just more entertaining?

3) possibly because most audience are highschoolers? is that correlation or causation? maybe if we had more workplace shows more adults would watch? or not?

4) if highschool based shows are truly more in numbers and entertaining, is that because our brains where more full of hope and excitment rather than the adult brain watching workplace shows with a loss for hope of a better life??? huh, idk anymore.

idk what that title even means.

i just think, im at a point in my life (actually, i think numbness is the right word), if something mildly bad or embarrassing happened, i don't think i could care.

certain cases i would action something to help the situation but i would be using more logic than emotion.

like i would go out of my way to help this situation because its the right thing to do, not because (at least no longer because) i can't live with myself for not doing something to fix it, to make it better. in that sense, i guess im less emotionally attached? i think. does that make sense?

yuh yuh yuh

i was looking all over my room for a rewards card someone lended me and i couldnt find it. frantically tossing things all over my room, i check my walet for the 3rd time and i finally found it. huhh.

if i spoke with dread, its just me. its who i am, who ive always been, and if it somehow managed to hide that from you all this time then, huh, who wouldve thought.

anyway, i think im going to go watch buffy the vampire slayer now.

okokokay, i think im going to address it with him rather than sweeping it under the rug. thats better right? i should do that right?

im too afraid of calling him most likely is im speaking live, im more likely to mess up. so this is what i'll do, i'll just voicenote him on slack. tada!

im not winging it tho, i need a script...

"Hi manager,

i hope im not overthinking this but in case my comment about management mightve hurt your feelings, i didnt want you to carry that into the weekend.

i have this terrible talent of making people feel worse when i intend for the opposite.

Theres no such thing as a perfect manager, but from my experience so far, you truly have been a great manager.

all this goes to say, I may accidentally say the dumb things from time to time out of my own awkwardness, i hope you dont take it to heart, definity a work in progress on my end.

ANyway, i hope you have a great weekend."

okay yall. i sent it. AHHHH this might be super dumb. its stupid and embarrassing.

idk. if he was like my brother he wouldnt havent given a shit and wouldnt have said anything. but i feel like my manager's personality is more similiar to me, where i probably wouldve noticed and been hurt, so its better to mention it than not right?

ughhUGHHHHH

its late, close to 10 and i havent had dinner. but i did snack, all night long, so i guess thats enough and its time for bed.

except i keep scrolling

scrolling

scrolling past midnight.

i am the way i am, blah blah blah.

a very underwhelming cookie hierarchy. you have been warned.

yuuu i got it. i realy did. was this a mistake? we shall see