We’re continuing our discussion on the questions that keep us awake at 2 a.m.—the ones that every married couple wrestles with at some point, especially those walking through betrayal or trauma.

Last week, Heather opened up about her side of the question, “What’s wrong with me?” This week, Rusty shares his own sleepless nights—the nights filled with questions like, “Why wasn’t I enough?” and “What did I do wrong?”

In this honest conversation, Rusty talks about the haunting thoughts that come when you feel unworthy, unchosen, or powerless to fix what’s been broken. He shares how learning to recognize and replace those lies became one of the most important parts of his personal healing and the redemption of their marriage.

If you’ve ever battled feelings of not being enough—or wondered if your worth could survive what happened—this episode will remind you that shame doesn’t get the final word.

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We all have those 2 a.m. moments—the questions that swirl in our minds when everything feels quiet but our thoughts are loud. This week, Heather leads the conversation with raw honesty about a question she once wrestled with deeply: “What is wrong with me?”

Before her infidelity, she remembers lying awake wondering why she was even entertaining the idea of another life—another marriage—something “different.” She shares what she wishes she could say to you if she could sit in your thoughts during those restless nights, especially in a world where social media constantly whispers, “You deserve more.”

After betrayal, that same question turned darker: “How could I have done something so horrific?” Heather opens up about the shame, guilt, and self-condemnation that can feel crushing after failure—and how she learned to hear truth instead of lies in those moments.

If you’ve ever questioned your worth, your sanity, or your faith in the middle of the night, this episode is for you. You’re not broken beyond repair. There is hope, even at 2 a.m.

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It’s 2 a.m. and your mind won’t stop racing. The question that keeps circling is one that hurts the most: Can I ever really trust you again? In this raw and honest conversation, Rusty and Heather open up about their own sleepless nights after betrayal and the long road toward rebuilding trust.

They talk about what it felt like to question everything—each other, their reality, even God—and how over time, something new and stronger began to take shape. Theirs isn’t a story of quick fixes or easy forgiveness. It’s a story of slow, steady healing, of learning to depend on God when nothing else felt solid, and discovering that trust can grow back deeper than before.

If you’ve ever wondered whether your marriage can truly recover from broken trust, this conversation will meet you right where you are—with honesty, hope, and a reminder that redemption is always possible.

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