This episode, I read the final chapter, Sky Holds the Sun, from my nonfiction manuscript, F*ck Bubble, to my good friend, Desiree, in Park City, Utah.


Sky Holds the Sun is about the bigger story, the one when, after everything, it all begins to make sense. It's about the magic of happenstance, of being in the right place at the right time, about forgiving oneself of bad choices; of reemerging with the natural flow, of being led home to the source. Above all, it's about how saying goodbye can also mean entering into a new world with the added benefit of knowledge. 


I met Desiree at our small hippie boarding school in Southwest Colorado, where we were both students. It was the early nineties and we were still teenagers. Years later, when so many of the main events that became F*ck Bubble were happening, Desiree and I were both living in LA. She'd hear all about Mack and Gunner and all of the ongoing drama when we'd go on a camping trip at Sequoia National Park or out to dinner at Sunset Junction. Despite my frustrations, she was always a calming and supportive force. 


We talk all about our super unique high school and our (quasi-mutual) crushes, and how those events back in the nineties defined us in so many ways. Above all else, this chapter is about saying goodbye, and not just to Mack and Gunner. It's about saying goodbye by reading the signs and realigning oneself with the power of Nature. Nobody articulates this, or expresses this, better than Desiree.


Thanks for listening to F*ck Bubble. Thanks to Danny Vitali whose track "The Hollow" opens each episode. And thanks so very much to all of my friends.


You can find out more about F*ck Bubble and my other creative projects on my website,  http://brianpearson.net/writings. 


If you'd like to support the podcast and the writing, please check out my Patreon page, https://www.patreon.com/user?u=80977299. 

Episode 17 of F*ck Bubble comes in two parts, both with my friend Joe in Jersey City. 


This second half of the episode begins with the reading of Chapter 18, Arrowhead. This chapter recounts some magical thinking employed on my part re: Gunner while staying at friend's mountain cabin high above Los Angeles. As snow falls at night, a miscommunication of intent leads to hard truths and a reemergence of self.


You can find out more about F*ck Bubble and my other creative projects on my website,  http://brianpearson.net/writings. 


If you'd like to support the podcast and the writing, please check out my Patreon page, https://www.patreon.com/user?u=80977299. 

Episode 17 of F*ck Bubble comes in two parts, both with my friend Joe in Jersey City. 


Joe and I met as college students in Boston during the mid-nineties. He's only ten days younger than me (although he still looks like he's twenty-two). We talk about what it was like coming out during the dawn of the internet age; the clubs (Avalon, Quest, Campus) we frequented and relied on far more than our screens for social connectivity.  Our halcyon days but also an invaluable education. 


By the late-nineties, Joe and I had both moved to NYC. We'd often hang out together at nights/bars like Beige, Boiler Room and Pyramid. Then, in the summer of 1998, both of us just twenty-five, Joe was diagnosed with cancer. He tells that story, parts of which I was present for, parts of which I didn't know about till now. 


Joe, who lives life as a series of bold and uncompromising metamorphoses, who in so many ways encapsulates the era during which we both came out, was the perfect friend to read the penultimate chapter of F*ck Bubble to, to help put it all in glorious but simple perspective. 


Part II will begin with the reading of Chapter 18, Arrowhead. This chapter recounts some magical thinking employed on my part re: Gunner. In short, a miscommunication of intent leads to a reemergence of self.


You can find out more about F*ck Bubble and my other creative projects on my website,  http://brianpearson.net/writings. 


If you'd like to support the podcast and the writing, please check out my Patreon page, https://www.patreon.com/user?u=80977299.