Episodios

  • Rejoining Society After 14 Years in TWELVE TRIBES (Yellow Deli) Cult

    Rejoining Society After 14 Years in TWELVE TRIBES (Yellow Deli) Cult
    Oct 8 2025

    After joining what Tamara Mathieu thought would be a wholesome, down to earth, communal family group in August of 2000, things quickly went downhill— she immediately regretted her decision. At 23 years old, Tamara, her husband and their 17-month-old son gave up EVERYTHING to join the Twelve Tribes worldwide religious organization. In return they received a militaristic, impossible-to-please hierarchy, where she worked constantly and had to employ harsh discipline on her children.

    Fourteen years went by and enough was enough. Find out how her family finally escaped the Twelve Tribes and learned how to once again be “of the world” with no jobs, money or housing.

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    Watch the interview with Tamara's son, Emmet

    Watch pt 1

    Find Tamara!

    FB: Tamara Mathieu Author

    IG: https://www.instagram.com/tamaramathieu4/

    Book: All Who Believed

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    Chapter Marks


    00:00:00 Intro

    00:19:12 The "Prison of Specialness" & meeting good people

    00:23:22 What adolescence looks like inside vs outside the 12 Tribes

    00:30:47 The struggles adapting to living in the outside world

    00:36:31 Repercussions on Tamara's family after leaving the community

    00:45:13 The Yellow Deli's

    00:52:58 Food in the 12 Tribes

    00:56:21 Tamara's passions and joys & adjustments she's still making

    01:03:55 Tamara's Linda Listen and final thoughts

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  • Lured into the TWELVE TRIBES (Yellow Deli) Cult

    Lured into the TWELVE TRIBES (Yellow Deli) Cult
    Oct 7 2025

    Lured into the TWELVE TRIBES (Yellow Deli) Cult

    TIMESTAMPS UNAVAILABLE FOR THIS EPISODE

    Tamara Mathieu was a new mother in a scary world where Columbine had just happened. Romanticizing a simple life and craving safety for her family, she began visiting the Twelve Tribes. She noticed a village raising the well behaved chiIdren, homemade food and happy families. Feeling alone, isolated and overwhelmed at home with her baby, she spent more and more time at their compounds. She was welcomed with open arms, given gift baskets and the women loved her chiId. It felt like home. She convinced her husband to leave his high paying job, sell their home and all their belongings and completely leave their modern life behind to move into the Twelve Tribes. Assigned one bedroom for their family, everything changed once they moved in. Work became excruciating, chiId discipline expectations were extreme and Tamara would see her husband even less than before. Regret set in, but it was too late. She wouldn’t escape the community until 14 years later.

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    Watch pt 2

    Watch the interview with Tamara's son, Emmet

    Find Tamara!

    FB: Tamara Mathieu Author

    IG: https://www.instagram.com/tamaramathieu4/

    Book: All Who Believed

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  • She Silenced Whistleblowers of Abusive Evangelical Academy, Then Became One (Why She Flipped)

    She Silenced Whistleblowers of Abusive Evangelical Academy, Then Became One (Why She Flipped)
    Oct 6 2025

    Featured in the Shiny Happy People 2 doc-series, Cindy was deep in evangelical nationalism when she was hired as head of PR to silence whistleblowers from the Honor Academy at Teen Mania. She was told they were simply disgruntled chiIdren who were lying to defame the massive enterprise. Years later, she would realize, not only were the alumni telling the truth, but the upper management knew about the tort*re the chiIdren went through and did nothing to stop it, or change their practices for the following group. In fact, it was all part of the system to break the will of the interns and mold them into warriors for Jesus so they could penetrate all facets of society and create a Christian nation. Once Cindy’s eyes were opened, she took all their insider financial information to a news station to blast the story to the world.

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    Email Cindy: CindyMallette@gmail.com

    Watch the interview with Mica Ringo

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  • Why Fanatical Worldwide MINISTRIES Was Terrified of Silenced Alumni Speaking Out

    Why Fanatical Worldwide MINISTRIES Was Terrified of Silenced Alumni Speaking Out
    Oct 3 2025

    Mica Ringo was heavily invested in Teen Mania and went through the whole program completely ignoring xyr inner voice of authenticity. Being yourself was never an option in a group that specifically molds teens to be extremist warriors for Jesus. The program was grueling and even abusive in an attempt to break down the character of teens coming in. Mica would go on to create the Recovering Alumni blog which would lead to the fall of Teen Mania Ministries!

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    Find Mica on social media:

    IG: https://www.instagram.com/mx.micaringo/

    Website: https://www.micaringo.com

    Watch the interview with Cindy Mallette, the person hired to silence Mica

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    Chapter Marks

    00:00:00 intro

    00:05:46 Mica's upbringing

    00:09:38 Things that lead Mica on the path towards Team Mania

    00:15:27 Navigating Mica's s*xuality within purity culture

    00:17:53 Mica's involvement in Team Mania

    00:27:36 The Honor Academy

    00:45:09 Mica's blog

    00:56:55 Mica's Marriage & deconstruction

    01:09:44 Mica goes to the press

    01:15:04 Linda, listen

    01:16:12 What brings Mica joy now

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    1 h y 19 m
  • 5 Women from 5 AMISH Settlements Compare Notes

    5 Women from 5 AMISH Settlements Compare Notes
    Oct 2 2025
    TIMESTAMPS UNAVAILABLE FOR THIS EPISODECelebrating 250 episodes with these 5 incredible women! We explore ways in which different Amish and sometimes Mennonite settlements had the same methods of control and even ab*se. We cover their rules, restrictions, medical allowances (or lack thereof), why CSA is rampant and how the perpetr*tors are often protected rather than truly held accountable. The stories and wisdom are beautifully shared amongst survivors supporting each other. They also share ways in which they believe women can take back their power in or outside a cult and gain clarity and freedom.Click here to watch on YouTubeFind and support our guests!Lizzie HershbergerSwartzentruber AMISH: The Unknown SINISTER Side of the Strictist Settlement Swartzentruber AMISH: Seeking JUSTICE Against the Strictest SettlementResources: https://www.theplainpeoplespodcast.com/resourceHer book: “Behind Blue Curtains: A True Crime Memoir of an Amish Woman’s Survival, Escape, and Pursuit of Justice” Website: https://www.lizziehershberger.com/IG @lizzie.hershberger Naomi SwartzentruberAMISH: How Growing Up in the Strictest Settlement Led to Dr*gs and S*x Work Naomi’s book: The Amazing Adventures of an Amish Stripper IG & TT: @AmishInspiration https://www.instagram.com/AmishInspirationhttps://www.tiktok.com/@amishinspirationFB: https://www.facebook.com/share/1Aq4Tw6q9h/?mibextid=wwXIfrElizabeth HiltyAMISH: Her Unlicensed Midwives Used Veterinary Tools Connect with Elizabeth on FacebookMeg Delagrange-Belfon“Sins of the Amish” Doc: Darker Details than They Were Willing to Release on TV Her artwork: https://www.coloringspirit.com/Her Blog: https://blendedmix.life/IG: @coloringspirit Plain Anna Mary BylerAMISH Woman "Sinned" by Taking Her Brothers to Court for SA Mary's Website: https://www.themisfitamish.com/amishresourcesIG @plainrainbows_mary Mary's Book: Reflections and Memories of An Amish Misfit: "My therapist says that’s not true, but I digress" Fb: https://www.facebook.com/Mary.A.Byler/TikTok: the.misfit.amishSubscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel!Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast.Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here!Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousnessVenmo @sheliseannFind us on Social media!Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.**See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.
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    2 h y 13 m
  • Why Teens are Being Weaponized & Trained for “End Times” Martyrdom (ft. April Ajoy)

    Why Teens are Being Weaponized & Trained for “End Times” Martyrdom (ft. April Ajoy)
    Oct 1 2025

    Following up our initial interview with the incredible April Ajoy, we go LIVE with her to further discuss her upbringing as a Christian Nation*list, in which they drilled into teens a persecution complex that would put their life on the line as a declared “believer”. Fresh off the heels of “Shiny Happy People: Teenage Holy War”, April is a successful content creator and podcast host, sharing stories from her past and how she flipped a 180 in her thinking and way of life.

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    Watch April’s initial interview

    Find April:

    Book: Star-Spangled Jesus

    IG: https://www.instagram.com/aprilajoy/

    Podcast: The Tim and April Show

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    47 m
  • Mormon Church Loses Appeal After Failure to Report CSA (abuse continued 4 years) ft. Kolby Reddish

    Mormon Church Loses Appeal After Failure to Report CSA (abuse continued 4 years) ft. Kolby Reddish
    Sep 30 2025

    Last month the church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints lost an appeal to remain blameless in the case of two bishops not reporting egregious acts of CSA in the state of Arizona. Today we go in depth with former guest and current lawyer Kolby Reddish to further discuss the case and potential legal outcome.

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    Check out our interviews with Kolby:

    Mormon Church SUED for Not Reporting Unspeakable Confessions (the Verdict) ft. Kolby Reddish

    Mormonism On Trial: Ex-Mormon Lawyer Challenges Truth Claims

    How a Mormon Lawyer Lost His Faith Ft. Kolby Reddish

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  • Taken Back to “The Family” Cult Commune After Mass Police Raid

    Taken Back to “The Family” Cult Commune After Mass Police Raid
    Sep 29 2025

    After escaping the COG cult in Australia with her husband, Maria Esguerra spent years in higher education so she could become a psychologist and better understand her past. Her mission now is to help other survivors of high control groups and people, move through their trauma and find healing in understanding. She is even doing her best to help legally forge a path for those who are victims of coercive control and help the courts understand that crimes are not always so black and white. Our discussion covers the ways in which children's wiring is not only affected, but hijacked, when growing up in dangerous and or high control cults.

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    Find and Support Maria!

    The Olive Leaf Network:

    Linktr.ee https://linktr.ee/Mariaesguerra

    IG @cultpsyc

    TikTok: @mariaesguerra13

    FB: https://www.facebook.com/maria.esguerra.75436

    DeCult: www.decult.net

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    1 h y 43 m