Another favorite song by Passion. Being born in Mykokaiv, Ukraine and my adopted parents brought me over to the United States Of America. Everything happened for a reason, this is where my story started and I will never forget where it all started for me. A story I was told, these two women had a jar of peanut butter, lettuce and water . The next year they only had lettuce and water . When my parents adopted me they had two large jars of peanut butter and they gave them those two jars. This story has stuck with me . I came from nothing and I will never forget my roots. I will always remember where it all started. Everything happens for a reason . I wanted to write my story, and share it, I have flaws, but at least I learned to be a better person and I also learned to not carry the guilt and shame of my past mistakes and put it Gods hands.

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Being bullied or harassed when you are a kid, teenager or even an adult. Nothing changes about the bully, it’s either out of envy or jealousy. You are not hurting me, you only hurt yourself. Digging a hole that you can’t get out of but you blame everyone else for your own actions instead of taking accountability. Cheating your way through school or copying someone else just shows you have no personality. Tell me something girl, even through the pain and heartache. You never treated the ones who hurt you the same way. You did stand up for yourself. They are angry now because they have a criminal record and they can’t handle the consequences of their actions. They are only sorry because they got caught. While you are living in misery and still playing the victim, many of us have healed but will never forget the pain you put us through. Your lies will always come to light. What you try to hide will always come to light. Now that you have a track record, was it really worth it in the end to destroy your life over lies and hate? You have no one to blame but yourself. Once a bridge is burned you can no longer fix it or come back. Many of us will forgive ourselves but not you, because you will take it as a victory. It’s okay to not forgive them but you do need to forgive yourself. You matter in the end and it’s time to put yourself first.

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I am not perfect. I have hurt others, said things out of anger. I have sinned, I have lied and made many mistakes. I chose to learn from those mistakes, learn from the lesson to become a better person. I always chose to tell the truth, even if it was difficult or I would lose the ones around me. Which weren't meant to stay. My bond with the Lord, Holy Spirit and Jesus will never break. I will run, I will sin but I know I can trust the Lord. I will worry, but I shouldn't when nothing is in my control and God is in control. I will never try to be perfect but I will always try to make amends, admit when I did wrong and always try to do what is right, everyday is a new day to start again. The ones who hurt you or try to bring you down. The issue isn't with you, it's just that they can't stand the light that you carry. Ever knowing many will try to find every fault in me or try to control me. I will never be perfect but at least I always try to do what is right.

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I will always support the education system, but I have had my fair share of teachers who hated me, who didn't like me and wanted to see me fail or they would do illegal things that would cost them their license. I was never the perfect student, I made mistakes, hurt others and had to learn the hard way from many things I did. With many teachers taking the side of the bully, then playing the victim when the truth came out or acting nice because you got caught. It's not my problem that your true intentions were exposed, and don't think I forgot either. You are enough, don't let a grown adult tell you nothing will ever happen for you, that they try to fail you illegally and lie when they get caught. You are enough and you will be someone someday. All of us make mistakes and none of us are perfect, but many of us choose to learn from our mistakes instead of lying and hurting innocent people. Lying on your resume that you have the qualifications to be a professor at a technical college and also trying to pull illegal moves on several students, not just you. It's too late now to apologize now, you didn't destroy any of us, you went to jail because you committed a crime. That only the technical college had to apologize on your behalf but many schools you attended had to apologize. Even the unit the commander was part of, their own representative had to apologize for someone else's actions. Each profession will have some sour fruit, some will give dirty looks, talk bad about you. That's a them issue not an you issue, the choice is yours if you want to break and destroy everything or make it better.

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Four years of no contact, you will never hear from me. There is a reason why I left. I'm not sorry that my pain was such an imposition. Walking on eggshells, being judged and criticized for everything that I did. I gave up trying to be understood and why everything still hurts. It's just a broken record that stays on repeat. I am done explaining myself. You think all of this is for sympathy or it's made up, but I don't care what you think. None of this is for sympathy or that it's made up. I just don't want no one else to go through what I had to go through.

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It doesn't matter how long you have known someone. Chance after chance and you still get blamed for everything. No accountability, just a victim mentality. Doesn't matter if it's family or not. Four years of no communication, still hurts just the same. A narcissist who always gets their way. Have many to protect them. While no one believes you, while you are telling the truth. You were never perfect. Many mistakes were made, but still you are made out to be the black sheep. This is why you are so guarded. My heart won't start anymore. Walking away and never looking back was the best thing I ever did.

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I am allowed to still hurt, and share my side. I'm sharing my side to help others so you can't put another innocent person through this ever again. This will stay with me for a lifetime. The siring pain will sting, but at least I am in a better place. I never want to see your face again or appear on my social media. We will never be friends. Once a stranger will always be a stranger to me. You have no connection or control over me. Don't show up where I’m at. I will report you and walk away. You don't scare me. But you don't have the right to show up when everything has calmed down or act like never ever happened. When you know good and well that it did.

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