When you live without command, your default demeanor is to waste your time. You might gain some knowledge, but you won't apply it very well. You've the potential to live a mighty, self-directed life of your choosing, but until you take command, this potential stays an illusion. With taking command, you not only accept responsibility for your life story, you take total charge of it. You'll have the clarity to distinguish the sort of life story you wish to live, as well as the might to really produce it.
"turned off right away by self defeating logic."