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The Lookback Window

By: Kyle Dillon Hertz
Narrated by: Graham Halstead
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An Electric Literature, Debutiful, and LGBTQ Reads Most Anticipated Book
“Hertz has managed to tell a story of queer healing with all the narrative force of a thriller and the searing fury of an indictment.” —The New York Times Book Review

A fearless debut novel of resilience, transcendence, and the elusive promise of justice.

Growing up in suburban New York, Dylan lived through the unfathomable: three years as a victim of sex trafficking at the hands of Vincent, a troubled young man who promised to marry Dylan when he turned eighteen. Years later—long after a police investigation that went nowhere, and after the statute of limitations for the crimes perpetrated against him have run out—the long shadow of Dylan’s trauma still looms over the fragile life in the city he’s managed to build with his fiancé, Moans, who knows little of Dylan’s past. His continued existence depends upon an all-important mantra: To survive, you live through it, but never look back.

Then a groundbreaking new law—the Child Victims Act—opens a new way foreword: a one-year window during which Dylan can sue his abusers. But for someone who was trafficked as a child, does money represent justice—does his pain have a price? As Dylan is forced to look back at what happened to him and try to make sense of his past, he begins to explore a drug and sex-fueled world of bathhouses, clubs, and strangers’ apartments, only to emerge, barely alive, with a new clarity of purpose: a righteous determination to gaze, unflinching, upon the brutal men whose faces have haunted him for a decade, and to extract justice on his own terms.

By turns harrowing, lyrical, and beautiful, Hertz’s debut offers a startling glimpse at the unraveling of trauma—and the light that peeks, faintly, and often in surprising ways, from the other side of the window.

©2022 Kyle Dillon Hertz (P)2022 Simon & Schuster Audio

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"Hertz has managed to tell a story of queer healing with all the narrative force of a thriller and the searing fury of an indictment. It’s an achievement of language, of style, in which the process of finding one’s way back to the world is considered at least in part as an act of learning to 'speak the unspeakable.' It’s a matter, Hertz seems to say, of finding the right words.... At his best, Hertz sheds the trappings of traditional realism, adopting instead a swerving, almost psychedelic style that mirrors the abrupt and mercurial perceptions of a turbulent mind. He follows the worthy example of writers like Jean Rhys, Gary Indiana and Denis Johnson." —The New York Times Book Review

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Not bad, but know what you're getting

The overall story was better than average. Fairly well developed characters and a clear plotline. But be warned...the elements of this story are extremely disturbing and graphic. It was almost too much at times. Most bothersome is that the author seemed to relish in the most horrific depictions of child exploitation. The story could have held its own without devolving into borderline child pornography.

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A Waste of Time

All the explicit sex became really boring. I couldn’t identify with any of the characters or their feelings. It shouldn’t have been recommended by the New York Times. I now question their judgment.

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TOUGH SUBJECT POORLY COVERED

In a recent review, the "NY Times" called this book "A gripping and savagely beautiful debut novel." I had decided to read Hertz's book after reading a more recent review in the weekend edition of the paper same paper (the quote in this sentence comes from a separate review by Eric Lee published online on AUG 1). Deciding to read the book in the first place was a big deal for me; the trepidation came from having been sexual abuse victim as a child myself. In my case, the abuse lasted for two years at the hands two separate members of the Catholic clergy. With that in mind, I was neither impressed nor "gripped" by this so-called "beautiful" novel. The emotions and raw feelings Hertz enumerates in the book are real, and no doubt cathartic. As victims of rape, molestation, serial abuse, and severe sexual violence, each of us who manage to survive into adulthood carry around heaping tons of scar tissue we must learn to live with (or...not). I'm quite sure that the self-abuse that follows survivors (e.g., drug and alcohol abuse/dependence, sexual promiscuity, inability to maintain healthy relationships)(which Hertz details in massive doses throughout the book) will resonate with everyone who has either experienced sexual abuse themselves or has observed these behaviors themselves as the loved-one of an abuse victim. In that sense (alone), "The Lookback Window" is of significant value in its breathtakingly brutal honesty of what abuse of this kind does to the human species. What I found disturbing about the book is its graphicness; while told from the slant of a sexual abuse victim, it is nonetheless gay pornography. After reading it, I'm not sure I understand why the author had to provide so much detail about his adult sexual encounters, but offers comparatively little detail about the actual abuse he encountered as a child/teenager. While I applaud Mr. Hertz's willingness to take this very, very difficult subject on (especially through the lens of his own experiences), I was disappointed by the author's need to simultaneously put in so much raw sexual detail. At the. end of the day I'm not sure how it actually contributes to an otherwise important accounting of this pervasive behavior towards children in our society.

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