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Chase in Shadow | [Amy Lane]

Chase in Shadow

Nobody knows the real Chase. Chase Summers has a razor blade to his wrist and the smell of his lover's goodbye clinging to his skin. He has a door in his heart so frightening he'd rather die than open it, and the lies he's used to block it shut are thinning with every forbidden touch. Chase has spent his entire life unraveling, and his decision to set his sexuality free in secret has only torn his mind apart faster.
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Publisher's Summary

Chase Summers: Golden boy. Beautiful girlfriend, good friends, and a promising future.

Nobody knows the real Chase. Chase Summers has a razor blade to his wrist and the smell of his lover's goodbye clinging to his skin. He has a door in his heart so frightening he'd rather die than open it, and the lies he's used to block it shut are thinning with every forbidden touch. Chase has spent his entire life unraveling, and his decision to set his sexuality free in secret has only torn his mind apart faster.

Chase has one chance for true love and salvation. He may have met Tommy Halloran in the world of gay-for-pay-where the number of lovers doesn't matter as long as the come-shot's good-but if he wants the healing that Tommy's love has to offer, he'll need the courage to leave the shadows for the sunlight. That may be too much to ask from a man who's spent his entire life hiding his true self. Chase knows all too well that the only things thriving in a heart's darkness are the bitter personal demons that love to watch us bleed.

©2012 Amy Lane (P)2014 Dreamspinner Press

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    Heather Seattle, WA, United States 04-07-14
    Heather Seattle, WA, United States 04-07-14 Member Since 2013
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    "Come meet the boys from Johnnies & fall in love"

    be prepared to cry, and laugh, and have your heart hurt just a little bit. Chase in Shadows will grab you by the heart in the prologue, and never let go.
    Chase shatters, and Tommy is broken but their love is strong enough to pull through. The boys of Johnnies gather round to help anyway they can, and you will want more - lucky for us Amy has written 2 additional Johnnies books Dex in Blue and Ethan in Gold.
    As always, Sean Crisden does an excellent job of bring all the characters to life. He's one of my favorite narrators.

    4 of 4 people found this review helpful
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    Kindle Customer The Woodlands, TX 04-04-14
    Kindle Customer The Woodlands, TX 04-04-14 Member Since 2012

    T.Henry

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    "Heartbreak"
    Would you recommend this audiobook to a friend? If so, why?

    Absolutely, heartbreaking story by Amy Lane and best narration


    What did you like best about this story?

    It is hard to say,


    Which scene was your favorite?

    This beginning, not favorite, just stunned!


    If you could take any character from Chase in Shadow out to dinner, who would it be and why?

    Chase and hug him and love him


    Any additional comments?

    Great, but heartbreaking story or not being able to live your life due to fear!

    4 of 4 people found this review helpful
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    Havan_IronOak NYC, NY USA 10-05-14
    Havan_IronOak NYC, NY USA 10-05-14

    Havan_Ironoak

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    "Modern Day Greek Tragedy that Transcends the genre"
    What did you like best about this story?

    The last half of the story. The angst and the impending suicide attempt seemed to weigh heavily on the joyous bits early in the story. It's only after Chase's suicide attempt that the story redeemed itself in my eyes.


    What about Sean Crisden’s performance did you like?

    Narrator Sean Crisden does a great job of keeping the narrator voice AND Chase's spoken voice AND the voice of Chase's inner monologue clear. That's tough to do. Meanwhile, he gives distinctive interpretations to the many other boys in the story as well. He even does a great job with the sole female voice we hear.

    If you're a fan of audio-books, you'll want to check this one out simply to enjoy the brilliance of Crisden's performance. However if you're NOT a big fan of audio-books, this might not be the best one to start with. The many distinctions between the narration and Chase's spoken voice and the turmoils of his thoughts and his inner demons, take a certain amount of concentration to keep sorted and it's not easy listening.


    Was this a book you wanted to listen to all in one sitting?

    This was too long and too dark a spiral downward to listen to in one sitting. However the porn making interludes provided a necessary break in the tension and were enjoyable in their own right.


    Any additional comments?

    One should NOT expect a simple light-hearted yarn from a book with a red cover that features razor blades and blood drops, particularly when the prologue has the MC locked in a bathroom with one of those blades to his wrist...

    Chase Summers is a deeply damaged young man. After finding his mother dead in a bathtub as a child, after growing up with a drunken, abusive father who blames him and his "faggy" ways, it's a wonder that Chase can pass for normal at all. But he does. Chase is determined to be a success, to have a girlfriend and a successful college baseball career, get an engineering degree and even someday, a house of his own. All it will take is for him to deny certain aspects of himself which might make his father's assertions true. He must never, ever, let the people he cares about see the real him.

    When Chase hears about "Johnnies" the gay for pay porn site he sees a way to explore some of his long sublimated desires and still maintain a level of denial. But as he meets the guys, and falls for one particular guy, the pressure that has been building since his early childhood redoubles.Chase, his boyhood friends and even his workmates are all charming and well drawn and we soon come to care for all these guys.

    And yet Chase's damage is ever-present and growing. Symbolized by a "Red Door" that is soon all too frequent, it's clear that just as certainly as in any Greek tragedy, the flaws in Chase that his childhood created make his ultimate fate inescapable. And yet to attempt something is not always to succeed. And it's the events that happen after the attempt that make this story rise above the mundane. It's as much a tale of recovery and redemption as it is of the despair that gets us there.

    3 of 3 people found this review helpful
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    Tams (TTC Books and more) JUSTIN, TX, United States 08-27-14
    Tams (TTC Books and more) JUSTIN, TX, United States 08-27-14 Member Since 2012

    Avid reader, reviewer, blogger and budding author.

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    "A Haunting Tale"
    If you could sum up Chase in Shadow in three words, what would they be?

    Dark, Emotional and Beautiful


    What other book might you compare Chase in Shadow to and why?

    A Solid Core of Alpha. The main characters and storylines are quite similar.


    What about Sean Crisden’s performance did you like?

    Loved it, he's one of the best in the business!


    Was there a moment in the book that particularly moved you?

    When Chase finally opens up about the red door and his mom.


    Any additional comments?

    At first glance one would think Chase Summers life is perfect. He has a devoted fiancé, a home, friends and good paying job. Dig down deep though and you’ll find the stuff of nightmares. Chase buries his sexuality behind a blood red door that binds his soul. His father is a homophobe of the highest order, and his mother killed herself when he was just a boy, only adding to the emotional scars that make up Chase’s tattered soul. The little piece of heaven in Chase’s otherwise psychotic existence is his job for a ‘gay for pay’site, Johnnies.

    Tommy Halloran has his own personal demons to deal with. He’s bulimic, brought on by a need to look as fit and trim as possible in front of the cameras. His Johnnies persona, Tango, is a sexy little minx with his dark hair and piercing eyes and absolutely zero inhibitions where sex is concerned. Tommy and the other guys at Johnnies quickly befriend Chase, but somewhere along the way the relationship between Tommy and Chase becomes something more.

    After Tommy’s mom dies and Chase is a shoulder to cry on, the two begin a passionate affair. Yes, Chase is still closeted and lying to his fiancé, but he doesn’t lie to Tommy about the important things, or so he thinks. Keeping his sexuality and his past bottled up behind that red door that is starting to buckle under the pressure, turn out to be more than anyone could bare. When the bough breaks, and Chase takes a razor to his wrist, he finally opens up about his sexuality. Turns out, that was just the tip of the iceburg.

    First, I’m going to tell you this was one of the best books I’ve ever listened to. Then I have to warn you that if you have triggers... severe depression, attempted suicide, abuse, neglect... be warned all of these situations are depicted in this story. While this was a very heavy story to listen to it was told in such a way that I was engaged and intrigued throughout. I found myself silently weeping at one point, when Chase finally opens up about the red door and his mom, it was devastating. But the way he gets through everything, surrounded by nothing but love and support, because Tommy and the rest of his friends NEVER leave his side, was beautiful.

    Either Amy Lane works with people with depression and anxiety, has a family member or close friend that suffers or she does some of the best research in the business. I know someone whose situation is quite similar to Chase’s and the way Lane describe things were so eerily true, it was almost haunting.

    Now the narration, wow! It’s no secret Sean Crisden is one of my favourite narrators, his voice is mesmerizing. The way he can change his tone with just the barest of pitch or breathe adds so much more to the story. And then when you couple his expertise with a fantastically written story, it’s a masterpiece. Throughout the story Chase has this inner monologue going, the demon that is his depression speaks and Crisden had a specific voice, monotone almost, that he used for these parts in the story. It allowed me as a listener to feel the gravity of Chase’s situation. He’s all sunshine and smiles on the outside, but inside he’s being torn apart, and all the while this demon of depression is so matter of fact about everything, it really shows the truth of what goes on inside the minds of people that suffer this debilitating disease.

    This story is dark, dramatic and emotionally draining. But there is such a beauty to the bond between Chase and Tommy and the way they literally drag each other out of hell, that I can’t not recommend it.

    3 of 3 people found this review helpful
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    Orlando Murrieta, CA, United States 05-12-14
    Orlando Murrieta, CA, United States 05-12-14 Member Since 2011
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    "Amy Lane doesn't disappoint"

    Fantastic combination of a great book and a great narrator bring this heart wrenching tale to life. It's not an easy book, but it's expertly handled by the author and narrator alike. Amy Lane always delivers, love her work.

    3 of 3 people found this review helpful
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    Kindle Customer United States 04-03-14
    Kindle Customer United States 04-03-14

    I'm Married 25 years with 5 sons. I love romance anything to do with love, love and more love. I am officially a audible junkie :)

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    "Oh The Pain!!"

    One recommendation I have is to read "Dex in blue" That's the first book in the series, and it sets up "Chase in Shadow" and makes it even better.

    This is such a good book, Chase and Tommy ripped my heart out. There were tears and sniffling. But The HEA is worth all the pain and hurt.

    I love Chase and Tommy and all the supporting cast, well except the dad (he's a jerk). The story drew me in to the very last word. Amy Lane can tell a darn good story.
    Sean Crisden did a wonderful narration as usual and i was happy to see it was him doing it.

    5 of 6 people found this review helpful
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    Candateshia Pafford Fort Meade 04-05-14
    Candateshia Pafford Fort Meade 04-05-14 Member Since 2015

    I really enjoy the world of books! Narration just add layers to that world... don't u think? :)

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    "Lane... usually a winner!"

    I usually like all of Amy Lane's books... this one was good..but the back and forth from present, past and future...confused me a bit....and if the book wasn't shifting timeframe...well there u go! Confused....

    AWESOME NARRATION! I loved Crisden!!!!

    Maybe a credit if u can figure out the timeframe!

    4 of 5 people found this review helpful
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    Denise SC 03-26-15
    Denise SC 03-26-15 Member Since 2014
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    "This book packed a punch!!!"
    Where does Chase in Shadow rank among all the audiobooks you’ve listened to so far?

    Top 5, I think.


    What was one of the most memorable moments of Chase in Shadow?

    The prologue was a punch to the gut, for sure.


    Which scene was your favorite?

    The scene where Mercy hands it to Chase, towards the end. Although, it wasn't between the two main romance characters, I felt it was so realistic to how someone in her situation felt, it was heart wrenching


    Did you have an extreme reaction to this book? Did it make you laugh or cry?

    Both reactions. It was hard to see Chase do all the things he did, merely to hide his past, from everyone, including himself.


    Any additional comments?

    The narrator did great! He had varying voices for all the characters, and really used his voice to convey meaning.

    1 of 1 people found this review helpful
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    Paul S. Nowak 03-01-15 Member Since 2013
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    "Problematicaly BETTER written than most in genre"
    Would you listen to Chase in Shadow again? Why?

    No. But that's not an insult, I just rarely read books twice.


    What did you like best about this story?

    That it wasn't just smut (despite the cliche of being about porn stars)


    What does Sean Crisden bring to the story that you wouldn’t experience if you just read the book?

    Sadly, the fact that this is an audio book takes away from the transition-less jumps between scenes. It was a bit confusing at the beginning but I got used to it...after about 3 hours


    Was there a moment in the book that particularly moved you?

    When I figured out the red door about 3 minutes before it came up.


    Any additional comments?

    The red door imagery really was hammered on a bit too much. Noone is THAT conscious about their feelings and the thought of actively repressing them.

    1 of 1 people found this review helpful
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    Vicki 08-01-14
    Vicki 08-01-14
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    "Must read Dex in Blue first!!"
    If you could sum up Chase in Shadow in three words, what would they be?

    This is the second book in the series. When I first bought this book, I didn't realize it was part of a series and started listening too it and stop after about 20 minutes. I thought a suicide was a horrible way to start a book.

    After discovering that this was book 2, I went back and listened to book one "Dex in Blue" and then this book was awesome. The book makes a lot more sense when read in context with the series. The third book in the series is Ethan in Gold. I have really enjoyed this series.


    1 of 1 people found this review helpful

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