From Cat Marnell, "New York's enfant terrible" (The Telegraph), a candid and darkly humorous memoir of prescription drug addiction and self-sabotage, set in the glamorous world of fashion magazines and downtown nightclubs.
At 26 Cat Marnell was an associate beauty editor at Lucky, one of the top fashion magazines in America - and that's all most people knew about her. But she hid a secret life. She was a prescription drug addict. She was also a "doctor shopper" who manipulated Upper East Side psychiatrists for pills, pills, and more pills; a lonely bulimic who spent hundreds of dollars a week on binge foods; a promiscuous party girl who danced barefoot on banquets; a weepy and hallucination-prone insomniac who would take anything - anything - to sleep.
This is a tale of self-loathing, self-sabotage, and, yes, self-tanner. It begins at a posh New England prep school - and with a prescription for attention deficit disorder medication Ritalin. It continues to New York, where we follow Marnell's amphetamine-fueled rise from intern to editor through the beauty departments of NYLON, Teen Vogue, Glamour, and Lucky. We see her fight between ambition and addiction and how, inevitably, her disease threatens everything she worked so hard to achieve.
From the Conde Nast building (where she rides the elevator alongside Anna Wintour) to seedy nightclubs, from doctors' offices and mental hospitals, Marnell shows - like no one else can - what it is like to live in the wild, chaotic, often sinister world of a young female addict who can't say no.
Combining lightning-rod subject matter and bold literary aspirations, How to Murder Your Life is mesmerizing, revelatory, and necessary.
©2017 Cat Marnell (P)2017 Simon & Schuster, Inc.
I didn't read the print version
It's a memoir, so Cat
There was a lot of screeching and yelling (and puking) sound effects that I found really annoying and detracted from the story. Perhaps they would have worked in print but in audio, they just made me want to shut it off.
I enjoyed the reading aside from the screeching, but the screeching was so annoying that it brought the rating down from what would have been probably a 4 or so.
I expected Cat to have a raspier voice, given the smoking and drug abuse... but her voice is kind of lovely.
I listened to this book in 24 hrs, at work and on my train ride home. It was kind of like having a very dysfunctional friend around - or listening to my twenty something year old self minus the cool career.
I really enjoyed the story, and Cats fake screams were always laughable.
A fan of Marnell's work for some time, I was eager for the arrival of this book! I couldn't decided if I should get the hard copy or go audio book, as sometimes audio book is easier for commuting and working. Once I found out that she is the narrator, I decided on starting here. I plan on reading the prose in print, as well. She's a great writer and crafts her story with great talent. It flows well, her prose are witty and delicate and casual, and at times, flippant- when appropriate. She is a GREAT narrator (which is key for audio book). Her words are in her own voice and her intonation and cadence keep you listening. I wish there was more to listen to!! Looking forward to reading it and ingesting her copy on paper. A great insight on a very particular New York scene. Knowing many of the characters personally (though I don't know cat), her descriptions are spot on. She slices up so many layers but brings it all together in the end. I love when a story has layers, don't you? New York is a lonely place.
The book is a good read/listen! Very very intriguing. I am an addict myself and enjoy hearing success stories from fellow addicts. Cat definitely had a tough road but still persisted. I was dying to find out what happened with Marco within the last couple hours of the book. Glad I bought it. One of the best audio books I've bought so far.
Interesting book but the narrating author talks about dark things, like purging and pill popping, in this cheerful drew Barrymore like voice and tone that seems....insincere. In this case, Perhaps a better read than an audiobook
While the story itself is heartbreaking, Cat is a fantastic storyteller. I could listen to her for hours. She's bright, funny, humble and self-aware. I'm sorry for all she has gone through but I admire her courage to write this. One of the best books I've listened to in a long time.
The story itself held my attention. Unfortunately, the author who narrates the book herself, has a tendency to sound whiny and hysterical at emotional scenes. She also keeps inserting "sound effects" throughout the book, most notably, far too many fake screams. If this were less frequent, it wouldn't be a problem, but it's throughout the book. If it looks interesting to you, I would consider reading it instead of listening to it.
Very interesting, compelling book. I liked Cat's voice over work as well. I loved listening to her stories and reflected on my life and ambitions. I will now oddly miss her now that I have finished her book. I hope she cranks out another one sooner than later!
Cat nailed it! No one has ever made a memoir about being a requiem for a dream level of drug addict this funny! Self loathing, abortions, suicide, eating disorders, these are the dark corners of life I can't help but indulge in. This fulfilled my indulgence . Fucking badass!
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