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Beyond Belief Audiobook

Beyond Belief: My Secret Life Inside Scientology and My Harrowing Escape

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Audie Award Finalist, Non-Fiction, 2014

Jenna Miscavige Hill, niece of Church of Scientology leader David Miscavige, was raised as a Scientologist but left the controversial religion in 2005. In Beyond Belief, she shares her true story of life inside the upper ranks of the sect, details her experiences as a member Sea Org - the church's highest ministry - speaks of her "disconnection" from family outside of the organization, and tells the story of her ultimate escape.

In this tell-all memoir, Jenna Miscavige Hill, a prominent critic of Scientology who now helps others leave the organization, offers an insider's profile of the beliefs, rituals, and secrets of the religion that has captured the fascination of millions, including some of Hollywood's brightest stars such as Tom Cruise and John Travolta.

©2013 Jenna Miscavige Hill (P)2013 HarperCollinsPublishers

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    Tim TEMECULA, CA, United States 02-07-13
    Tim TEMECULA, CA, United States 02-07-13 Member Since 2006
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    "The Despicable Truth Behind Scientology"

    We are all familiar with Scientology in general terms as a weird, sinister quasi religion/cult. However the depressing and shocking detail offered by this book brings home the reality of the horror to a new level. What makes the story even stranger is that the author is the niece of the current leader of the "church" and a distant relative of the Sci Fi scam artist L Ron Hubbard who created this fake “religion.”

    Her story starts at a very young age with her account of life in the concentration camp like setting of a Church communal compound in California. I have read stories of the lives or orphans raised by Priests in Ireland and if you thought that kind of abuse was a thing of the past this story will set you straight. The author becomes a member of the Sea Org the quasi priesthood of the organization. Even though she is effectively a member of the Scientology elite inner sanctum the persecution, abuse and maltreatment continues well into her adult years....indeed until she flees the "Church."

    Her accounts are quite as disturbing as anything you may have read about the excesses of communism, fascism or Cambodia under Pol Pot. The methods of though control and exploitation are straight out of the 1984 playbook. The fact that this kind of abuse and insanity is alive and well and happening right now in a town about an hour from where I live is doubly horrifying.

    The author is obviously inexperienced and stylistically it’s a little clumsy somewhat in the vein of Anne Frank’s diary, but that doesn't get in the way of the reality she describes. This is disturbing, sad and compelling reading about a corrupt, abusive organization which currently enjoys tax exemption as a religion from the IRS.

    171 of 178 people found this review helpful
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    Donna M Santa Monica, CA 02-11-13
    Donna M Santa Monica, CA 02-11-13 Member Since 2012

    Donna M Thomas

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    "Brave Woman, Brave Story!"

    I was hesitant to read this book because Scientology really messed up someone close to me. I didn't want to ready anything about this dangerous organization, but my instincts said to do it, and I'm glad I did!

    I wanted to put this book down a few times because what happened to Ms. Hill, and others in the story, was beyond absurd and disturbing. It pissed me off because I knew I couldn't do anything about it. But then I couldn't put the book down because I wanted to witness her evolution and what it would take for her to break free.

    The intelligence, courage and strength Ms. Hill showed in the end was incredibly inspiring. I am certain this book will help many who have experienced pain, suffering and damage from Scientology. Hopefully it will educate others so that they don't find themselves prey to this organizations and others like it.

    43 of 46 people found this review helpful
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    angel 02-08-13
    angel 02-08-13
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    "Beyond Belief"

    Harrowing chronicle of modern day control freakism and violation of child labor laws that would make Upton Sinclair blush in rage.

    We've all met someone to whom the label "control freak" applies, but thank God that most of us have never come into contact with someone who's control freakishness extends to the writing of reams of rules to cover every waking moment of a person's life from the cradle to the grave, not to mention the perversity of a mind twisted from birth by those same mind-numbing, soul-sapping trivialities that then becomes one of the wardens or trustees, replacing those who move on up to the higher echelons of privilege.

    Tellingly, I've never heard of one of these types of hellish utopias that doesnt enrich the few at the top with the spoils of backbreaking labor by those at the bottom. The riches derived in this manner are truly obscene, extending to the creation of world-wide properties and monies. It's "beyond belief" the types of social systems that can be constructed and maintained by self-isolating groups in these USA. I've thus far avoided reading about those Warren-Jeffs types of polygamous groups, but after hearing what was dreamed up and put into practice by "LRH" and his minions, I assume those polygamists can't be much worse, so I plan to audioread about them next.

    Perverse. Abusive. Nightmarish. These are the words that come to mind while listening to this brave woman's tale of self-discovery in captivity and the strength of spirit with which she freed herself and her loved ones.

    64 of 70 people found this review helpful
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    Donna 02-25-13
    Donna 02-25-13

    Loving audible

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    "Scientology: unimaginable evil"

    Ripped away from family that was brainwashed into thinking that the scientology "ranch" was like a boarding school rather than the worst orphanages portrayed in "Jane Eyre".
    Almost 20 years of scientology brainwashing, taught to be afraid of anyone outside of the cult to insure seperation, forbidden to use internet, watch tv or movies, sounds more like a North Korean dictatorship than existing in California & Florida less than 10 years ago. It almost broke Jenna Hill but she is stronger than all that and is now helping others who escaped.

    24 of 26 people found this review helpful
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    Teresa Gregory Indianapolis, IN USA 05-04-13
    Teresa Gregory Indianapolis, IN USA 05-04-13 Member Since 2015

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    "This Was an Eye-Opener"

    I've heard people talk about Scientology. I remember seeing ads on television for "Dianetics by L Ron Hubbard." I never knew quite what it was, but they sure did advertise a lot. (As I recall the book moved toward the screen bursting from flames.)

    Based on the name and the fact that L Ron Hubbard was a science fiction writer. I assumed that the people involved would be techie types, smart and educated, into cutting edge technology. Wow! Was I wrong!

    The author tells her story, and what a story it is. She is a third-generation Scientologist. I had no idea it had been around that long. She basically grew up alone since she was separated from her parents at an early age. Making this even more interesting is the fact that her parents were high-ranking people in the organization, and her uncle became the head of it when LRH died. With those credentials, you would think she would have lived the good life. No so.

    Describing day-to-day operations, I got the impression of people being almost automatons. They were constantly being watched by each other. Every imperfection and indiscretion was reported. It also made me curious so I Googled "Scientology uniforms" so see what they wore. This just enhanced the vision of brainwashed uniformed minions like those in a bad science fiction movie.

    While the actual people who do the work are treated poorly, the celebrity members are treated very well. My daughter commented that she read some celebrities stay because the organization has a lot of personal info on them that was gathered during their auditing sessions.

    I think the thing that struck me the most was the lack of education. The current head, David Miscavige, dropped out of school at age 16. The author's parents were also drop-outs. Most startling was at one point, the author had an opportunity to leave, and the reason she stayed was because she knew that she would not be able to fit into public school with her lack of education. Her only knowledge was the teachings of LRH.

    This was a very interesting inside look at a non-mainstream religion that I knew almost nothing about.

    23 of 25 people found this review helpful
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    Museum Quality 02-11-13 Member Since 2012

    300 books in 20 months.

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    "Must read for anyone with kids."

    As a student in Boston during the late 80's.I was constantly approached on the street by these scientologists and once entered their "church". on Newbury street. They have expensive real estate which psycologically gives themselves credibility to the young people they target. And they do aggresively target them. Every year hundreds of thousands of new minds enter the city and they are waiting. This book is a highly detailed account into the inner workings of this cult. It gives great insight into mind control and manipulation. While most of us will never be threatend or affected by such an extreme organization one can learn from the writers experience on how to avoid being manipulated or controlled by any organazation. The narrator captured the authors transition from mind robbed child to angry adult, flawlessly.

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    Kris Australia 03-21-13
    Kris Australia 03-21-13 Member Since 2015
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    "I had no idea!"

    This is an excellent book! It doesn't exactly weave a tale like some biographies might, and the way fiction books do, but I was totally sucked in and wanted to keep listening... Perhaps it is because it was written by Jenna Miscavige herself and it's true.

    I imagine few of us would have a solid understanding of Scientology, but the truth is almost unbelievable.

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    Amazon Customer 03-22-13 Member Since 2013

    Protect the innocent and helpless. Stand for truth and goodness and your soul will be happy and blessed.

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    "Sad that Scientology is allowed to abuse children."

    This book is the story of a child born into Scientology. She had no freedom to even
    think for herself. I am so glad she got out alive.
    David Miscavige's wife has been missing for years and no one is looking for her.
    Why?
    Scientology is classified at or near the top of harmful cults. They take all your money, Noting is free with them. They charge for the "help", which is really brainwashing.
    If you have no money they put you in the sea org. to work as a slave.
    People who speak out against them are in danger of being sued and followed for
    years. They have a history of being a mind control cult. They force secrets out of you to use as blackmail if you try to escape.
    Please also read. "A Peace of Blue Sky." by Atack. I is not an audio book yet but I hope audible will consider it. A Peace of Blue Sky is available at amazon as a kindle e-book.

    The abuse from this "religion" started from the beginning with Ron L. Hubbard.
    Some think is is only the current leadership.
    It is much deeper than that.

    By the way. I am not a Scientologist and have never visited any of their "churches"
    I am just a mom, nurse and concerned citizen who is trying to educate myself
    about abuses going on in our country.
    We should demand the Scientology be held accountable for the evil it is brought on
    innocent people.

    25 of 28 people found this review helpful
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    tim United States 03-25-13
    tim United States 03-25-13 Member Since 2012
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    "Revealing about all religious cults"
    Would you listen to Beyond Belief again? Why?

    Yes. It is a fascinating look at how people can be manipulated and abused in the name of religion. It is a primer on child abuse as well.


    Was this a book you wanted to listen to all in one sitting?

    Absolutely. Knowing she eventually escaped made each step she took in that direction riddled with anxiety and anticipation.


    Any additional comments?

    Anyone who reads this book will wonder how Scientology continues to survive.

    22 of 25 people found this review helpful
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    Carlee 07-06-16
    Carlee 07-06-16 Member Since 2016
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    "thank you thank you thank you"

    thank you for speaking out and telling the truth about what goes on in the Sea Org and Scientology. thank God I was only there for a while when I became pregnant and I realized I did not want my child growing up in that atmosphere. And I think God everyday for a strong backbone and the difference of knowing right from wrong and leaving when I did. I told my husband I was leaving with or without him he would have to make up his mind. my husband thank God didn't take much convincing for him to leave although he was in Scientology for a lot longer than I was. I was passed out while I was there, I was told that I could be made to disappear, and I was told that I would have to raise my child by myself because my husband wasn't coming with me. As I said they were wrong he did and we've been happy ever since. but it's been a long time coming and I'm really happy that somebody is telling this story. Thank you so much for your bravery and your commitment to getting the truth out there.

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  • Nigel
    Reading, United Kingdom
    4/13/13
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    "Fascinating"

    An engaging insight as to how someone, born into a belief system, struggled with what was dissonant between the faith and the realities she observed.

    4 of 4 people found this review helpful
  • Jamie
    Nottingham, United Kingdom
    12/8/13
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    "Enjoyable insight into the closest ranks"
    Would you listen to Beyond Belief again? Why?

    There's a lot of info to take in initially but it was a fascinating story


    What did you like best about this story?

    Get to see behind the curtain of the highest ranks and family of the leadership of the 'church' and how twisted and manipulative it is.


    Which character – as performed by Sandy Rustin – was your favourite?

    Lead character


    Was this a book you wanted to listen to all in one sitting?

    Impossible to listen to in 1 go ... too much to take in ... but i found it easy to pickup and put down again


    3 of 3 people found this review helpful
  • S Leeves
    England
    4/10/15
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    "Repetitive.."

    I enjoyed the book at first, fascinating subject but I found it a bit too long.
    Jenna had a horrible childhood and
    so do many other children of scientology shockingly so.
    There was a lot of repetition about sessions ect.. had to skip a few of the last chapters because they were the same things over and over!
    The narration was superb though and it got me through the ironing nicely.

    2 of 2 people found this review helpful
  • Countess_Dracul
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    "The most riveting book I've listened to in ages!"

    An absolutely riveting book, and mind boggled that this actually happened to someone. The idea that no one stepped in to help is as shocking as what the "church" actually did.

    1 of 1 people found this review helpful
  • Minna
    10/15/16
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    "Worth the listen"

    The narrator does a fair job narrating the book, but can at times come of sounding a bit childish.
    The story is mostly compelling, but still left me a bit disappointed, i dont know what i expected (probably more of an exposé) but the story is perhaps so centret around the "me" that the bigger picture gets neglected.
    Despite this complaint, its worth a listen for everyone interested, perplexed, intrigued by the harrowing scientology.

    0 of 0 people found this review helpful
  • Emma Jones
    Brighton
    10/3/16
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    "Interesting but annoying"

    Jenna Miscavige is uniquely placed to give an insight into the controversial and poorly understood world of Scientology and from reading this book my understanding increased hugely. I listened to the whole thing and did enjoy it overall.

    However, I am not sure how much was related to the narration and how much was from the underlying writing but the tone could become quite annoying. I felt like parts of it were her saying 'well I was just too pretty and too kind and everyone was so mean to me.' Of course this is an exaggeration and no doubt what she went through was far from a normal childhood but I do think the book could have benefitted from a bit of a wider perspective and less of a focus on little incidents that happened to her that are read in a tone of shock at how anyone could treat her like that. I think it actually detracts from the unusualness of what happens as she often comes across as any child would taking about the 'terrible' things their teachers or brothers and sisters did to them.

    I would recommend this book to anyone interested in Scientology but just be aware that it is, as I'm sure it was intended to be, very much a personal tale of what she went through rather than a well researched and written work on Scientology.

    0 of 0 people found this review helpful
  • Matthew
    London, United Kingdom
    12/16/15
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    "The Emperors new clothes"
    What made the experience of listening to Beyond Belief the most enjoyable?

    The honesty.


    What was one of the most memorable moments of Beyond Belief?

    All of it!


    Any additional comments?

    It is a worry that the US government gives such an organisation religious status.

    Surely they are perpetuating the myth and causing more suffering. Religion is simply a way to numb the brain for the pain which follows.

    You can apply pretty much all of the principles of what happened to this young girl/lady to all religions, but obviously at different levels.

    Religion is abuse. This is just one lens into one of the most abusive.

    0 of 1 people found this review helpful
  • Laura
    Newbridge, Ireland
    12/30/13
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    "Incredible insight into life as a young scientolog"
    Would you listen to Beyond Belief again? Why?

    No. I never listen to books a second time.


    What other book might you compare Beyond Belief to, and why?

    None and feel no need to explain myself


    Which character – as performed by Sandy Rustin – was your favourite?

    Ridiculous question - did you listen to the book ?


    Was there a moment in the book that particularly moved you?

    Many


    Any additional comments?

    Yes, as I was saying this book provides an excellent insight into the life of a young child growing up in the Church of Scientology. I was with the author all the way as the story is told in the first person right up to the last couple of chapters when her own credibility in her own words began to wane. Things like "I had to tell him the truth otherwise I would be deceiving him". This was given as the rationale for lying to someone else in the next breath. It all added up to the tagline "...and my harrowing escape.." being a large stretch when in actuality it would appear she stayed of her own volition (by her own words) because she was comfortable, everything was provided for her and the world out there was scary (even if her own parents were out there waiting for her). Several statements after that did not add up to a cohesive picture. "Had to sign a statement saying I would not publish" despite being out of the church with no apparent pressure on her, then published. Clearly she did not have to sign that statement as she stated at the time she had no intention of abiding by it. A few things like that went to the core of the author's credibility. Despite these this is a fascinating and interesting insight into the appalling practices of the so-called Church, the wrath that they visit on their own people, the sheer fairy stories they tell, the intimidation and car following and overall an excellent listen from Audible.

    2 of 8 people found this review helpful

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