A Dutiful Boy

A Memoir of a Gay Muslim’s Journey to Acceptance

By: Mohsin Zaidi

Narrated by: Mohsin Zaidi

Length: 8 hrs and 12 mins

Publisher's summary

Brought to you by Penguin.

Winner of the Polari First Book Prize, 2021

A coming-of-age memoir about growing up queer in a strict Muslim household. Like Educated with a modern British context.

Mohsin grew up in a deprived pocket of East London; his family was close-knit but very religiously conservative. From a young age Mohsin felt different, but in a home where being gay was inconceivable, he also felt very alone. Outside of home Mohsin went to a failing inner city school where gang violence was a fact of life.

As he grew up, life didn’t seem to offer teenage Mohsin any choices: he was disenfranchised as a poor brown boy, and he was isolated from his family as a closet gay Muslim.

However, Mohsin had incredible drive, and he used education as a way out of his home life and as a means to throw himself into a new kind of life. He became the first person from his school to go to Oxford University, and there he found the freedom to come out to his friends.

But Oxford was a whole different world with its own huge challenges, and Mohsin found himself increasingly conflicted. It came to a head when Mohsin went back to visit his parents only to be confronted by his father and a witchdoctor he'd invited to 'cure' Mohsin.

Although Mohsin's story takes harrowing turns, it is full of life and humour and ends inspiringly. Through his irrepressible spirit Mohsin breaks through emotional and social barriers, and in the end he even finds acceptance from his family.

Now Mohsin is a top criminal barrister who fights large-scale cases on a daily basis. Having faced battles growing up, he truly understands the importance of justice as a way of life.

©2020 Mohsin Zaidi (P)2020 Penguin Audio

Critic reviews

"The moving personal story of a gay Muslim's tribulations and triumphs at the interface of family, faith and freedom, told with great candour and eloquence." (Peter Tatchell)

"An incredibly hopeful, urgent and well told coming of age story about religion, class, and LGBTQ+ acceptance - no doubt reading it will save someone’s life." (Amelia Abraham)

"A beautifully written, heartrending story of a young gay man’s journey, liberation and love. A real page turner that sparks with humanity and hope." (Lord Michael Cashman)

One of the best books you’ll ever read

Having grown up in a Muslim, Indian family, this book resonates in a way I can’t even explain. I wish I’d had Mohsin’s story to help me through high school when I really needed it.

Mohsin’s memoir is both intense and funny. He captures how south Asian culture leaves one in a difficult position of choosing between the obligations of the family versus the obligations to the self, and his way of navigating it.

This is the book every Muslim and every parent should read.

An important read for all

I'm grateful that my look into the Lambda Literary awards let me here to A Dutiful Boy by Mohsin Zaidi. This is an honest and loving story about a family learning how to navigate religion and sexuality. As someone two years younger than the author, and also from a religious family, this book was like talking to a friend. Thank you so much, Mohsin.

One of the best reads

I thoroughly enjoyed reading this book. Thanks to the author for this masterpiece and for being authentic and raw when telling your story. Even the very sad ones. Thank you!

Beautiful story

The narration of this fascinating
memoir is the author. He does
a memorable job because his accent
is so authentic and so easy to
understand. I enjoyed every
moment of the story.

Exceptionally important story, masterful storytelling

I’m always a bit suspicious to see an autobiography by someone about half my age… But boy, is this an important, substantial and impactful life story, even for someone’s first 30 years. Read if even if you are not Muslim, gay, 30-something or British. It’s a fascinating window to the experience of someone of these characteristics, but mostly a universal story about family ties, overcoming adversity, being an outsider and the journey for self acceptance and being embraced for who you really are. Thank you for sharing.
I fully support the choice to have the author also narrating the audiobook. While he is not a professional narrator, the reading improves as you go along, and it adds authenticity (and thank god we don’t have to deal with a narrator who butchers all the foreign terms and names)…

What Many Men Fear Most

From beginning to end, I loved this book. It was beautifully read, held my attention at every moment, and conveyed the very challenging journey that LGBT cute people must endure regularly. For individuals and families alike, this book conveys hope for the most important aspect needed in such situations: love. This book could help any culture deal with the challenges of a gay person, or a trans or any other — People are made in varieties of ways; some harder to understand than others. In the end, all humans have the same need for love, affection, support, and a place in this world. Thank you, Mohsin, for your beautifully written memoir.