For over four years I've been documenting the world of Bentinho Massaro - a Dutch spiritual influencer with millions of followers and a very dark story behind the public image. This is my deep dive investigation. We've heard from Jacqueline Graham in Episodes 1 and 2. Now it's time to hear from Keilan McNeil.

Keilan's entry point into Bentinho's world is completely different from Jacqueline's. He wasn't a spiritual seeker. He was a twenty-two year old film school dropout, isolated, angry at the system, going down conspiracy YouTube at two in the morning. Bentinho didn't offer him enlightenment. He offered him purpose. And that distinction matters - because purpose is a harder hook to see, and a harder one to let go of.

This episode covers Keilan's arc from the first YouTube video through Egypt, Hawaii, and Italy. Along the way we meet Cory Katuna for the first time - Bentinho's right-hand woman, the person who kept the whole operation running. We also meet Allison McClarty, Bentinho's girlfriend during this period, whose story is one of the more difficult ones in the series. And we spend time on something essential to understand about these organizations - the way they take your clearest, most legitimate instincts and weaponize them against you. Every group does it. The language is always different. The move is always the same.

As with all of them, Keilan broke a significant six-figure NDA to tell this story.

Bentinho Massaro's standing invitation to appear on this podcast remains open.

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In Part One, we met Jacqueline Graham, a Canadian mother of three, a lifelong spiritual seeker, and the woman who would become Bentinho Massaro's girlfriend. We watched her get drawn in: the love bombing, the pedestaling, the first cruelties, the money handed over in Panama. This episode is about what happened after she decided to go all in.

"All In" covers the full arc of Jacqueline's time inside: the financial coercion, the manipulation tactics, a letter she was asked to sign at a monastery in the Netherlands that she probably shouldn't have, a night in Vegas she describes as one of the most degrading experiences of her life, and the slow, painful collapse that finally led her out. It ends with the two words she sent to a woman she'd never met, whose story turned out to be her own story.

Throughout this episode I've woven narration in and out of Jacqueline's account, trying to give the listener the psychological scaffolding to understand what they're hearing. Not just what happened, but why it makes sense that it happened, and why the people it happened to are not the ones who should carry the shame of it. We get into betrayal blindness and DARVO, two concepts developed by psychologist Dr. Jennifer Freyd that turn out to be an almost perfect description of how organizations like this one operate. We talk about shame -- how it's manufactured, how it's weaponized, and how it keeps people silent long after they've left. And we talk about what actually helps: connection, comparison of notes, and the decision not to hide.

Jacqueline broke a significant six-figure NDA to tell this story. She did it anyway. Because she felt she had no choice.

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I've seen this before. Not something like this. Not a similar version of this. This. The same playbook. The same psychological architecture. Just a different face.

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My name is Mark Vicente. I'm a filmmaker and a former member of NXIVM, the cult run by Keith Raniere, who is currently serving 120 years in federal prison. I was one of the whistleblowers who helped bring that organization down. That experience was chronicled in The Vow on HBO.

This is Inst@Guru, a new investigative podcast series going inside the world of Bentinho Massaro. Dutch. Blonde. Blue-eyed. Charming. Self-proclaimed enlightened being. Claims his penis has healing properties. Claims he's going to awaken civilization by 2035. Believes he's Ra, an extraterrestrial being in human form, here to correct a cosmic mistake.

He still has followers. He launched a new app in 2025. The machine is still running.

At the center of this series are three people who were inside his world, some of them deep inside, some of them for years. They call themselves the Three Amigos. Their names are Jacqueline Graham, Keilan McNeil, and Jade Alectra. All three broke their NDAs, agreements carrying significant six-figure penalty clauses, because they felt they had no choice.

I believe them.

In this episode, Jacqueline Graham tells her story from the beginning. Not from Bentinho... from herself. From who she was before any of this: a Canadian mother of three, a raw vegan restaurateur, a lifelong spiritual seeker who genuinely wanted to understand the deeper nature of reality. She found Bentinho on YouTube in 2013. By 2019, she was his girlfriend. By 2020, he had taken hundreds of thousands of dollars of her money.

This episode covers how it started. The teachings. The retreat in the Netherlands. The moment she watched the women around him fall apart and told herself: "I wouldn't act like that." The love bombing. The pedestalling. The first withdrawal. And the decision, standing in a hotel room in Panama after $80,000 had vanished overnight, that she was never going to doubt him again.

That decision is where Episode 1 ends. It is not where the story ends.

Bentinho Massaro, the invitation remains. Talk to me. Publicly.

CAST OF CHARACTERS link coming soon.

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THIS IS PART 2. In Part 1, I sat down with Margot Lane and Mara Moon - two former bandmates of Corey Feldman's Corey's Angels - to hear how they were drawn in: the love bombing, the false promises, the body shaming, and the slow erosion of their boundaries. If you haven't seen Part 1 yet, go there first.

Part 2 is where things escalate. On tour, the abuse ramps up: sleep deprivation, no bed, drug use, coerced sexual situations, and a moment of witnessing another woman being abused that became the breaking point. We also get into the NDA, Margot's labor board victory, what role Courtney played in the abuse of other women, and what Margot and Mara think is really driving Corey Feldman's behavior.

We close with something genuinely useful: their advice to anyone who might find themselves in a similar situation. Document everything. Get out. Get therapy. Find your support system.
The patterns these women describe are the same ones that show up in coercive control situations again and again. This story matters.

Watch Corey Feldman vs. The World before listening - it will make this conversation much more meaningful.
https://tv.apple.com/us/movie/corey-feldman-vs-the-world/umc.cmc.638hs9xgsfcmdcgkyn7s7m51u
Narcissist's Playbook - watch the trailer at http://www.narcissistsplaybook.com

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In this first part of a two-part episode, I sit down with Margot Lane and Mara Moon; two former bandmates of Corey Feldman who were part of his group, 'Corey's Angels'. Both women were subjects of the documentary film Corey Feldman vs. The World, directed by Marcie Hume, whom I interviewed in a previous episode.

Margot and Mara share how they were each drawn into Feldman's world, lured by promises of a music career, financial stability, and a fresh start, and what they found once they arrived. From body shaming and food restriction to controlled movement and psychological manipulation, their stories reveal a deeply troubling pattern that will be familiar to anyone who has studied or experienced coercive control.

I also address the apparent PR campaign working to silence those who speak out... and explain why silencing people almost always has the opposite effect.

This is Part 1. Part 2 drops next week.

Watch Corey Feldman vs. The World before listening — it will make this conversation much more meaningful.
https://tv.apple.com/us/movie/corey-feldman-vs-the-world/umc.cmc.638hs9xgsfcmdcgkyn7s7m51u
Narcissist's Playbook — watch the trailer at www.narcissistsplaybook.com

00:00 Cold Open – Mara's Warning
00:22 Introduction & Context
01:00 The PR Silencing Campaign
02:00 Does Abuse Justify Abuse? The Streisand Effect
03:34 Why This Story Matters
04:02 Who Were Margot and Mara Before?
06:43 Why They Said Yes — The Promise of Opportunity
08:18 Entering Corey's World – First Impressions
09:50 Red Flags Begin – Food, Body Shaming & Control
13:24 How It Felt to Be Targeted
15:17 Margot's Experience – Boundaries Under Fire
19:18 Patreon Cult Series Announcement
20:16 How They Were Hooked Through Their Art
22:24 Love Bombing & Flattery
23:45 The Polyamory Dynamic
25:13 Sexual Undertones & Coercion
28:32 The NDA, The Club & What Happened Next
38:02 End of Part 1 – See You Next Week

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Africa Brooke and I did an Instagram Live right after the Epstein files dropped, and we didn't hold back. Africa is one of my closest friends, one of the most honest thinkers I know, and someone who has never been afraid to ask the questions most people would rather avoid.

We talked about evil... why good people struggle to recognize it, why they keep making excuses for it, and what it costs us when we do. We talked about the psychology of narcissists and psychopaths, why they need us more than we realize, and what it actually means to stop being their fuel. We went into the spiritual dimension of what's happening, the importance of protecting your nervous system without dissociating from reality, and what it looks like to find your center when everything around you is designed to destabilize you.

My film is Narcissist Playbook.
https://www.narcissistsplaybook.com/

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00:00 Welcome, and why this conversation matters
9:10 NXIVM, waking up from a cult, and the obsession that followed
14:00 Interviewing self-confessed narcissists, sociopaths, and psychopaths
20:00 We are being psychologically operated on... and how to recognize it
26:15 Why they need our fear, and what it means that we can starve them
34:25 Locus of control... pulling yourself back inward
43:00 Stop looking to mommy and daddy government to fix what they created
53:35 How Africa and I met in Lisbon, and why I became a filmmaker
1:06:00 Don't dissociate... let your heart be broken and filled
1:16:00 Is it unethical to bring children into this world?
1:26:50 Sovereignty, initiation, and finding the grit inside yourself
1:36:40 Looking for omnipresent love in the creations instead of the creator

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She watches up to fourteen documentaries a week! Not for school. Not for work. Because she’s obsessed.

In this episode of WTF Is On My Mind?, I sit down with Christie Boschman, known online as That Documentary Girl. Her platform has grown to over 4.5 million followers because she does one thing exceptionally well. She talks about documentaries with real passion.

But this is not just a conversation about movies.

We get into why audiences are drawn to dark stories, the psychology behind cult and crime narratives, the disturbing patterns around Epstein and powerful men protecting each other, and why so many great independent documentaries struggle to find distribution.

Christie watches up to fourteen documentaries a week. She has become a bridge between indie filmmakers and the public, helping projects go viral and, in some cases, helping them secure distribution.

NARCISSIST'S PLAYBOOK TRAILER

We also discuss:
• Why dark stories travel faster than hopeful ones
• The ethics of covering trauma and predatory behavior
• Narcissism and how predators operate
• Online backlash and the psychology of keyboard warriors
• Why streaming platforms play it safe
• Whether social media is becoming the new proof of concept for truth

00:00 The reel that sparked this conversation
02:05 Falling in love with documentaries and Sharkwater
05:15 Why making documentaries is brutal
07:50 The documentary industry is struggling
10:15 Why dark stories perform online
12:40 Watching darkness without losing yourself
15:30 Epstein, power circles, and why people look away
21:10 Kumare and how cult leaders are made
23:00 Adrenaline documentaries and survival stories
27:00 Why great indie docs can’t find distribution
31:30 Going viral and building a platform from obsession
34:45 Online backlash and calling out bad behavior
38:20 Unauthorized documentaries and controversy
45:00 The Narcissist’s Playbook
47:00 Stutz and the power of the twist
51:45 Christie’s family documentary and The Honey Children
56:00 Why documentaries deserve to be seen
59:00 Finding awe and the antidote to cynicism

Films and series mentioned in this episode:
The Vow
What the Bleep Do We Know?
Sharkwater
Kumare
Filthy Rich
Corey Feldman vs. The World
Peter Nygård: Unseen
Allen v. Farrow
The Deepest Breath
The Last Breath
Touching the Void
I Shouldn’t Be Alive
Free Solo
The Alpinist
The Final Member
Beyond Utopia
Maya and the Wave https://youtu.be/44ElZ_dqgMA?si=qBAh18a3eWsd2a1F
Norman & Norman
Stutz
Between the Mountain and the Sky

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If you’re deeply committed to ideological purity or easily offended by nuance, this episode may be uncomfortable. And honestly, that might be the point. But if you’re a freethinker; someone who values truth over trend and curiosity over conformity, you’re going to have a great time.

Dr. Chloe Carmichael is a clinical psychologist and the bestselling author of Nervous Energy: Harness the Power of Your Anxiety. Her new book, “Can I Say That? Why Free Speech Matters and How to Use It Fearlessly”, dives deep into the psychological impact of censorship, not just on public discourse, but on our internal lives, relationships, and mental health.

In this conversation, we explore the emotional toll of self-censorship and how it quietly erodes authentic connection. We talk about the confusion between emotional discomfort and actual harm, and how that confusion is being used to justify silence. Dr. Chloe sheds light on how universities became epicenters of groupthink, and why we’re seeing a generation increasingly afraid of free thought. We discuss impression management, fragile egos, and the false selves people construct just to survive in today’s ideological climate. And yes, we even ask whether what we’re witnessing amounts to a kind of mass psychological regression.

Nothing is off the table, and that’s exactly the point.

CONNECT WITH DR. CHLOE
https://www.drchloe.com
https://www.freespeechtoday.com
Can I Say That? – Available wherever books are sold

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