lover and beloved as Father,

not father to me, but Father in himself

spine and the wings, stem and the bowl

Father and Mother, masculine and feminine in the Union

the roles disappear, but are not diminished

I see you, I am seen, it is personal, it is cellular

we ride on the golden wings of the hawk

against the back, hold me so close,

up in the sky, protecting the eyes and the corridor to Heaven

the Mother and Father are One

Indestructible Bindu of red and white seed essences

eternally wed in the Heart

the Light and Will of the Father, the Love and Devotion of the Mother

Love of the body, of the Earth elements

the physicality must come from the Mother, she is that

the body and the Love of it

The Precious Treasury of the Basic Space of Phenomena

is the depth of mind of the omniscient lama

that beautifully reveals the meaning of Dharmakaya,

Genuine Mind itself, to be Naked Awareness

with nothing to be added or dispelled

I possess the slow seeing of Owl, measured turning of the head Medicine of discernment, wisdom, and destroying deception

Truth of the Garden, Truth of the hell realms

lighting the way through death with shared Light and cultivation

to liberate the suffering ones, following Yeshua and Magdalena

but he has forgotten, or maybe not

yet he is choosing something else

in this moment of eternity and I am grieving

I pray to be shown the highest good that is in this

I especially pray to know my own happiness

the Causes of Happiness, and my deepest desires fulfilled

one part leaking energies and one part pristine absolute Truth

tantric, shamanic, and indigenous

we travel into the celestial realms through my voice,

then root into the body of the Mother, fingers touching lightly,

sinking bare toes into warm sand, sun kissing shining faces

man and woman on this earth walk, witnessed by the medicines,

creatures, angels and other humans in the light of day

letting go of him from ceremony, from the womb of purification

I took him in so deeply with the spoken prayer

the smoke, earth and sky, grandfather Tabaquito

letting go of him from traveling

through astral realms and the underworld,

where I already knew him

we have been there before many times together

he does not want to do this with me now