Going Home

We are such fools, we are, knowing all about inevitabilities, but never (ever) prepared for them. We will lose loved ones, they will die, some in their prime, some before they would have discovered their worth, some even as they burned themselves on both ends. Such is the life of denial we live. Refusing to acknowledge what we know as truth in the deepest fibre of our beings. And when the end does come, as of course it will, we are emotionally, spiritually, illogically, found wanting, found unprepared, found broken. We refuse to acknowledge the known, and the known's blow lands on us like a bludgeon. And we are broken into smithereens. When, if we had faced unto the reality of situations, we would have moulded our time, our priorities in elegant and deep engagements, which would have brought in a final grace in the ones we love to bits. Because often, only too often, we have to let go - of those we love, of those we hold on too tightly to - because in that release, we are also freeing ourselves from the burden of living on, of being the one alive, of the guilt of destiny, of the luck of having some more breaths left. The action of letting go is often the very action which gives us permission to live on. If you liked this poem, consider listening to these other poems on the ways death finds us -

• What Do I Leave Behind?
• An Epitaph of Light & Air
• Chemo: As I Battle Myself

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