Two years ago, Lexie almost cancelled this call. She sat in her car in the summer heat, shaking so hard she could barely hold her phone. Her co-workers had to take her to lunch first just to keep her from backing out.

Today she's releasing a debut poetry collection this summer — and in this episode, she reads one of her poems out loud for the very first time.

We talk about what two years of nervous system level identity work actually looks like from the inside — the shifts that sneak up on you, the survival patterns that quietly run your creative life, and what it finally felt like to stop keeping parts of herself in separate rooms.

In this episode:

• The moment Lexie volunteered to speak publicly — twice — after years of being the one who'd rather disappear into the walls
• What it meant to keep her faith in a separate compartment from every other part of her life, and what changed when she stopped
• Why she believes her writing isn't hers — and how that realization is what finally let her write the book
• The poem she wrote near the start of this work, about a time she didn't want to be alive — read out loud for the first time ever
• What she'd say to anyone who's scared to make the first call (from someone who was shaking through hers)

Links & resources:

→ Oder Prayer Before Art— Lexie's debut poetry collection, releasing July 10th on Amazon (link coming soon)

→ Follow Lexie on Instagram

→ Work with me 1:1 — for the woman ready to stop keeping parts of herself locked away

→ Join the Courage Portal — as Lexie put it, "it's 10pm, you're freaking out, you open the app and there's something in there that helps." Tools for the woman who's navigating the many complexities of owning her brilliance.

Nicole had done everything right. Spiritual work. Energy clearing. Limiting belief reprogramming. She had the vision, the coaching certification, and a clear picture of the stage she wanted to stand on. She was also googling her own symptoms a week before we started working together — convinced something was neurologically wrong with her brain.

It wasn't her mindset. It was her nervous system treating her dreams like a threat. In this episode, she walks us through what that actually felt like in her body, the two childhood memories that were quietly running her business decisions decades later, and what shifted when we finally worked with her body instead of around it.

Three months later — she's giving a keynote talk as an international speaker. That was the dream she had stopped believing in.

In this episode:

• The five-year-old alarm story — a moment Nicole laughed off for years that was secretly dictating her relationship with productivity and worth
• What 15 racing thoughts at once actually feels like in the body (and why calling it "Type A" kept her stuck)
• How regulation — not more strategy — became the foundation that let her finally build
• The concussion at 18 that locked her in a dark room and wired "useless = danger" into her nervous system
• What it feels like when your nervous system finally believes the dream is safe — in her words: "It now feels inevitable. I know I'm going to soar."

Ready to do this work?

→ Work with me 1:1 — for the woman ready to get her brain and body on board with the vision she's been carrying.

→ Join Confidence Mastery— for the woman who's wobbly as a newborn deer on a skateboard when it comes to owning her value & gifts.

→ Join the Courage Container— for the woman who knows she desires more from herself & her life and wants the clarity, support, and growth to go all in.

→ Join the Courage Portal — tools & support that build the Courageous ASF infrastructure to sustain your brilliance, authenticity, and emotional mastery.

→ Connect with Nicole — find her on Instagram @wellnesswithnicole

You've been fighting your body for years.

Controlling the food. Pushing through the workouts. Managing the schedule. Holding everything together.

And the harder you pull — the harder it pulls back.

Amanda Rurik thought she was doing everything right. Mother. Business owner. Clean eating. Supplements. A type-A work ethic she wore like a badge. What she didn't know was that her body was quietly tallying every skipped meal, every sleepless night, every emotion she swallowed to keep moving.

Then her second baby came. And the rope snapped.

In this episode Amanda gets raw about the moment debilitating anxiety forced her to stop white-knuckling her health — and start actually listening to it. What she found wasn't weakness. It wasn't a disorder. It was a body that had been screaming in the only language it knew.

We get into:

• The secret internal impacts anxiety has
• The moment two doctors told her she was "fine" and she knew they was more to her story
• Why trying to force symptoms away makes your body grip them harder
• The at-home hair test that revealed what a decade of bloodwork missed
• What it looks like to stop fighting your body and finally start living in it

This is for the woman who has been pulling the rope her whole life and wondering why she's exhausted.

Work with Luxury Hormone Specialist Amanda: ⁠@amandarurik

Ready to do this work?

→ ⁠Work with me 1:1⁠ — for the woman ready to get her brain and body on board with the vision she's been carrying.

→ Join ⁠Confidence Mastery⁠— for the woman who's wobbly as a newborn deer on a skateboard when it comes to owning her value & gifts.

→ Join the ⁠Courage Container⁠— for the woman who knows she desires more from herself & her life and wants the clarity, support, and growth to go all in.

→ ⁠Join the Courage Portal⁠ — tools & support that build the Courageous ASF infrastructure to sustain your brilliance, authenticity, and emotional mastery.