To Disappear Quietly

Wanting to Vanish, and Learning How to Stay

By: Renée Lovange

Narrated by: Renee Lovange

Like millions of teens, Renee suffered in silence behind a happy facade.

To Disappear Quietly is a contemporary YA coming-of-age novel that carries the emotional truth of a memoir. Beautifully written with raw, unflinching honesty, it invites listeners inside the hidden side of teenage anxiety—the silent panic, eating disorders, self-harm, and the crushing weight of trying to be “fine” for everyone else.

Inspired by real emotions and authentic experiences, author Renee Lovange shares her journey for the first time: from panic attacks and the pressure to fit in, through the wrong choices made just to avoid being left behind, to the urge to disappear so no one would get hurt—until she realises she has lost her true self.

Building on the world behind Dealing with Teen Anxiety, the guide Renee co-wrote with her mother, this novel shows what it actually feels like to live inside the storm—and how the slow, messy work of staying can begin.

To Disappear Quietly gives a voice to:

• Teens who feel unseen, misunderstood, or overwhelmed

• Parents who want to understand what’s really happening inside

• Anyone who has ever wanted to vanish—and is just starting to believe they might be able to stay

With honesty, vulnerability, and a quiet thread of resilience running through every chapter, this story reminds us that feelings are not facts—and that even in our darkest moments, belonging and joy are still possible. If you’ve ever felt invisible or on the edge of disappearing, this book is your reminder that you are not alone.

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An honest voice for those who want to disappear

To Disappear Quietly by Renée Lovange is a profoundly moving audiobook that tackles teenage anxiety with direct, unvarnished honesty. The narration feels intimate and close, as if the author were confiding in the listener's thoughts that had remained hidden for years. Through everyday scenes and difficult emotions, the book explores themes such as family pressure, eating disorders, and the desire to disappear, but always with a thread of hope present.

The writing is clear and easy to follow, though deliberately imperfect in its structure, which reinforces the sense of authenticity. Rather than offering solutions, the book provides understanding and companionship. It is a work that can help both young people who feel invisible and adults who want to understand that silent, complex inner world better.

Thoughtfully guides toward self-acceptance.

Quiet, compassionate audiobook, it is an exploration of the urge to disappear and the courage it takes to remain present in a world that can feel overwhelming.

The narration is gentle and reflective, making the experience feel more like a personal conversation than a lecture.

A tough listen I needed to hear

I knew going into this that it would be a hard listen, and it truly cuts straight to the core. I picked it up because I see younger people today carrying so much, and honestly, I don’t always understand what they’re dealing with. This story helped open my eyes to the quiet battles many teens face behind a calm exterior. It’s raw, uncomfortable at times, and deeply human. While it wasn’t easy to listen to, it gave me a level of empathy I didn’t realise I was missing.

A brave tale of expressing struggles and emotions.

Anxiety can be a nasty struggle in life caused by environmental factors such as childhood traumas, chronic stress and social influences. These tends to worsen in teenage years due to intense developmental changes, brain development, increased social and academic pressures. Becoming more aware of these factors leads to heightened worries about performance in school, socially cultural expectations, relationships and the future.

Renee shares her struggles and how she deal with her emotions in tough situations very bravely and honestly. Gives valuable insight into how hard life can be for teens dealing with strong emotions and anxiety, feeling they want to disappear and at the same time want to connect with others.

The narration was clear and easy to follow and full of emotional weight in every spoken world. This is an invaluable resource for both teens and parents.

Beautiful narration

The author has managed a fascinating narrator for this one! The story is eye-opening in the sense of being truly opening and far-sighted. You get the idea of the quiet genius that's looking for its way behind the facade. An enjoyable experience.