Made You Up

By: Francesca Zappia

Narrated by: Amanda Ronconi

Length: 9 hrs and 7 mins

Publisher's summary

Reality, it turns out, is often not what you perceive it to be - sometimes, there really is someone out to get you. For fans of Silver Linings Playbook and Liar, this thought-provoking debut tells the story of Alex, a high school senior - and the ultimate unreliable narrator - unable to tell the difference between real life and delusion. Alex fights a daily battle to figure out what is real and what is not. Armed with a take-no-prisoners attitude, her camera, a Magic Eight Ball, and her only ally (her little sister), Alex wages a war against her schizophrenia, determined to stay sane long enough to get into college. She's pretty optimistic about her chances until she runs into Miles. Didn't she imagine him? Before she knows it, Alex is making friends, going to parties, falling in love, and experiencing all the usual rites of passage for teenagers. But Alex is used to being crazy. She's not prepared for normal. Can she trust herself? Can we trust her?

©2015 Francesca Zappia (P)2017 Tantor

Critic reviews

"Debut novelist Zappia presents readers with a wholly unreliable narrator, [but] the characters all seem authentic, thanks to Zappia's careful attention to detail." ( Booklist)

Loved this book

I loved everything about this book. I want more. Fantastic job. Can't wait to read more of Francesca's words.

Pretty good listen

Overall, I’d say this was worth the listen. There were some parts of the storyline that were kinda weird/confusing, but other parts had me still invested in the story. As some other reviews had mentioned, it’s not a completely accurate portrayal of schizophrenia, so I would definitely recommend to keep that in mind while listening. But yeah, overall it wasn’t bad!

***

My soul!!! This was such an amazing book. I wish I had fancy words to use in this review like Miles would... but I am forever Alex: a little crazy, but all heart.

Captivating

The audio on this book was amazing the character voice were really well done and the story captures u in

amazing

I loved this book! I struggle with SP which is in not nearly as bad as schizophrenia because I only see things when I'm sleeping or waking up but often after an episode I will go through the day wondering things like what is really real? I love Miles character and how amazingly understanding and cool he was. This book is wonderful I highly recommend it.

Story was okay, narrator was eh

the story was a little too out there for me. there were too many unlikely things that made this story unrealistic, even for an unreliable narrative. the woman who narrated this sounded like she should be doing kid children's books, not reading for an 18 year old.

Really great

I love this book it's amazing highly recommend this book it has to be one of my favorites and also really great narrative

Beautiful...

I’m not the target audience, by far, and yet—I couldn’t stop listening—I knocked it out quickly! Alex, our protagonist, is at once fascinating, identifiable, kind, and unreliable... the best the way to tell a story.

Listen to/Read this book!

Engaging, somewhat inaccurate

The main premise of this book is dear to my heart- a high school girl who struggles with schizophrenia and is unable to tell reality from hallucinations. I struggled with mental health issues quite severely when I was around her age, and though I’ve never suffered from the severe and chronic psychosis that is the hallmark of schizophrenia, I have experienced hallucinations and delusions. Oftentimes I question what is real. So I could deeply understand what Alex was going through throughout this book. That being said, schizophrenia isn’t portrayed completely accurately here. The main focus is on Alex’s hallucinations, which are incredibly vivid, last for up to years, and include entire people who talk to her. From my understanding (unlike as is portrayed in A Beautiful Mind and other films about schizophrenia), schizophrenics usually don’t see entire people- particularly not over long periods of time. Even schizophrenics with very vivid visual hallucinations (which is somewhat rare) only see things like visual distortions. The majority of schizophrenics have auditory hallucinations. The book only scarcely refers to Alex’s delusions, another core component of schizophrenia that I think was primarily glossed over. And there’s no mention of catatonia, negative, cognitive, or disorganized symptoms, all common components of schizophrenia that many laypeople don’t know about. I don’t know how much research the author did for this book, but I get the sense it wasn’t that much. I feel like the author was more focused on the story than the mental illness portrayal, which was fine with me, because at least she portrayed a schizophrenic as a sympathetic character and not a violent monster like most films/books do. I could also deeply emphasize with Miles, a character that Alex swears she hallucinated. Miles is a genius who is also suggested to be autistic, and though I’m no genius, I am also gifted and autistic, so I could relate to a lot of his personality traits. As for the quality of the writing, I zipped through this audiobook in no time- it was that well-written and engaging. I thought this book was very well-put together, though it suffered some predictability (particularly in Alex and Miles’ interactions) as well as many events and people that seemed just too dramatic and outlandish to occur in a high school. There was also a plot twist- of which I was guessing throughout most of the book, as I was aware there was a twist but I didn’t know what it was- that I thought was relatively well-done (as an avid fan of psychological thrillers and horrors, mostly in film form, I am quite familiar with plot twists, and I’ve come to a conclusion- there’s either the good plot twist, where it makes sense and there are little hints at it throughout the story, or bad plot twists, which make no sense and were never foreshadowed, or were foreshadowed but blatantly so. This was a good plot twist.) I did guess the twist, but only right before it was revealed. Some of the characters felt one-sided, but the main characters were well-developed. Ultimately I would recommend this book for teenagers and up.

My new favorite book

I could not put it down and finished it in 2 days! The narration was beautiful, the characters detailed and unbelievably relatable. This is not the kind of story I usually read but I absolutely loved every minute of it. I don't remember the last time a book made me feel so many things so deeply.