Eight years ago I started recording a weekly, solo podcast, and resolved to keep going every week. I had no idea what it was or why I was doing it, but it felt like a good idea so I kept going. In that time I have gone from a lonely, open mic comedian to being a professional artist living in London. I'm so proud of the life that I've built for myself in my life, profession and community. In these years I have come to use this podcast as a way of contextualising my life and giving narrative to the chaotic events that continually bombard all of us. Throughout that journey there have been an incredibly small, but unbelievably loyal group of listeners on the journey with me. Thankyou to everyone who has ever tuned in! I'd still struggle to tell you what "IT" was, but I do know I couldn't have done it without you.

Tomorrow I'm going to upload every episode of this podcast to a voice-to-text engine, then run all of the text through an AI chatbot like ChatGPT or something, to effectively have this AI engine experience 8 years of my weekly thoughts. Then I'm going to ask it some questions. If you have any suggestions, I'd love to hear them. Then next week for the last episode I'm going to talk about whatever comes of it, and that will be that!

This is the third-to-last episode of my podcast. I talk about feeling unfocussed and frustrated this week, and trying to find a renewed sense of focus. I'm sick, which isn't helping. Time to pop a Vitamin D tablet, I reckon.

I bought a car on Friday from a car dealer in Coventry, then drove it to Birmingham, Preston, Liverpool and finally back to London today! I've never owned a car before and it's really exciting and scary to have invested so much into this thing. Still, better than lugging my trolley with the keyboard up a flight of 60+ stairs after a gig, as was my fate on Wednesday night. This feels like an important step forward.

Spent a wonderful 24 hours in Zamosc, this medieval town in the South-East of Poland. I fired a cannon! I'm in Krakow now, in some dodgy tenement-type accommodation with thin walls and the guy in the room next to me is snoring like a motherfucker. It's alright though, I'm travelling, and learning stuff. And really having a fantastic time.

I'm tired today, and it's making me grumpy. I'm off to Poland tomorrow to watch the International Chopin Competition which is just so incredibly exciting! I can't wait to see the city and feel the energy around this celebration of Chopin's music, and I feel very lucky to have the opportunity to go.

I've been in London for a month now, and in that time I've performed at the best club in the city, done a paid 20 for a promoter who didn't even know my name at the start of the month, and done a bunch of sets at great clubs and rooms! I'm feeling really good about the way things are going. This weekend I was in Manchester doing a bunch of shows at clubs and my solo last night, it was great. Everything is great, really.

I went to the media night of 'Emma' at the Rose Theatre last night, this is the play my girlfriend is in and has been rehearsing for the last 6 weeks. It was INCREDIBLE!! Fuck I loved it so much, as did the 800-odd people who packed out the theatre. I went to the opening night on Wednesday, and even in the time between that and the media night it's changed heaps. I have so many thoughts after this week on the differences between acting and stand up, and I really feel like this has given me a completely new perspective to create from! Super exciting, feeling incredibly inspired!