Secrets & Shame

Dear Oprah Diaries

By: James W Mercer PhD

Narrated by: Rozanne Devine

Length: 7 hrs and 34 mins

Publisher's summary

James remembers the day he began to plot to kill his father, Harry: It was the day before his seventh birthday, and he finally realized his mom was not going to leave him.

Whenever Harry would beat his mom, James would think, "No, Dad! Stop beating Mom. Look over here at me. I'm the one you are angry with. I'm your sissy son, remember?"

Eventually, Harry would banish James from their Texas home, telling him he was going to pray he'd get AIDS and die. "Our family has been shamed and embarrassed enough by you," he raved. "You'll get what you deserve one day."

James, desperate for the need to be loved and accepted for how God made him, turned to drugs, alcohol, and partying - and before long, he realized he was on the path to becoming an abusive alcoholic just like his father.

He shares how hitting rock bottom led to a Jewish spiritual awakening filled with love and an abiding faith in humanity in Secrets & Shame.

©2016 James W. Mercer Ph.D (P)2017 James W. Mercer Ph.D

Insider shock to my own heaven and hell theory..

While knowing James for many years , several stories I had yet to hear. Knowing the pain and horrible memories that haunt him seems to give me reassurance of my new found heavy weight lifting light finding experience that has been placed on me recently. Chapter 23 ending at the time I was first truly brought into James family I only assume there will most definitely be a second book. My theory of heaven and hell through my life experience and my own story is, we are walked through a living hell to be able to completely understand and be able to fill the shoes of our actual calling, that being said..we live in hell the first part of our lives until we see the light . The light being our actual purpose of being born and the understanding of why God walked us through the roads of our own hell . For years I have been questioned why we are here , what's the purpose of living, how could good let so many horrible things happen if he can build the world in a day ..and for years the answers have not on been in my face , signs clear as day and people telling me directly the answers I searched 28 years for , but only when it's your time does your answers become light a bright light people speak of or a world lifted off your shoulders . I know there must be a second book because James has yes to speak on just how amazing his life turned to be or the joys of memories of his children etc. I can't wait to read the next book because it's will be that much more hard to put down and hard to not smile and cry and feel angry for his experience or happy for how much he was blessed after walking to his own horrid hell. As a insider I must say I was shocked at somethings I wasn't aware or especially with Harry but my path was much different that James purpose in life . My hell was based on a very different direction I now know so had I known half the things , way, actions or events to that extrem I wouldn't had loved Harry or seen him with the loving eyes and ways of a second father at that time. However that's wasn't my message to hear, my message and viewing on his character is much of the same of people I've come to find I'm here to try and save . That being said, hopefully before they ever began to completely try and destroy someone. I am excited to read book two and understand and have knowledge on where his major breaks came to play this far and how and what hardships were lifted . Personally knowing and loving this family truly as my own for so many years I am honored to have so many blessed memories with each one.

Awesome read!

awesome book very easy to read loved the narrator very good storyline you must read this I'm sure you'll be able to finish it in one day