Secret Lucidity

By: E.K. Blair

Narrated by: Elena Wolfe

Length: 8 hrs and 32 mins

Publisher's summary

This wasn't supposed to happen. But it did.

This wasn't supposed to be my life. But it was.

I was just a typical girl, living a typical life. Nothing was out of the ordinary until tragedy threw me into a turnstile I couldn't see my way out of. That was, until him.

I never could've imagined my heart falling the way it did. Hard, fast, and with unbounding beauty. The only problem? He was off limits. Forbidden. But he became my everything, and I became his, so we risked it all. It was only a matter of time until I realized that our risk came with unimaginable consequences. My name is Camellia Hale and his is David Andrews, and this is our love story.

A short story from The Most Beautiful Woman in Town & Other Stories

©2018 E.K. Blair (P)2018 Audible, Inc.

Taboo in a serious context

A lot of the taboo reads that I get myself mixed up in are hot and steamy and although I do demand a good story regardless, I don’t tend to pick up a taboo read that is as serious as Secret Lucidity, very often. While there have been a few, (ATUAWT, Tampa, Etc) it’s just not what you typically get when you read taboo.

A young girls life was destroyed when the death of her father left her mother unable to cope and her 17 year old heart unable to heal alone.

So many fingers could be pointed in this story and there are so many times I wanted to question the characters. Legit sit them down and ask, “why did you do this because I can’t understand”, but that is a good book, right? One that makes you challenge your way of thinking and draws in your ethics and morals?

All in all a really, really great book. I wish that EK would have honed in the ending a little more. I am a proponent of endings and where I don’t think I deserve to tell an artist how to create their masterpiece, I do think that if you take a reader on a very long journey, you owe them a damn good ending and not a truncated HEA. But thanks just me. Over here wanting to feel all warm and fuzzy before I move on and not still kind of edgy, happy. But still edgy.

Elena Wolfe is a scholar in audio. Like best of the best. Even her teenage voice is one you can’t argue with. Woman excels.

A bit too YA for me

Possible spoilers****: Although the content is of a mature matter; high school aged stories aren’t my thing. The main character was very young and naive, as to be expected, but she was so lost in her own self pity that she didn’t see the parallels between herself and her mother.

I didn’t finish the book, but I sincerely hope that a responsible adult stepped in and pulled her out of her self destructive mind set. The story was getting a little too ridiculous for me to enjoy, I am not a fan of self inflicted turmoil due to self pity and immaturity.

so good!

This was an amazing student/teacher forbidden romance that had me hooked from the beginning. Darker than I was expecting but well written and the narrator did a wonderful job. Highly recommend!

A Secret Lucidity so Beautiful and Amazing.

Secret Lucidity is a beautiful Love Story That today’s society says is Taboo, but you can Fall In Love with Someone at any age. E.k story of a taboo love story between a young 17 girl named Cam whose world comes crashing down around her and her Swim Coach is there to help her pick up the pieces of her shattered life and learn to start over.
What makes this an Amazing Story is the Smooth Poetic Writing Style Of Author E.k Blair that adds depth and weaves a Beautiful and Bittersweet Story.
Secret Lucidity by E.k Blair richly deserves 10 Shining Stars !!!

Secret Lucidity....

Would you recommend this audiobook to a friend? If so, why?

Yes but on the side of caution sense it has taboo content. (17 year old) This book is darkly emotional with no relief it seems in sight.

Would you be willing to try another book from E.K. Blair? Why or why not?

The way E.k. writes she takes you on an emotional roller coaster, you don't know wether to stay on the ride or jump the hell off. It seems thought that I always stay on the forbidden ride.

Which scene was your favorite?

This book will make your soul ache in places. Between the termoil of her loosing people to those bullies in her school you just want to help Camellia. My favorite scene was at the last when David wrote her that letter, such a heartbreaking moment that will have tears flowing.

Was there a moment in the book that particularly moved you?

During the middle of the book there were a couple places that I had to stop and collect myself. This girl I feel like just could not catch a break, she felt all alone and then resorted to harming herself... I wanted to personally help her.

Any additional comments?

This book is a slow forbidden burn but when it catches it will burn you, It will haunt you for a little while. Only because you want to help Camellia & David but you can't, no one can. Thank goodness this story does have a HEA but it takes time to get to it and they go through alot of strife to get to it.

Very YA

Not much actual romance. More a high school movie of the week with no sex.

Student/teacher relationship

Secret Lucidity is about Cam a seventeen year old junior who’s a champion swimmer at her high school. Her father is her coach and mentor. He’s her idol and role model. Cam is extremely close to her father more so than her mother.
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Cam was popular in school. She was dating the popular jock. Her friends admired her. When she lost her father nobody expected Cam to change as much as she did. Cam’s life was turned upside down and nobody understood what she was feeling. She no longer could find common ground with her friends. She should be spending her last summer before senior year with friends. They expected the same person they knew from before, but she couldn’t be that person anymore. The only person who seemed to understand her was the new coach. He was in his thirties, attractive, and single. Cam was drawn to him. He is everything she needs in this moments, filling gaps and mending pieces of her severed soul. What started as a teacher/student relationship slowing evolved into a forbidden off-limits relationship where they crossed the line into lovers. This is so much more than a student/teacher relationship. EK Blair piles on the grief of two broken characters who are carrying around a great amount of pain while also combining many variables that on the outside would disappoint people, but until she understand and read their story will you truly comprehend what they mean to each other.
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They knew it was not appropriate for them to be together. He’s fourteen years older than her. She’s only seventeen. He’s her coach and teacher. It’s illegal. None of those reasons stopped them from becoming lovers.
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Cam went from having a home filled with love and laughter to an empty home filled with sadness and grief. Her home is no longer a reflection of her family. Both her and her mother become victims of grief. Secret Lucidity is about a mother and daughter descending into grief. EK Blair shows the two different paths of grief and the effects this loss has on each of them.
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Narrator:
Elena Wolfe is the solo female performer of Secret Lucidity a story about seventeen year old Cam who lost her father the summer before senior year. He was her idol and role model. Without his comfort and support she feels lost and empty. Elena portrayed Cam’s emotional turmoil with skilled voice acting talent. I listened using the audible app at 2X speed. This is an unabridged audiobook allowing readers as myself the opportunity to follow along with my ebook.
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EK Blair challenges both readers and herself by writing about a controversial forbidden topic of love. This one is special as Cam’s character tackles grief in a painful way. Cam’s mother becomes an alcoholic and an absentee parent. Cam is neglected by her mother losing both parents in one tragic incident.

Messed up story

Struggled to get through the concept of this story. Teacher student romance is all I will say. Sorry to spoil it for you.

Sobbing Emotional Wreak ♥️🥲

I’ve had this book in my wishlist for a long time and finally started listening. After Chapter 2 I was sobbing and so emotionally wreaked. I couldn’t stop listening. The narrator takes you in to another life and it grabs you and doesn’t let you go.

Something different for once!

great listen as always with Elena Wolfe. I would definitely recommend it to others.