Not That I’d Kiss a Girl

A Kiwi Girl’s Tale of Coming Out and Coming of Age

By: Lil O'Brien

Narrated by: Lil O'Brien

Lil O'Brien accidentally outed herself to her parents at the age of nineteen when they overheard her talking to a friend about liking girls. Half an hour later she found herself on the side of the road, with instructions to come back and pick up her suitcase the next day.

What follows is a heartbreaking yet hugely funny story of a young Kiwi girl — the deputy head girl from a posh private school - coming to grips with her sexuality in the face of stark disapproval from her parents.

Bit by bit, Lil finds the inner strength to pull herself into an entirely new world. Along the way she's called out for looking too straight in a gay bar, tries to break in to the lesbian in-crowd and figures out how to send her internet lover back to America. She falls in lust over a knotted soccer shoelace, explores how the hell to have sex with a girl and dates four women at once — unsuccessfully.

Lil's story is an insightful and honest look at how you figure out whether you're gay, bi or whatever — and deal with what comes next. It's an essential read for anyone who's had to fight for who they are and what they believe in.

©2020 Lil O'Brien (P)2025 Lil O'Brien

Vulnerable, hilarious, and honest

Five stars for an audiobook that feels like grabbing a drink with a close friend who skips the small talk and goes straight to the good stuff. Lil O’Brien’s story is funny, painfully relatable, and a wild reminder that homophobia is somehow still hanging around in 2025. You’ll laugh, cringe, and maybe text your mates about it. A top tier listen.