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My Thoughts Exactly

Narrated by: Lily Allen
Length: 6 hrs and 37 mins
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Publisher's Summary

Includes an additional new chapter and exclusive Q&A.

Short-listed for the Specsavers National Book Awards 2018 in Autobiography/Biography.

The number one Sunday Times best seller. 

So, this is me. Lily Allen.

I am a woman.

I am a mother.

I was a wife.

I drink.

I have taken drugs.

I have loved and been let down.

I am a success and a failure.

I am a songwriter.

I am a singer.

I am all these things and more.

When women share their stories, loudly and clearly and honestly, things begin to change - for the better.

This is my story. 

©2018 Lily Allen (P)2018 Bonnier Publishing

Critic Reviews

"An unflinching, unputdownable book." (Guardian)

"A fresh, direct voice, used bravely, with nuance and style.... Uniquely candid." (New Statesman

"Allen has a flair for storytelling.... [My Thoughts Exactly] should be required reading for anyone who dreams of fame." (Daily Telegraph)

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Deeply Emotional

I was really surprised at the complex and emotional life story Lily tells. The voulnerability in her words and voice and the story of her perseverance and hardships really resonated with me. I highly recommend this book to anyone in a transition or who is having issues they want to work through. Learning from Lily's account of events, in my opinion could really help an individual.

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Lily is an icon

She is completely honest with herself and you can tell. As she tells her story I can see her growth as a person, woman, mother, wife, etc. love her.

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Honest AF

All about sincerity. Like her songs. Means to me the most. Thank you for sharing

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Exactly

Loved it all, the story, the accent, and the courage of telling all the truths as it is

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Strong Women

Such a wonderful story and strong woman. I look up to Lily so much. Thank you for sharing your life with the world.

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Love the sincerity!

A personal and sincerely view of a world that is always full of glitter and marketing, a story of a person who got famous but struggle with being human, like we all do. love it!

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Only the best from the best

I’ve been a fan of Lily’s for a while now, I’d recommend all 4 of her albums if you’re wanting to get into her! This book made me laugh, cry, want to scream all in just 30 chapters. Best 6 hours and some odd minutes ever spent in intervals!! Lily if you see this I love you queen!!!
-Lily Allen’s biggest fan <3

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Lily in her own very self aware words

I have always been a fan of Lily. I had no idea of the difficulties in her early life and her spiral out of control after she became a star. I so appreciate that she in no way blames circumstances for what happened. It just is. This happened....this is what her response was. She is very self aware of how her actions impacted her life and career, children's lives and husband.
I appreciate so much that she reads this herself. Books are always better when read by the author.

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Love her, so real and honest it’s scary

Unless you are a pop star I guess you never know what truly happens. All we get is the media telling us what they think or see from an action or a picture. This is a memoir, deep into the mind of someone the media has deemed superficial and dumb. She is mind blowing my honest, she owns her mistakes and lets you into the deep dark secret areas most people don’t ever let people in. I loved the book and will definitely look at lily Allen differently but not negatively, just stronger ❤️❤️ hearing from Allen herself just makes it more real.

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Keep telling your truth Lilly

A refeshing, enlightening, to the point, straight laced book made even more special hearing it read straight from the horses mouth herself, keep telling your truth Lilly, as it speaks volumes!

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  • Binky
  • 09-24-18

My Thoughts Exactly

I’m not a huge Lily Allen fan, I like a couple of her songs. I purchased this book as I thought I’d see what I could learn about her life as I’d only seen her behaviour as viewed via social media and the press and it looked interesting, I like autobiographies.

The first few chapters are sincere enough, brutally honest even, sounds like she experienced a rather bleak and awful childhood, which nobody would wish on anyone else. Obviously neglected to quite a degree by her parents as a youngster, which has then impacted on her adult life immensely.

The story of her stalker Alex Grey was terrifying, one naturally can empathise with her, and the trauma she experienced during this time must have been appalling.

The story was read well by the author, the writing itself was good, but I was left not with a feeling of what a remarkable and powerful woman and role model Ms. Allen is, but rather with the view that she is in fact the rather self-absorbed person I’d read about.

There was little to no joy or real fun mentioned in the book, I found this sad.

Certainly the author is intelligent, considered and has an interesting back story, but the entire book focuses almost entirely on the author as “the victim”.

I won’t recommend or not recommend purchasing this. I’ve read worse and I’ve read much better.

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  • sharman plews
  • 09-21-18

refreshingly honest !<br />

It doesn't matter what you think you know about lily Allan this book portray's a story full of heartbreak and anguish. She opens her heart about issues that should never needed to be acknowledged or justified, showing a srength of character and acceptance of uncontrollable human traits that are in us all. she is obviously still trying to find a path to somewhere in her life.
The feisty and outspoken side that we have come to know and love in Lily, is promient in the way she reads this but it definately the mask covering a vulnerable human with an awful story of self betrayal and abuse.

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  • MrsB
  • 09-26-18

Beautifully honest book.

Lily is such a strong woman. I would highly recommend buying this book. Thank you very much for sharing your story with us Lily.

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  • Colin
  • 04-09-19

A Brutal peek into the world of modern pop music..

I read somewhere that when young school-leavers are asked about their career aspirations, the most popular choice, especially amongst the girls, is “To be a Celebrity”. I think if they read Lily Allen’s book they may think twice.

This is a stinging account of how the pursuit of fame can bring with it serious and unwelcomed outcomes. There’s the media, who pretend to be her friend and then scrape every barrel they can to find a story, even to the point of fabrication, and to hell with anyone who gets hurt in the process. The fallout of this was that Lily became increasingly wary of where she went and what she said, and when the stories kept coming, she became suspicious of her friends and entourage, puzzling over who could possibly be feeding the press their gossip.

As time goes on, her run-ins with the press escalate, and she is openly betrayed by friends and, especially, her first real boyfriend, who dumped her via telephone when she was a struggling nobody, only to re-emerge after her first album became a worldwide hit, and sell his ‘kiss-and-tell’ version of their 18-month relationship to that bastion of truth and fair play, The News of the World.

Whilst it may seem attractive to be followed by photographers everywhere you go, Lily Allen soon shows how this gets old, real quick. If she’s seen with a cigarette in her hand she’s castigated for not being able to quit; If she has a drink, she’s an out-of-control alcoholic; and every male friend she’s seen out with is automatically labelled ‘Her Latest Lover’.

All of this, plus way too much time left on her own in planes and hotel rooms, pushes Lily over the edge, and she decides that if this ‘cartoon Lily’ is what the papers want, then ‘Cartoon Lily’ she will be, and she sets off on a destructive journey fuelled by illicit drugs, drinking and casual sex.

But then she finds she has a stalker, a dangerous mentally-unstable man who has professed he intends to kill her. To her amazement, the papers aren’t interested in this aspect of her life, and worse, the police treat it as a simple robbery escalated by an over-indulged pop star.

A harsh glimpse into the world of paparazzi, glamour and instant fame. Should be mandatory reading in every school…

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  • damian
  • 09-23-18

Honest and heartbreaking

Wow Brilliant book , first review I have written as normally I can’t be arsed but blown away by the honestly , the openness and bravery of this strong woman who should be so proud of herself

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  • M.Slattery
  • 09-23-18

Beautifully brave honesty

At many points this memoir feels like a guttural howl for justice from a culture that has taken so much from this woman. It’s funny, clever and enjoyable.

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  • claire gemmell
  • 10-09-18

Good book however Lily's narrating wasn't good

I liked this book but Lily sounds like she's been asked to stand up in class and reluctantly read. You can sometimes hear her sighing as she starts a new paragraph. Her tone is so flat. I even had to slow down the speed as she speaks so fast, it's like she couldn't wait to finish recording the audio. Although Lily has been through some tough times, I found her view on most things all to be quite negative.

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  • Dr Fletcher
  • 10-03-18

I stopped listening because it's depressing

I feel sorry for her and she's lived through a lot. But it's extremely depressing and her tone is depressing. If you're a fan guess it's interesting but skip if you want an interesting uplifting story.

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  • K amal
  • 09-27-18

Wanting more!

My sister sent Lily's audio book to me. I've never finished a book in 2 days before as life gets in the way. I even purchased Bluetooth headphones to listen on my train commute. Loved it, so very sad at times. Write more book please LRA xx

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  • Alice
  • 09-21-18

wow

Incredibly honest and brave. Listening to Lily read this in herself made for a very emotional journey.

4 of 6 people found this review helpful