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Publisher's Summary

This program is read by the author.

Maureen Cavanagh’s gripping audiobook memoir is the story of a mother who suddenly finds herself on the frontlines of the opioid epidemic as her daughter battles - and ultimately reckons with - substance use disorder.

Fast-paced and heartwarming, devastating and redemptive, Maureen’s incredible odyssey into the opioid crisis - first as a parent, then as an advocate - is ultimately a deeply moving mother-daughter story.

When Maureen and her ex-husband Mike see their daughter Katie’s needle track marks for the first time, it is a complete shock. But, slowly, the drug use explains everything - Katie’s constant exhaustion, erratic moods, and all those spoons that have gone missing from the house. Once Mike and Maureen get Katie into detox, Maureen goes to sleep that night hoping that in 48 hours she’ll have her daughter back. It’s not that simple.

Like the millions of parents and relatives all over the country - some of whom she has helped through her nonprofit organization - Maureen learns that recovery is neither straightforward nor brief. She fights to save Katie’s life, breaking down doors on the seedy side of town with Mike, kidnapping Katie outside a convenience store, and battling the taboo around substance use disorder in her picturesque New England town. Maureen is launched into the shadowy world of overcrowded, for-profit rehabilitation centers that often prey on worried parents.

As Katie runs away from one program after another, never outrunning her pain, Maureen realizes that even while she becomes an expert on getting countless men and women into detox and treatment centers, she remains powerless to save her own daughter. If You Love Me: A Mother's Journey Through Her Daughter's Opioid Addiction brings the opioid crisis out of the shadows and into the house next door.

PLEASE NOTE: When you purchase this title, the accompanying PDF will be available in your Audible Library along with the audio. 

©2018 Maureen Cavanagh (P)2018 Macmillan Audio

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Learned so much from this well written book

Hard to stop listening to this very sad difficult topic. However it did give me insight. I found it particularly helpful in explaining like Aids we need to handled as a disease. Lots to think about re: prevention.

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Absolutely fantastic!

I normally read memoirs on addiction from the perspective of the individual experiencing the disease. This was the first I've read from the perspective of a parent, and it was fantastic. Raw and heartfelt, Cavanagh's writing is so compelling. I found myself tearing up and even laughing out loud at times. I also love that Cavanagh narrates the audiobook - it really makes a mother's journey more real.

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maureen is totally amazing

my daughter was a herion addict 2011 to 2015, she got pregnant amd turned her life around. Lauren is my proof in miriclez. but magnolia would have bern a grear resource to me. i was too selfish worrying about my daughter didmt have the guts as u to reach out to others. a master degree special in d/a i could have been mpre help to others . my support was family and our Catholic faith. My faith in God held me though.. today Lauren a professional bamker embarrassed by her past addition. hearing u say its a brain dieaze make so much sense it should not be that way we wouldn't be embarrassed if she had diabetes or she had leukemia or she had epilepsy no one will be embarrassed about that but yes addiction comes with such a stigma in society and it's not helping anyone. Lauren was one of the lucky ones put her treatment only lasted 10 days so long as when she was in was 30 days she was in and out she kept running and then she would leave she was in about five all together within a year. I've long been a proponent of longer treatment you must have at least a year in treatment statistics showed from a long time ago with the longer the treatment the better the outcome of staying sober.. today it's an epidemic in the United States the opiate epidemic. But yet 4 years ago when I was searching for my daughter there wasn't even a doctor in Erie County who prescribe Vivitrol or even knew its name. She left her rehab would narcon pills she needed a shot cuz she wouldn't take 0n her own. when had to go to the emergency room and be in an overdose to be able to receive nor can they did not give it out in PA I don't even think they give it out today hopefully that is changing as a stigma changes and we owe it to you Maureen and people in your support group is changing the stigma we thank you so much.
Lauren happy and healthy one of the lucky ones let her fight isn't over as she's raising a son and plans on having more children . we don't change the view in the stigma of opiates now. We will have second third and fourth generation opiate epidemic. Children today are vulnerable Age 3 and 4 if they grow up an addictive household and possibly even if they don't. when you and your group I give so much credit to if I can get any help please reach out to me I'm a member of audible..MLW my Initials... if we all band together now hopefully we can smash this epidemic so it doesn't continue on and Lawrence children and Lawrence children's children at all other children of today and tomorrow thank you for your words your book is powerful.
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Excuse error..one other very important ingredient in staying sober is the belief in a higher power that must be mentioned because its an imporant component of staying sober or it won't happen. Believe in a higher power is not an option it's a requirement of sobriety. what do you try on all these newfangled treatments education Etc the AA in the 12 steps and all Behavior programs and changing a belief systems and who you are that are based on that are most successful Bill w hand Awakening must be highly stressed..u and magnolia group are in my prayers

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Finally, an addiction book by Mom that tells full

Finally, a book about addiction that doesn't just scratch the surface! This story tells full story, including all the crazy things us addict's moms do & see throughout our horrible addiction journey with our children. And, as awful and difficult this journey is, Maureen keeps sense of humor which I really appreciated & enjoyed. I Listened to audiobook while commuting to work. i
I found myself hoping for traffic so I could continue listening. Thanks for telling full story!!

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So Powerful!

Maureen Cavanaugh has expertly revealed the emotional roller coaster ride that a mother of a child who suffers from SUD experiences every day. The story of her journey with her daughter shows the stages of learning what unconditional love truly means. Its the fine line between loving/enabling and loving your child to death. We can't fix it, we can't run from it, we can only accept it and pray that they find the strength to choose recovery and succeed before the knock on the door or that dreaded phone call becomes our reality.
The book had me crying and laughing at times, and found it woven with education and understanding that there us help and hope in coping with this terrible disease. This is a must read for everyone who is, or wants to better understand opioid addiction through the eyes of a parent.

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too close to home<br />

felt like I had written this story. sad but true. to learn there is no solution is disheartening. kudos to her for helping others

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So helpful

Thanku for sharing your story. You daughters situation sounds so similar to mine. I feel like I can move forward with love as we go through this. Than you so very much

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This is A MUST READ!!

Thank you for bearing your soul, your vulnerability and honesty written in this book make you feel each emotion, makes you feel like you are right there with the author in real time. I have so many things I want to say because reading your story is so much of what I have felt and also what I have cause others to feel. I can not say thank you enough for having the courage to write this, to not stay silent, your voice needs to be heard and I have ultimate faith this is going to help so many people, & so many families. Your advocacy, true determination and strength are admirable and I respect you beyond words.

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I could relate even though I don't have an addict

I loved this book. Great insight. I do not have an addicted child. I have a child with mental illness but there were things I could relate to and that were helpful to me in regard to knowing what is on your control and what is not. I myself am the addict. I never used heroin but I did become addicted to pain killers and was lucky to get help at that point. so do understand how it can snowball out of control. With help of meds I've not relapsed in 13 years. I'm grateful for this book. Thank u Maureen

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Beautiful & Real

Maureen did an excellent job of sharing the reality of what way too many of us can relate to & she did it with live & a touch of humor. Those two things that get many of us through each unbearable day at times.