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If I Disappear

By: Eliza Jane Brazier
Narrated by: Kristen Sieh
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Publisher's summary

“This new novel has more twists and fakeouts than an episode of Serial.” (Rolling Stone)

“An eerie, twisted thriller sure to shake up the most seasoned true crime die-hard." (Harper's Bazaar)

A Most Anticipated Book of 2021 by Rolling Stone • CNN • E! Online • Buzzfeed New York Post PopSugar Woman's Day Crime Reads • Hello Giggles 

When her favorite true-crime podcast host goes missing, an adrift young woman sets out to investigate and plunges headfirst into the wild backcountry of Northern California and her own dangerous obsession.

Sera loves true-crime podcasts. They give her a sense of control in a world where women just like her disappear daily. She's sure they are preparing her for something. So when Rachel, her favorite podcast host, goes missing, Sera knows it's time to act. Rachel has always taught her to trust her instincts.

Sera follows the clues hidden in the episodes to an isolated ranch outside Rachel's small hometown to begin her search. She's convinced her investigation will make Rachel so proud. But the more Sera digs into this unfamiliar world, the more off things start to feel. Because Rachel is not the first woman to vanish from the ranch, and she won't be the last....

Rachel did try to warn her.

©2021 Eliza Jane Brazier (P)2021 Penguin Audio

Critic reviews

"This author is a breath of fresh air in an oversaturated, congested world of thrillers. Watch out, Gillian Flynn - mystery thrillers have a new ingenue and her name is Eliza Jane Brazier.” (Pittsburgh Post-Gazette

“This twisted and riveting thriller is one that will keep you up late at night with suspense.” (CNN)

“A skillful dissection of true-crime podcast culture and those obsessed with it, this new novel has more twists and fakeouts than an episode of Serial.... If I Disappear throws into sharp relief how desensitized we can become when we treat real life like a game.” (Rolling Stone)

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