If I Disappear

By: Eliza Jane Brazier

Narrated by: Kristen Sieh

Length: 9 hrs and 7 mins

Publisher's Summary

“This new novel has more twists and fakeouts than an episode of Serial.” (Rolling Stone)

“Fans of true crime will devour this mystery.” (E! Online)

A Most Anticipated Book of 2021 by Rolling Stone • CNN • E! Online • Buzzfeed • New York Post • Popsugar • Woman's Day • CrimeReads • HelloGiggles 

When her favorite true-crime podcast host goes missing, an adrift young woman sets out to investigate and plunges headfirst into the wild backcountry of Northern California and her own dangerous obsession.

Sera loves true-crime podcasts. They give her a sense of control in a world where women just like her disappear daily. She's sure they are preparing her for something. So, when Rachel, her favorite podcast host, goes missing, Sera knows it's time to act. Rachel has always taught her to trust her instincts.

Sera follows the clues hidden in the episodes to an isolated ranch outside Rachel's small hometown to begin her search. She's convinced her investigation will make Rachel so proud. But the more Sera digs into this unfamiliar world, the more off things start to feel. Because, Rachel is not the first woman to vanish from the ranch, and she won't be the last....

Rachel did try to warn her. 

©2021 Eliza Jane Brazier (P)2021 Penguin Audio

Critic Reviews

“Sleek, exciting, and twisty.” (Rene Denfeld, author of The Child Finder)

“A clever, sinister read with a surprising sting in the tail.” (Kimberly Belle, author of The Marriage Lie) 

“A propulsive thrill ride full of surprises right through the firecracker ending.” (Lisa Unger, author of The Stranger Inside) 

I dont even know what I just read

So confusing, unlikable characters, weird story line. I wanted to like it but just couldn't.

yup...nope

What I read it was about and what this actually is are different. Just having to listen to this girl having a weird conversation with Rachel in her head.

It gets weirder and weirder as it goes. The ending takes a hard turn like wtf, not in good way.

Once again it's another book with no likeable main characters. I still don't understand that.

Interesting

Interesting plot, end has too many loose ends so I’m not sure I like how it concluded

A Good Hard Look at how we consume true crime

This was a good social commentary story, although it was a struggle to get through it, for me. The narrators tone was very disconnected from the characters, which was disconcerting for me but it does add to the story in the sense that the main character viewed her time in the tale as an immersive true crime experience.

Ehhh

I don’t think I’d recommend this to anyone. I had a hard time getting through it, I only finished because I wanted to see how it ended, but I didn’t care for it too much. I’ve seen some
other mention about the characters not being very likeable, and this is true. I wasn’t invested at all. I’m not upset I spent a credit on it, but I’d say unless you’re really curious, don’t bother.🤷🏻‍♀️