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I Would Leave Me If I Could
- A Collection of Poetry
- Narrated by: Halsey
- Length: 1 hr and 32 mins
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Publisher's Summary
Grammy Award-nominated, platinum-selling musician Halsey is heralded as one of the most compelling voices of her generation. In I Would Leave Me If I Could, she reveals never-before-seen poetry of longing, love and the nuances of bipolar disorder.
In this debut collection, Halsey bares her soul. Bringing the same artistry found in her lyrics, Halsey’s poems delve into the highs and lows of doomed relationships, family ties, sexuality and mental illness. More hand grenades than confessions, these autobiographical poems explore and dismantle conventional notions of what it means to be a feminist in search of power.
Masterful as it is raw, passionate and profound, I Would Leave Me If I Could signals the arrival of an essential voice.
Book cover painting, American Woman, by the author.
Halsey, born Ashley Nicolette Frangipane, is a Grammy-nominated singer-songwriter and recipient of the prestigious Songwriters Hall of Fame’s Hal David Starlight Award. She lives in Los Angeles, California.
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- Anonymous User
- 03-04-21
Excellent
Ashley's voice makes everything better. The poems were really great. Enjoyed every one of them. Some relatable. I'm proud of her!
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- Mahnoor
- 12-30-20
Magical
Loved it so much. it's so raw and authentic. Specially speaks out to you if you're an avid listener of her music as well. Finishing the year by reading this, and I'm so glad I chose it. It's filled with magical poems I tell ya.
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- ashlea
- 11-21-20
STUNNING
an absolute masterpiece, no surprise <3 i have been looking forward to the release of this and i am beyond impressed
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- Amazon Customer
- 11-17-20
Baring her soul for the world
Halsey has achieved what she does in her songs on paper: bringing emotion to all who come across her work. The way she tells her story through poetry is Grammy worthy.
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- Anonymous User
- 11-17-20
beautiful poetry
halsey is an amazing writer and a true poet. hearing her read them was such a beautiful experience, her words mean everything to me.
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- Kenzie
- 11-17-20
I would leave if I could
This audio book is an eye opener into halseys mind and life.
Halsey is an open book and allows us all to read or listen to her story.
Her words reached my heart and I understood her happiness and her pain.
Halsey is a brave and a beautiful women with a big heart.
Her book is like holding on to her broken heart and watching it trying to put itself back together when she has happy times but then watching her heart shatter and again watching the heart rebuild itself.
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- Anonymous User
- 01-27-23
Therapeutic
If you really listen to every word they say you would understand and relate and laugh and cry it’s so special this book
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- Anonymous User
- 08-25-22
masterpiece
I really hope halsey makes another poetry collection 10/10 masterpiece worth the money 💰
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- Anonymous User
- 02-02-21
I wish I were manic all the time
This was perfect. I loved Ashley’s voice and her manner of speaking and how she made songs out of some poems. A queen.
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- Gary W
- 01-11-21
Absolutely Stunning
This was amazing. The absolute rawness of Halsey is there to be seen and heard.
I also loved this Easter Eggs of song lyrics in the different poems.
I am also so happy Halsey narrated it as well because it wouldn’t be as impactful.
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- Laurie Newbury
- 01-06-21
Beautiful
What a wonderful self reflective and intriguing anthology! It really helped me through some of my own thoughts and feelings. Thank you ❤️✨
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- fleur s.
- 12-11-20
Beautiful
It's a breathtakingly beautiful collection of poems. There's nothing groundbreaking about the actual words or metaphors or analogies used but it's deeply personal and intimate and you can hear it in the way Halsey has narrated it.
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- Anonymous User
- 12-02-22
Halsey is a legend
Not only has Ashley written amazing songs, painted great art and basically excelled as an artist in every way. She then gives us this amazing poetry book. giving us an inside glance into her life deeper than before. This book is amazingly written and amazingly narrated. She never ceases to amaze me with each and every new release she produces. We love the TALENTED QUEEN that is Ashley 🥰🥰
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- Anonymous User
- 11-11-22
I Would Leave Me If I Could - Written and Narrated by a Pure Genius
Absolutely amazing. I’m speechless. I have the physical book and I have read it over and over a billion times, but having it read by Halsey themselves is just an incredible layer added to an incredible book. I’m truly in love with this poetry book. Halsey is so bravely self-aware (and self-deprecating), it’s chilling. Goosebumps galore. While her writing is powerful enough to be consumed as a written text, having Halsey herself narrate these poems was beautiful in that whole new meanings were able to be interpreted by her tone, which we know is the true intended tone for she wrote them. I’m a particular fan of I Want to be a Writer! Bad Day (1, 2, and 3), You Were First and Fun Girl however every single poem, word, syllable is undoubtedly and undeniably right. It is exactly what it needs to be. Not perfect, just exactly right. Halsey, thank you. You’ve done outstanding work and I’m so grateful to have another channel to you. Thank you for your vulnerability and honesty: it’s incredibly reassuring.
Halsey’s reading of this book, and the poetry itself, is magnificent and surpasses all prior expectations. I expected nothing less from.
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- charly melis
- 03-14-22
AMAZING
ASHLEY IS COMPLETE PRFECTION. ALL OF THE POETRY IN THIS BOOK IS WRITTEN BY THE ONE AND ONLY🥰🥰
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- Anonymous User
- 02-11-22
self indulgent
I couldn't help but detach from sections of the chapters that seemed to be a little self indulgent and emo. I loved the evocative imagery and honesty. Very complimenting of her image as a performer. ♡
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- Anonymous User
- 11-30-20
An emotional journey
Very raw and intimate look into Halsey's life. Its an honour to be able to read
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