I WAS THE PRISONER … BUT ALSO THE GUARDIAN

philosophical essays

I had in mind to write the book “I was the prisoner … but also the guardian” … as the desire of revealing the truth about the prison where i was living … by a long, long time.
But i did not knew how to define … better.
I was not understanding completely the subject … and i’ve tried so, so much to clarify with myself … what it’s wrong ….
Suddenly… one day … i’ve realized … that i was just pretending i did not knew why my life was looking that way.
I felt like a prisoner of a reality with i hated … but i was not seeing the guardians … any of them.
And the huge paradox … was that this prison … which was in fact my real life … was a prison with invisible walls … and i was the prisoner …. but also the guardian.
I was actually not allowing myself to become … the one from my dreams and my fantasies.
I was persecuting … myself … not giving me the freedom of expressing my real self.
I had those 2 opposite roles … and i was living a paradox.
But deep inside me … i was still optimistic.
I hoped of being released from this prison called … my reality … which i hated … so, so much.
And days were passing … and nothing changed.
Then months …
Then years …
In the end …. I’ve accepted that there is no end for this ugly story … and it’s all a journey for understanding the Universe … the Infinite.
The only thing i had to do … was to find a way to connect with it … to find the gateway … which could actually become … my release from the prison … with invisible walls.