Finding My Voice

A True Story About Domestic Violence in Thailand & Expat Community Silencing

De: Juanelle Louise Holl

Narrado por: Juanelle Louise Holl

Follow the author's true and heart-wrenching story as she writes about her domestic violence experiences from a few years ago to heal from the secondary trauma of not being believed. It's a story about a mother with two babies fighting to protect herself and her children from psychological abuse during COVID on a remote island.

In this raw and unflinching memoir, Juanelle courageously breaks years of enforced silence to share her journey from survivor to advocate. When domestic violence tore apart her family during the pandemic lockdown in Thailand, she faced something almost as traumatic as the original abuse: gaslighting that made her question her own reality and pressure to stay quiet to protect everyone else's comfort.

"Did it really happen? Was I being dramatic?" For years, she dealt with intrusive thoughts and feelings of confusion and betrayal. Silence wasn't protecting anyone—it was eating away at her authenticity. Writing became her lifeline, forcing her to trust her perceptions again. Through vulnerable storytelling, she transformed shame into voice, releasing hidden resentment and allowing herself to heal.

Finding My Voice is more than a survival story—it's a roadmap for recognising the signs of psychological abuse, understanding your legal rights, a wake-up call and proof that speaking your truth, no matter how difficult, is the path to authentic healing and lasting change.

From the bustling streets of Bangkok to remote islands, expat women face unique vulnerabilities that few understand. Juanelle's story exposes the hidden patterns that put women at risk and reveals how knowledge, boundaries, and self-advocacy can save lives.

Because ultimately, your safety and healing matter more than anyone else's comfort. Your life—or someone you care about—might depend on it.

©2025 Juanelle Louise Holl (P)2025 Juanelle Louise Holl

That Gives Voice to the Silenced

Juanelle bravely recounts her harrowing experiences with domestic violence on a remote island in Thailand very community that should have protected her. As a reader, I felt her pain Highly recommended for survivors, advocates, and anyone who wants to better understand

engaging!

It's a very interesting story, sometimes it has hard situations as it's a true story based in real life, but it teaches a lot of lessons while being engaging and getting you into the story

Powerful and brave memoir

This book is raw, honest, and so important. Juanelle's story shows how psychological abuse can be just as damaging as physical violence, and how hard it is when your community doesn't believe you. I admire her courage in sharing such painful experiences and breaking the silence. Her journey from confusion and fear to clarity and self-advocacy is inspiring.

This memoir is not only moving but also educational. It sheds light on the realities of domestic abuse and why speaking out matters. Highly recommend it to anyone who wants to understand the hidden side of abuse and the strength it takes to heal.

Raw, Honest, and So Incredibly Brave

What struck me most was the emotional depth. This isn’t just about what happened; it’s about the after. The doubt. The gaslighting. The trauma of not being believed. Her narration makes it feel even more personal, like a close friend is confiding in you. It’s painful, yes but powerful. And deeply necessary. If you’ve ever felt unseen, unheard, or dismissed. This book will hit home. It’s not an easy listen, but it’s a courageous one—and it just might help someone else find their voice too.

Real Life Story

This real-life story bout domestic violence in Thailand was an exceptional read. The characters were well-received and story was transparent with the legal system in Thailand

Strong in her own way

Her strength isn’t loud, but it’s obvious. The way she walked through her past showed that she’d done a lot of processing. You don’t have to relate to everything she says to respect it. I finished it in one go and sat quietly for a while after. It hit me in a quiet, deep way.

A Brave Voice

This audiobook just completely ripped my heart open with its raw honesty and profound courage. For anyone who has ever walked through the isolating nightmare of psychological abuse, feeling unheard and gaslit, this story is a powerful mirror and an aching validation of your truth. It's an incredibly vital and emotionally charged listen that fearlessly illuminates the journey from profound silence to defiant healing, leaving an indelible mark on your soul.