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Even in Our Darkness

A Story of Beauty in a Broken Life
Narrated by: Jack Deere
Length: 6 hrs and 47 mins
5 out of 5 stars (135 ratings)

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Publisher's Summary

"Unmasked, unsettling, and unforgettable... this will change the landscape of your soul." - Ann Voskamp

"Filled with the raw pain, beauty, mystery, and grace that our hearts were meant for." - Matt Chandler

Prepare yourself for an unvarnished look at the Christian life, told now for the first time. A powerful memoir of finding beauty and friendship through the pain of loss, tragedy, and brokenness, Even in Our Darkness explores what it means to know God and be known by him.

Jack Deere tells the true story of his life growing up near Fort Worth, Texas in the 1950s and the disintegration of his family following his father's suicide. In his mid-20s, Jack would rise to fame and success as a leading scholar, popular speaker, and best-selling author.

But despite being rescued and exalted, Jack would ultimately be crushed in the years that followed. He would lose his son to suicide and his wife to alcoholism. Only then would Jack wrestle with his own addictions, surrender control, and experience true healing.

An authentic story of the Christian life, Even in Our Darkness will serve as your own guide in overcoming life's disappointments and learning to hear God speak in unbelievable ways.

©2018 Jack S. Deere (P)2018 Zondervan

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Even in Our Darkness is a must read

Would you recommend this audiobook to a friend? If so, why?

As I mature there are fewer and fewer books that I feel I can safely recommend to a friend without giving them a disclaimer. Even in Our Darkness is NOT one of those books. Jack has done a remarkable job in opening up and sharing what an authentic Christian life looks like - without all the socially acceptable facades that are so common in most Christian books these days.

Who was your favorite character and why?

Jack showed that being a friend of Jesus, even in the midst of difficult life situations is not only possible, it is necessary.

Was there a moment in the book that particularly moved you?

I loved how Jack opened up and shared his struggles and even his failures, and how God walked with him through it all.

Any additional comments?

Jack's writings, his integrity, his teaching, and his example literally transformed who I am, how I think, and how I live. His previous three books, Surprised by the Spirit, Surprised by the Voice of God, and The Beginner's Guide to the Gift of Prophecy are on my list of must read books. Even in Our Darkness has been added to this list. In an age where so many Christians have retreated behind the mask of socially acceptable Christianity, it is so refreshing to hear one of the leading ministers in the Body of Christ lay down the mask and tell it like it is, warts and all. Even in the Darkness is honest, real, and gives hope to anyone who has a desire to know Jesus, to love Jesus and to be a friend of Jesus. God bless you, Jack!

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Moving, Unsettling, and Familiar

If you are looking for a good Christian book on suffering that has strained out all the awkwardness, embarrassment, and humiliation, so many sufferers experience, this isn’t it.
I truly appreciated the way Jack represented him self with transparency—many times stopping just short of my putting down the book. What I mean is, Jack’s willingness to be so honest exposed my own unwillingness to be so. I saw myself and my family in his story and it nearly flattened me at times.
Thank you, Jack, for your courage. You show us we don’t have to be perfect to be part of God’s kingdom… To be recklessly loved by Him.

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Too close to home...

I am sure the author has many who write to him telling him how much impact his story had huge impact on their life...but man, as a pastor, father, husband, and grandfather — I read much and study much, but no personal story has affected me like Jack Deere’s life story! I was so convicted, affected, and influenced in a “come to Jesus” kind of way and I will be forever changed and yes, I am thankful for his willingness to share his story with us, the reader.

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Powerful story of God’s love

Thank you Jack and Lisa for sharing your story, this will greatly impact my life, thank you. Hearing Jack tell his own story is even better than reading it.

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Good Story

Definitely a difficult life story to listen to. A lot to take away and learn from. I appreciate how his life was written about and not just explained through.

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Touching and powerful

What a powerful and compelling illustration of the Christian experience in a fallen world. We are all broken by nature and circumstances, but God can redeem us despite our flesh.

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Best book I’ve read this year

Real, raw and honest... what we all need. This book tpuched my heart deeply. I just finished it and am compelled to begin again.

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A Sobering reminder...

Jack Deere was a superstar at Dallas Theological Seminary...until he fell out of favor with the powers-that-be and was exiled for embracing the fullness of the Holy Spirit, and particularly the teachings of John Wimber. This is a riveting, unvarnished account of Jack's life, warts and all. There were times that the pain and heartache were palpable as the reader is reminded that the lives behind the men and women who are put on the stage of evangelicalism may be more broken than many to whom they minister. It serves as a sobering reminder that our eyes must be fixed on Christ, the author and the finisher of our faith. Men, even leaders like Jack Deere suffer from the same temptations and challenges as the layman...and in many cases, the source of their pain is largely self-inflicted. I highly recommend this book!

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This is a life changing Book

It has a great narration as well as a moving story. This will now be one of my favorite books

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From Heart to Heart

Jack's open heart and disarming candor have touched my heart with truth and tenderness. Truth in Jack's relentless exposure of the issues of his heart which resonates with those in my heart. Tenderness in the freedom of condemnation and the strength of our Father's Love . Very well done.

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  • 03-16-19

Real. Refreshing. Tear-jerking.

I finished this book strangely warmed by its testimony to the loving kindness of our Maker who makes beauty happen when briers seem to be everywhere. Oh thank you Father for the story of your son Jack, who loves your Son Jesus because of the wonderful work of your Spirit.

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  • 10-25-18

If you think you've got issues...<br />Think again!

Jack somehow keeps his head above water in a sea of difficulty. Remarkable honesty throughout.

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  • 09-19-18

Awash in gratitude

I wasn’t familiar with Jack Deere or his writings before reading this book, but after chancing on a positive review and having my interest raised by the précis, I decided to purchase.

Deere writes vividly and with great honesty about his family’s life and the shadows cast over it by abuse (sexual and physical), suicide, sexual purity as well as alcohol and substance addiction; painful yet important topics for the church and for society. Some of his most brutal writing, for a Christian author and pastor, comes around his own walk with God and realisations about his pride, selfishness, ego and buried pain though. I found his words, written from a position of maturity and with the hindsight of a life lived, to be deeply insightful and curiously refreshing, particularly when sharing how God used ever moment to draw him to Him.

It is my experience within Christian communities that such levels of honesty around our dealings with life’s darkness is rare and in this Instagram-filtered/FOMO-generation it feels like it is only getting rarer. There is a raw and genuine reality to Jack’s story and the narrative skips by engagingly. I listened to the audiobook version read by the author and loved his narration. Thoroughly recommended.

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  • 09-10-18

deeply moving

Written with humility and honesty, challenging everyone seeking fulfillment anywhere other than in Christ alone.

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  • lou
  • 05-21-19

stunningly honest

loved every part of this book. the authors authenticity and vulnerability spoke deeply to me and reminded me of just how amazing God's grace is. It is in our weakness that God shows He is strong and it is only when we get to the end of of ourselves, that we really learn to love and be loved. I'd recommend this again and again for anyone who needs to be reminded that God makes beauty out of our mess.