• Even in Our Darkness

  • A Story of Beauty in a Broken Life
  • By: Jack S. Deere
  • Narrated by: Jack Deere
  • Length: 6 hrs and 47 mins
  • 4.8 out of 5 stars (245 ratings)

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Even in Our Darkness

By: Jack S. Deere
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"I am the descendant of drinkers and drifters better at passing on their love for the bottle than family history...". Prepare yourself for an unvarnished, harrowing look at one Christian's life.

A powerful memoir of knowing and being known by God through the pain of loss, tragedy, and brokenness - Even in Our Darkness explores what it means to fend off doubt and despair, even in the most painful trials.

Jack Deere tells the true story of his life growing up near Fort Worth, Texas in the 1950's and the disintegration of his family following his father's suicide. Despite his difficult childhood and an inclination toward the depression that had crushed his parents, Deere describes how he began to wrestle with Christianity and how "God was...slipping in through the crack of an open wound".

In his mid-20's, Jack rose to fame and success as a leading scholar, popular speaker, and best-selling author. But despite being rescued and exalted, Jack was devastated in the years that followed, losing his troubled son to suicide and his wife to alcoholism. Only then did he fully face his own addictions, surrender control, and experience true healing.

An authentic story of the Christian life, Even in Our Darkness is like following an experienced guide through a barren country. Like many believers, Deere has had experiences that nearly destroyed him, and he was shown, by grace, how to overcome life's disappointments and learn to hear God speak in unbelievable ways, despite the darkness that surrounds us.

©2018 Jack S. Deere (P)2018 Zondervan

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"Unmasked, unsettling, and unforgettable...this will change the landscape of your soul." (Ann Voskamp, best-selling author of The Broken Way and One Thousand Gifts)

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Even in Our Darkness is a must read

Would you recommend this audiobook to a friend? If so, why?

As I mature there are fewer and fewer books that I feel I can safely recommend to a friend without giving them a disclaimer. Even in Our Darkness is NOT one of those books. Jack has done a remarkable job in opening up and sharing what an authentic Christian life looks like - without all the socially acceptable facades that are so common in most Christian books these days.

Who was your favorite character and why?

Jack showed that being a friend of Jesus, even in the midst of difficult life situations is not only possible, it is necessary.

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I loved how Jack opened up and shared his struggles and even his failures, and how God walked with him through it all.

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Jack's writings, his integrity, his teaching, and his example literally transformed who I am, how I think, and how I live. His previous three books, Surprised by the Spirit, Surprised by the Voice of God, and The Beginner's Guide to the Gift of Prophecy are on my list of must read books. Even in Our Darkness has been added to this list. In an age where so many Christians have retreated behind the mask of socially acceptable Christianity, it is so refreshing to hear one of the leading ministers in the Body of Christ lay down the mask and tell it like it is, warts and all. Even in the Darkness is honest, real, and gives hope to anyone who has a desire to know Jesus, to love Jesus and to be a friend of Jesus. God bless you, Jack!

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Moving, Unsettling, and Familiar

If you are looking for a good Christian book on suffering that has strained out all the awkwardness, embarrassment, and humiliation, so many sufferers experience, this isn’t it.
I truly appreciated the way Jack represented him self with transparency—many times stopping just short of my putting down the book. What I mean is, Jack’s willingness to be so honest exposed my own unwillingness to be so. I saw myself and my family in his story and it nearly flattened me at times.
Thank you, Jack, for your courage. You show us we don’t have to be perfect to be part of God’s kingdom… To be recklessly loved by Him.

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I have over 1,200 books in my Audible Library. This book transcends several genres and is the single best book in my library.

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This is a FANTASTIC book.

I found myself walking alongside these folks hanging onto every word in each of their stories. The content is hard, but full of hope. Heart wrenching, yet beautiful. If you’re a Christian, this book is for you. If you’re not, this book is also for you. It’s a raw and honest conversation about very hard things. My heart felt both destroyed and encouraged by this personal account from so many different points of view. Each person represented in it is someone you can relate to in one way or another. For me it is a beautiful story about horrible things and I am grateful for having stumbled upon it. Thank you Jack and Lisa for letting us into your world to walk with you through this story of hope.

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Impactful

This audio book kept me riveted. It is among the most impactful books I have ever read or listened too. And I have read many books as a pastor for over 20 years. The honest reflections, the triumphs, the failures, the sadness the trauma and redemptive love of God pulse through it. Thanks for writing it.

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Incredible

Thank you Jack for being create us enough to bring us into your world and show us how we can go through pain and still follow Jesus. What incredible witness to the grace of God despite our feelings are ego and are evil. You will be challenged as you read this one in the best of ways and how to trust God even in our darkness because one thing is for sure we all experience darkness in the question is how will we come through it to the other side

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A staggeringly honest account

Jack's memoir will take you on a ride that will steal your breath and return it at seemingly the last possible moment. You may laugh, you will probably cry, and the Lord God will be praised as you read it.

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Answered prayer

Masterpiece beautifully written and such breath of fresh air for the soul of the believers. We do need to take our masks off and let the Lord display power through our brokenness. Thanks to Mr Deere also for shedding light to the dogmas/doctrines raising against the reality and power of the Holy Spirit. I am not Pentecostal but do find author's approach to the matter truthful and balanced.

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Transparent life story with God's presence

Listening to the narrator's was like listening to a friend share their life story. I appreciated the transparency and details of Jack and Lisa God story of their life. God is so faithful and good.

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Engaging and Encouraging

This is a very engaging read and Jack Deere does not hold back the dark details of his story. You won't want to stop listening. It is not always all happy and at times is very dark. Most pastors will not share this stuff in such depth. You'll see that no matter the darkness you walk amongst, God is still there, loving and walking with you like he did for Jack.

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  • 10-25-18

If you think you've got issues... Think again!

Jack somehow keeps his head above water in a sea of difficulty. Remarkable honesty throughout.

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  • Jon P.
  • 09-19-18

Awash in gratitude

I wasn’t familiar with Jack Deere or his writings before reading this book, but after chancing on a positive review and having my interest raised by the précis, I decided to purchase.

Deere writes vividly and with great honesty about his family’s life and the shadows cast over it by abuse (sexual and physical), suicide, sexual purity as well as alcohol and substance addiction; painful yet important topics for the church and for society. Some of his most brutal writing, for a Christian author and pastor, comes around his own walk with God and realisations about his pride, selfishness, ego and buried pain though. I found his words, written from a position of maturity and with the hindsight of a life lived, to be deeply insightful and curiously refreshing, particularly when sharing how God used ever moment to draw him to Him.

It is my experience within Christian communities that such levels of honesty around our dealings with life’s darkness is rare and in this Instagram-filtered/FOMO-generation it feels like it is only getting rarer. There is a raw and genuine reality to Jack’s story and the narrative skips by engagingly. I listened to the audiobook version read by the author and loved his narration. Thoroughly recommended.

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  • hbutler
  • 09-10-18

deeply moving

Written with humility and honesty, challenging everyone seeking fulfillment anywhere other than in Christ alone.

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  • lou
  • 05-21-19

stunningly honest

loved every part of this book. the authors authenticity and vulnerability spoke deeply to me and reminded me of just how amazing God's grace is. It is in our weakness that God shows He is strong and it is only when we get to the end of of ourselves, that we really learn to love and be loved. I'd recommend this again and again for anyone who needs to be reminded that God makes beauty out of our mess.

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  • Anonymous User
  • 09-21-22

Impact

This book has blown my mind, I went home each night and kissed my kids, apologised to my wife and saw love and beauty in things I have seen a thousand times before I read this book.

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  • Mitchell
  • 08-11-22

Honest

Pastor Jack Deere gives an honest account of the past woes he has both inflicted and suffered, it's a life story of the persistence of God’s love within the darkness and muddiness of this fallen world. Our Creator stands in contrast to the darkness and His persistent "steadfast" love is accentuated. This book also offers you a chance to reckon your own life and see how Our God is persistent in His love for us personally as individuals. The triumph at the end of the book is not one of a personal achievement but instead that of a recognition of Our Creator's love, that love in which when our lives are honestly told, glorifies & magnifies Him even more.

Though the book is 'short'(ish) I personally benefited from not speedily finishing it. It's also worth noting that it was cool to get a look into the recent past of the 50's & 60's. Given that I'm a fledgling in respect to Jack's full life & that I live in another culture, the era in which he grew up already seems strangely foreign even though it wasn't too long ago.

God bless