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Dirty Mind

Narrated by: Vance Bastian
Length: 5 hrs and 10 mins
Categories: Fiction, Gay & Lesbian
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Alexander Popescu is a university lecturer in a quiet German town. He’s a respectable man in his thirties who stays fit, has a decent career, and travels alone - his only vice is an occasional greasy meal. And beer. And violent computer games. Nobody has to know about the other Alex - the acclaimed porn writer. His ingenious erotic fantasies earn him good money and keep his capricious mind harmlessly entertained.
 

When his young friend and protégé Christian transfers to Freiburg for medical school, Alex is overjoyed...and terrified that Christian will find out about Alex’s indecent alter ego. The time they spend together, as lovely as it is, could overturn Alex’s carefully balanced life. Suddenly, the writing is not good enough, his hair seems to be thinning, his careful hookups leave him unfulfilled, and his dreams are haunted by the innocent young man he’s vowed to protect.
 

However, Christian is not a boy anymore. He’s a grown man of 21, clever, and deadly attractive. And he’s hiding some secrets of his own.

©2017 Roe Horvat (P)2019 Roe Horvat

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Perfect authenticity

A perfect collaboration between the author’s writing voices and the voices of the narrator.

A great romance with entertaining twists in the personalities of the main and the supporting characters that is fun to listen to develop.

I like that the differences between the two who are involved in the romance are unique and very human, yet definitely not predictable as the story unfolds.

Of at least 200 audiobooks I have and really liked, I believe this is among the top five.

Funny title since the story is so much more than that!

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OMG! Sooo Good!

Love this audible. The characters were great, the story was cute, the love relationship was believable and oh so sexy and playful.
Narration was perfect.
This audible is a keeper and a re listen.
Looking forward to listening to this book over and over.

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Good Story, Not My Favorite Narration by Bastian

A Joyfully Jay review

Alexander is enjoying one of his jaunts to Spain, sitting in a bar in Catalonia and despairing at his lack of prospective hook-ups for the evening—too clingy, too old, junkies, drama queens, narcissists, too simpleminded (he’s admittedly an intellectual snob)—when a perfect angel walks into the bar, instantly capturing everyone’s attention. When the young lamb is left by his friends and eventually encounters an overly-aggressive man who won’t take no for an answer, Alex pretends to be his boyfriend and stays with him until his friends return. During their time together, Alex learns that his perfect angel is named Christian and that he’s an 18-year-old adorable baby gay with a keen mind, sharp wit, and aspirations of becoming a doctor.

Alex is not only enchanted by Christian’s beauty, but by how good, pure, and wise he seems to be at such a young age—a far cry from who Alex was at that age and light years from the jaded, “seasoned connoisseur” of filth, and “bored pervert” he is at 30, writing smut under a pen name to keep his vulgar side occupied and to supplement his income from his respectable teaching career. Before they part, Christian asks for Alex’s information, beginning a friendship where, over the next three years, Alex adopts Christian as his protégé and sets himself up as his protector. However, the avuncular role he casts for himself begins to ring false when Christian transfers to Alex’s hometown for medical school. The more time Alex spends with Christian, the more inadequate he feels as a mentor, and more frighteningly, as a man. Soon Alex is thrust into a premature mid-life crisis and is forced to question whether his almost zealous need to protect Christian’s purity (of mind and body) has less to do with keeping Christian safely clean from the filth of the world and Alex’s dirty mind, and more to do with keeping Alex’s heart safe from loving an angel when he feels so dreadfully, unworthily human.

"Dirty Mind" is the first time I’ve had the pleasure of reading a book by Roe Horvat, and I really enjoyed his writing style. It flows and is sneakily lyrical in places I didn’t expect, making certain descriptions even more relatable, hilarious, or moving. Horvat’s style helped me enjoy a type of story and character that I may not have otherwise. For me, Horvat’s style and depiction of Alex’s personality make Alex’s journey and flaws relatable, even when he’s being beyond ridiculous and so very extra. As "Dirty Mind" is written from Alex’s POV, the crux of the story is Alex’s RAGING insecurity in regards to Christian, even before he becomes consciously aware that he has feelings for him. Once he does, although Alex professes to wants to be Christian’s friend no matter what, he can’t help but self-recriminate and be preoccupied by his own feelings and failures, which can be hard to take, particularly when Alex spends much of the book obsessing before he actually makes a mistake. However, I believe Horvat does a great job establishing early on that Alex is self-aware enough to recognize that he is a high-maintenance, moody man-child, who doesn’t know his own mind or what he wants. Moreover, Horvat uses enough levity and Alex’s own inherently fun-loving, raunchy nature to make Alex’s increasing fixation with comparisons to Christian’s looks, age (a 12-year gap he makes sound like 50), and intellect work in a way that balances humor and emotional depth well.

Although, Christian’s on page growth isn’t as blatant as Alex’s, it’s just as clear, and frankly, doesn’t need to be since Alex and Christian’s entire dynamic and relationship tumult comes from Alex’s refusal to understand that while, initially, Christian is an innocent in certain ways, between his controlling mother, his work ethic, and sharp mind, Christian is mature beyond his age and compared to Alex. He is VERY much the functioning adult in the relationship. Watching Alex flounder for basically the entire story, only to have Christian enter a scene to calmly direct Alex in one way or another or to see Christian’s quiet growth, which simply matches his confidence and maturity at the beginning to his gains in experience, is very enjoyable and at times hilarious, particularly in the face of Alex’s obliviousness and overblown, unnecessary self-doubt.

Regarding the narration, as someone who proofs audiobooks, loves them maybe a bit too much (I stopped counting after my library hit 1K), and sees them as a way to experience a book in a new way, my audiobook reviews may be a bit picky sometimes, and unfortunately, that happens to be the case for "Dirty Mind". There are a few technical and less definable elements to Vance Bastian’s narration that made this simply an ok audiobook for me. The technical issues popped up quickly as I winced slightly at the pronunciation of Sitges and was fully pulled into “ouch, American reading a Europe-based book” mode when the painfully precise, uninflected Platja de l’Home Mort followed. I know for some this is a non-issue, especially since there aren’t many other non-Germanic, non-English words, and with English and German being more closely related, the need for inflection is less noticeable. However, I enjoy when the narrator is able to convey the feel or spirit of the place, but with those immediate hard American pronunciations, any feel for Catalonian beaches or being transported to Freiburg Germany was instantly taken away. Still, the book quickly establishes that the characters both speak German so that the “Americanness” of the narration can more easily be overlooked by listeners.

Additionally, I give props to Bastian for, in my opinion, nailing the overall tone of the book. It is emotional, but light and humorous and has to be conveyed mostly in Alex’s voice, and I think Bastian chooses Alex’s well, given the book’s feel and his personality. For although Alex is 33, he acts not much older than Christian, so the delivery of the narration and much of Alex’s silly, overwrought angst conveys (and pokes fun at) the man-child Alex so clearly is. On the other hand, there is a hard to describe, rhythmic, almost singsong cadence to Bastian’s delivery (I guess to achieve that lightness) that eventually translates into a type of emotional flatness that makes his overall execution come across as less engaged and less nuanced. I feel this may have robbed the story of some emotional depth or impact in places. For instance, there is a scene in which Mattias and Alex, who are friends with benefits, go from watching an emotionally affecting porn video to Mattias having an emotional breakdown that has hallmarks of anxiety, depression, and/or PTSD. Although there is some emotional variance to portray this is a serious moment, that current of flatness still remains, leaving me with the feeling of poor transitions and missed opportunity because while there doesn’t need to be high drama or an outpouring of emotion, there is (at least for me) a degree of depth between what Bastian does and what he is capable of doing that would have made all the difference in bringing to life what I believe that scene feels like on the page to what I experienced in listening.

This and smaller moments that come across like bad line readings accumulated and distracted me from the story, and eventually made it hard for me to ascertain if certain elements I disliked came from the story or were influenced by my negative feeling for the narration. It also illustrates for me that indescribable something that differentiates a narration from a performance. A narration is not necessarily bad, but a performance has a level of subtly and reality that, for me, brings the words to life in a different way. It’s the difference between having a narrator deliver normal dialogue then suddenly become breathless and say “wheeze, cough” and a performance, where the character sounds slightly breathless as they deliver their lines beforehand. Moreover, there are also other moments in which, I’m assuming, page breaks, weren’t incorporated as pauses into the story, making sudden time/setting jumps indistinguishable, another technical issue that interrupts the flow and proves distracting.

All in all, this is one of those times where I actually wish I had read the story first because I found the audio version distracting enough to detract from what I feel the story may have imparted. I usually wouldn’t rate an audiobook so low on the blog unless it had obvious production quality issues/mistakes or the narrator was, in my opinion, doing a serious disservice to the book. Unfortunately, I have to mark this audiobook lower for detracting from the story for me. I’ve heard Vance Bastian narrate before and like his work; this one just isn’t one of his best and may not do the book justice for first time listeners. However, for those who enjoyed the book, simply enjoy Vance Bastian’s voice, etc., then the audiobook for "Dirty Mind" may be for you.

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So much more than the title suggests

I read this e-book 2 years ago and very happily gave it 5 stars. Here is a portion of that review:

"Despite the name, this is the very lovely story of the May/December romance between Alex and Christian. Well, it's eventually a romance. It takes a lot of work to get there, and every moment is heart-wrenching. Alex is determined to protect Chris from everything, including Alex himself; and Chris is unclear (so it seems to Alex, anyway) about what he wants. I love both men, with their stubbornness and insecurities. They are fortunate to have good friends to help them through. Chris's roommate Dieter is a riot; and Alex's friend and former sex buddy Mattias just breaks my heart."

I was thrilled to have the chance to listen to this wonderful story in audio format, and I think I've fallen even more in love with the characters and the sweet love story. The narrator's performance is just perfect. He is especially good at bringing Alex and all his doubts to life. I didn't realize while reading just how often Alex apologized, but hearing "sorry" out loud over and over made me feel an affectionate frustration for the man who believed he was too old and flawed for the perfection he saw in Chris.

I love this author's writing, and this book is truly a gem. In audio, it's even better. Highly recommended!

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Good age-gap story

I enjoyed listening to this book but I think I might have liked it even more if I'd read it. I've enjoyed Vance Bastian's narration of other Roe Horvat books but I think his voice sounded just a bit young for this one. There's a 12-year age-gap between the two MC's (main characters) and I thought the voice for the older MC just didn't sound old enough.

The story itself is a great age-gap romance and a beautiful love story. I actually skimmed back through the book after listening to the audio and it reinforced to me that I would have preferred to read this one first before listening to it. The audiobook isn't bad, it just wasn't quite to my taste to experience this story that way first.

When I read back through the story, I was more able to feel the connection between Christian and Alex. I loved the descriptive writing about places I'm unfamiliar with. Maybe one day I'll get to visit some of them.

I love Roe Horvath's writing and his other audiobooks I've listened to and I will continue to read his wonderful stories.

A complimentary copy of this audiobook was provided to me but my review was voluntary and not influenced by the author and/or narrator.

***Reviewed for Xtreme-Delusions dot com*** (posting on September 11, 2019)

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Another great book by Mr. Horvat

I’ve become an avid fan of Mr. Horvat’s and will listen to or read anything he writes. My only complaint is they stories are too short…I always just want more. There is so much emotion in every book, the settings are always exotic (I’m an American) and interesting and the stories are unique every time.

Chris and Alex’s relationship is a very slow burn…Alex feels he’s too old and Christian never verbalizes how he feels. I love how they become friends before lovers. The development of their relationship and the motives for Chris’ behavior in order to get Alex’s attention are a bit predictable but that doesn’t detract from the story in any way. While this doesn’t pack quite the emotional punch as the other books of his I’ve read it’s still a great story.

The supporting cast is fantastic. I’m really hoping Mattias has a story out there because I need it!

The other two books I’ve listened to by Mr. Horvat were performed by Vance Bastian. They are quite possibly the dynamic duo of audiobooks. As an American reader, I don’t know if I’d be able to pronounce some of the words in the story, so I appreciate hearing Mr. Bastian’s performance. He always packs the perfect emotions into his performance making the stories so much better. This is definitely a must listen!

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delightful

Dirty Mind was a delightful audiobook. I loved the slow burn between Alex and Christian. They start out as friends and the relationship continues on through correspondence for a few years until Christian moves to Alex’s town for school. The main issue I had with this one was Alex’s constant negative views about the age difference. Vance Bastian did a great job with the narration. He portrayed Alex perfectly! I strongly recommend this fun, sexy, lighthearted audiobook

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My filthy mind

Alex is a lucky man with a secret. Three years ago he met a young man in a bar and rescued the kid. They struck up a conversation and it was clear Christian felt he’d discovered a kindred spirit. Someone he could talk to. Someone he could be honest to. Although only a teenager, Christian seemed pretty clear on who he was. Too young for Alex, to be sure, but ready to spread his wings. What developed was a beautiful friendship – mainly through emails. It isn’t until Christian transfers to medical school in Alex’s town that things get interesting. See Alex has promised Christian’s mother, and himself, that nothing bad will happen to the young protégé.

Might be good in theory, but in practice it’s a lot harder to maintain distance. Christian always seems to be popping up in Alex’s life and he can’t deny how much he cares for the younger man. Not in a romantic way, of course. Or so he tells himself. In fact he nicknamed Christian ‘squirrel’ when they first met and he often uses the name as a reminder of the age difference. Needless to say it annoys Christian. He wants to be seen as the man of twenty-one that he is. And although Alex seems old, he’s only thirty-three. As Christian says to him: “you’re afraid of failing and of losing your hair”. Alex is a little hair-obsessed. Can a man have a midlife crisis at thirty-three? Apparently so.

Alex has another problem. He’s a writer. Of porn. He keeps that part of him on the DL because, frankly, no one really needs to know. It provides him with extra income and a source for his angst. He can write, immersing himself in dirty deeds. He has no intention of ever letting Christian know about the porn. But sometimes young persistent men discover secrets. Sometimes they turn the tables on their mentors. Sometimes they get the affection and love they’re craving.

I really enjoyed this story. Alex’s angst did seem a little extreme at times – hell, I’m forty-five and nowhere near as panicked about growing old. I suppose if I had a young thing lusting after me and I was dying to return the attention things might be different. Vance Bastian narrated this story and I was so pleased. I enjoy his work and this performance was no exception. I especially loved how he nailed Alex’s inner thoughts and monologues. I felt like I was in Alex’s head. This is a single point of view story, so I really was in Alex’s head. I might have appreciated seeing things from Christian’s point of view but the story worked as is. And I can definitely recommend a nice read that, despite Alex’s fretting, was low on angst, high on humor, and happy in life.

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I will tell “I love you” for the rest of our lives

I have always loved and am impressed with Roe Horvat’s lyrical, magical writing. 😍 And to combine that with with the talented and amazing narration of Vance Bastian, it was pure “eargasms”. 😉🔥 You are going to think you're going to get lots of sexy, erotic, scorching hot scenes from the title of this book. But actually, this book is really quite sweet and romantic. 🥰

Alexander is a 30 something professor who teaches creative writing in a university in Freiburg. However teaching is his day job and his main income comes from writing really dirty, erotic gay eroticas. Writing smut is not only a good way to fulfill his wildest, dirtiest imaginations but also a good way to earn real good money. As a result, he can do vacations very often and one of his favorite place is a nudist beach in Spain famous for its LGBT scene. There he met Christian who’s young, innocent, intelligent and as beautiful as a fallen angel from heaven above. And Alex found himself unexpectedly adopting Christian as his young protege and a beautiful friendship began to blossom between the two of them. Over time, Alex realized that he loved Alex more than as his protege and he has fallen hopelessly and madly in love with the young, innocent, virginal man. However, there’s a 12 years age difference between Christian and him. And he didn’t want to feel like he’s going to take advantage of the young, innocent Christian. But Christian is not a naive, innocent teen he used to be when he first met Alex. He might still be a virgin and he might have no experience when it comes to love and life. But Christian knows what he wants and what he wants is his mentor Alex who he’s been secretly loving since they first met. One is determined to protect his love by letting go of him and one is set to get his first love by all means. If only they realize they are hopelessly in love with each other.

I kind of love that we only get Alex’s POV in this book because it makes it even more lovely and mysterious. ❤️ And my god, being inside Alex’s head is fascinating and funny as hell. That man is quirky with capital Q. 😂👏 Being a successful writer and teacher aide, Alex is a really insecure man when it comes to his love and feelings. He was somehow convinced that him being 33 equals being a grandpa for Christian. And that man is really clueless about Christian’s antics to seduce him. 😅😂 And young, virginal Christian who doesn’t turn out to be as innocent as he looks. 😁😉 I loved that little minx. Anyhow, although this book is quite sexy when it comes to that, this is more about the relationship development between the two men who are clueless that they love each other. It was a beautiful love story to listen. 💜 And my, was Vance’s narration hot or what??? 🔥 I swear .. every time he says “baby”, I blush and my heart flutters. 😁😍 I can’t wait to listen another book of Roe+Vance duo. Highly recommended to anyone who wants a swoon-worthy romance with a seductive virgin! 😉


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Funny and unique

Like all of Horvat's books, this was another special one. His writing is interesting, a sort of internal flow of thoughts from his characters. I love his writing and that he writes stories that take place in Europe. The narrator works very well with the accents and languages in Horvat's stories, brings emotion into the words well. I also enjoyed seeing a character from A Love Song for the Sad Man in the White Coat".
Alex is SO funny, and I liked how Christian got under his skin. They seem inevitable, always meant to be in a way, and the thrill of watching it happen is so good!
Sexy and full of humor, this book is a lighthearted tale of friendship turning into love.

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  • 09-19-19

An enjoyable age-gap romance

An intriguing contemporary age-gap story set in Germany. The romance between Alex and Christian builds slowly as they get to know each other. Alex sees himself first and foremost as Christian’s friend—his protector and mentor—despite wanting so much more with him. He is fearful of starting a relationship because of their twelve-year age gap and wants to protect Christian’s supposed innocence. We are treated to glimpses of Alex’s ‘secret’ erotic writing and the story heats up when the two guys finally admit their feelings and sort themselves out. I enjoyed the writing style and secondary characters too. The narration was clear and steady, expressing Alex's internal dilemma, the events, and emotions well.

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  • KR Phoenix @ Books, Tattoos and Tea
  • 09-11-19

Very enjoyable listen!!!

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A steamy German, age-gap romance! Oh, My!!

I really enjoyed this fast-paced, sort of slow burn, angsty but oh so sexy story. I enjoyed the picturesque German town and the discovering of finally finding yourself. I loved Roe’s approach to a “mid-life crisis” and enjoyed going into the mind of a 30+ guy freaking out about age, love and his future.

I felt Christian was a breath of fresh air (and while occasionally frustrating) I enjoyed the eventual coming together, longing and partnership Christian and Alex have. I felt the way Alex acted showed his age more than his physical appearance but I loved the freedom both Alex and Christian were able to finally find in each other.

I felt Roe did an amazing job of expressing longing and desire, so much so you can’t help but feel it too. I enjoyed the German elements and never felt lost or confused. I loved the escape to a small German town where Alex and Christian finally found themselves and admitted to the love they shared!

Very enjoyable listen!!!

Thanks for reading!