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A daughter’s quest to understand her charismatic and troubled father, an immigrant who crosses borders both real and illusory - between sanity and madness, science and spirituality, life and death 

Winner of the PEN/FUSION Emerging Writers Prize 

Throughout Jean Guerrero’s childhood, her father, Marco Antonio, was an erratic and elusive presence. A self-taught genius at fixing, creating, and conjuring things - and capable of transforming himself into a shaman, dreamcaster, or animal whisperer in his enchanted daughter’s eyes - he gradually began to lose himself in his peculiar obsessions, careening wildly between reality and hallucination. In time, he fled his family and responsibilities - to Asia, Europe, and eventually back to Mexico. He succumbed to drug- and alcohol-fueled manias, while suffering the effects of what he said were CIA mind-control experiments. As soon as she was old enough, Jean set out after him. Now a journalist, she used the tools of her trade, hoping to find answers to the questions he left behind. 

In this lyrical, haunting memoir, Jean Guerrero tries to locate the border between truth and fantasy as she searches for explanations for her father’s behavior. Refusing to accept an alleged schizophrenia diagnosis at face value, she takes Marco Antonio’s dark paranoia seriously and investigates all his wildest claims. She crisscrosses the Mexican-American border to unearth the stories of cousins and grandparents and discovers a chain of fabulists and mystics in her lineage, going back to her great-great-grandmother, a clairvoyant curandera who was paid to summon spirits from the afterlife. As she delves deeper and deeper into her family’s shadowy past, Jean begins mirroring her father’s self-destructive behavior. She risks death on her adventures, imperiling everything in her journey to redeem her father from the underworld of his delusions. 

In the tradition of engrossing family memoirs like The Liar’s Club and The Glass Castle, Crux is both a riveting adventure story and a profoundly original exploration of the human psyche, the mysteries of our most intimate relationships - and ourselves. 

©2018 Jean Guerrero (P)2018 Random House Audio

Critic Reviews

Crux is everything I want in a memoir: prose that dazzles and cuts, insights hard-won and achingly named, and a plot that kept me up at night, breathlessly turning pages. Jean Guerrero has a poet’s lyrical sense, a journalist’s dogged devotion to truth, and a fast and far-reaching mind. This is a book preoccupied with chasing - that is one of its harrowing pleasures - but, like all great memoirs, it is ultimately a story about the great trouble and relief of being found.” (Melissa Febos, author of Whip Smart and Abandon Me)

Crux is a triumphant memoir driven by the search for home and a father’s elusive love. The twists and unexpected turns across borders are enchanting. A poignant, lovely debut.” (Alfredo Corchado, author of Midnight in Mexico)

“Jean Guerrero has done excellent reporting from the U.S.-Mexico borderlands. Now she examines the more mysterious borders of family history and that unknown region of the heart. You will be moved by Crux - this book is powerful and true.” (Luis Alberto Urrea, author of The Devil’s Highway)

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Mesmerizing

An adventure into culture, consciousness and family. So very personal at the same time accessible and descriptive. Bravo!