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For more than two years, BBC Radio 4's The Archers ran a disturbing storyline centred on Helen Tichener's abuse at the hands of her husband Rob. Not the kind of abuse that leaves a bruise, but the sort of coercive control that breaks your spirit and makes it almost impossible to walk away.

As she listened to the unfolding story, Helen Walmsley-Johnson was forced to confront her own agonising past. Helen's first husband controlled her life, from the people she saw to what was in her bank account. He alienated her from friends and family, and even from their three daughters. Eventually, he threw her out and she painfully began to rebuild her life.

Then, divorced and in her early 40s, she met Franc. Kind, charming, considerate Franc. For 10 years she would be in his thrall, even when he too was telling her what to wear, what to eat, even what to think.

Look What You Made Me Do is her candid and utterly gripping memoir of how she was trapped by a smiling abuser, not once but twice. It is a vital guide to recognising, understanding and surviving this sinister form of abuse and its often terrible legacy. It is also an inspirational account of how one woman found the courage to walk away.

Jacket photograph © Reilika Landen / Arcangel

Author photograph © Martin Argles

Design: Ami Smithson, Pan Macmillan Art Department

©2018 Helen Walmsley-Johnson (P)2018 Audible, Ltd

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  • Anne H.
  • 03-16-18

I was gripped for personal reasons

I thought I had made a mistake with this book as the narration was a bit flat,but I stuck with it and I saw parallels of my own married life in this story, there was a little physical abuse but an awful lot of mental abuse and controlling
behaviour,like Helen I didn’t recognise it at the time i was convinced it was my fault my personality that made him do and say the things he did.

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  • Mikey
  • 03-14-18

Wow. This took real bravery and I admire that

I have nothing but admiration for Helen after having read this inspirational and moving account of her life, more specifically the time she spent in an unhealthy and tormenting relationship with someone who used his intelligence and manipulation tin equal measure.

All women who read this book will understand the courage it must have taken the author to not only find the strength to walk away from such a nightmarish existence, but to then go on and write about it in such a moving an deeply personal way. Being a man, I can say this book touched me, but I can only imagine that women who have also suffered the cruelty of psychological and manipulative abuse the world over, would find this book inspirational.

I truly commend and respect you Helen. Your bravery saved not only you, but now has the potential to help women the world over. Perhaps this book may be enough to nudge said women just that bit further into finding strength and finally making the decision to get out, my only hope is that it will.

Narration was monotonous. I didn't want to make a big thing out of it because this audiobook was about a lot more than 'performance' for me.

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  • Sarah
  • 03-22-18

Good, important book

This book is well written and informative - both in the wider sense and to have such an honest personal account.

It's always tricky reviewing books that are about difficult subjects because you don't want to use words like 'enjoyed', but I do want to say that I found Helen's narration very good and easy to listen to - I wish she could start a side career as an audiobook narrator! I also want to say that I found her story, though sad, very.. 'gripping'? This is the wrong word, but I disagree with a reviewer who read the paper version on Amazon who felt that there was too much detail and that the story could have been kept shorter. The fact that Helen has so many letters that she can quote word for word, for me really gave an insight into how relationships like these can work, more so than just hearing a summary of someone's story only in their own words.

I bought this book after hearing Helen on the Standard Issue podcast and am glad I did.

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  • A. L. Root
  • 03-19-18

Powerful

Engagingly told interweaving of autobiography with wider statistics and data. Very psychologically acute and compelling.

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  • Zoe Holmes
  • 04-28-18

Very relevant

A book that had to be written on a subject that is so hard to speak about and misunderstood by many

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  • Agnieszka Krus
  • 04-03-18

Love to bits❣

Easy to read and grasp topik, I would highly recomendto every woman as an eyes opener.

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  • Gill Parkinson
  • 05-30-18

Am I controlled too?

I wanted to know if the life the author had experienced was anything like mine. I liked the way she combined strands from the media (Helen Tichener’s relationship in The Archers , BBC Radio 4), alongside current legislation on domestic abuse, definitions and refs to literature on coercive behaviour. This didn’t detract from her storyline.

It did not have high dramatic content but did keep my interest until the end.

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  • Shellie
  • 05-23-18

disappointing

unfortunately I cannot rate the story, performance etc...i suffered until the 4th chapter but then had to turn it off because I could not listen to the droning, monotone voice of the narrator any longer. shame

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