i’m trying to talk myself out of it again

In this episode, I’m talking through a feeling I keep circling back to: trying to begin again… and wanting to talk myself out of it at the same time.

After weeks of planning, praying, and mapping out what’s next, I’m sitting with the quieter questions:

• Do I actually have the capacity to execute right now?
• Can I commit to work that doesn’t promise a reward?
• And what happens when the vision is clear, but the body feels tired?

This is an honest, real-time reflection on creative depression, execution anxiety, and the emotional weight that comes with trying again after burnout. I don’t have a solution here — just clarity, self-awareness, and a willingness to stay present with the process.

If you’ve ever felt aligned but exhausted, inspired but stuck, or confident in the vision but unsure how to move forward without burning yourself out, this conversation is for you.

This is where I’m at right now.

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