If you've ever felt betrayed by the world, only to discover what a self-help book could have taught you? Some wounds bring you to your knees and sometimes no one help can help. You have to pick yourself back up.

While I've had many rites-of-passage moments in my life, they were simply practice for the latest. And there is no bad guy in this story. Only teachers and students. And what ever you call those who refuse to learn from the pain.

James Fadiman, who popularized microdosing psychedelic mushrooms, wrote a book called the symphony of selves, referring to the concept that we have more than one voice speaking to us within. Some of those voices test us to see how much we value ourselves. Will we stick up for our boundaries? If not, who will bare the worst of it?

People in this world are hurt and when we cannot hold that pain alone, we project it and hope someone will come to our aid. But a particular kind of hurt that I experienced a few years back made me reconsider everything I believe.

The deeper I reconsidered my reality, the more I came to realize that there are no other voices outside my head. Just me in disguise. In this video I speak of what I noticed while I went through my healing process.

I learned that it was the little boy in me that needed to become a man that was hurt, scared, offended and lost.

As with a cymatic pattern in the sand created by a simple frequency, the phase it must enter in order to evolve into its next pattern is chaos. And chaos was the new normal in the dark void I found myself in just after the pain set in. I was drowning in the pain and resistance was futile.

But just like the Celine Cairo song expresses so beautifully, "I found a light" down on the bottom of the sea, and I took it with me. The answer was not to avoid the pain. It was to drown in it and put the old self to rest.

Something beautiful arose and I hope I express it well enough for you to see yourself in it.

In this episode I explore Curt Doolittle's views on masculine vs feminine neurology and where lies and undermining communication originates. He does a fantastic job modeling the way masculine and feminine neurology operates by spoke or unspoken contract. It's mathematical as well. The structure of the way we communicate is steeped in two evolutionary channels: Masculine and Feminine neurology.

I also tease apart some of the concepts around the role of men and women in the Iroquois nation and how they structured society to distribute power between the sexes while still honor the strengths of the masculine and feminine.

Finally, I dive into Curt's thoughts on the obstacle keeping our future generations from understanding masculine and feminine neurology as well as finance, economics and family divisions of labor. Apparently... it's the parents.

I give my thoughts at the end about where I think the problem truly exists.

Neurocinema is a new field of research that looks at exactly how TV programs, commercials and films effect the neurology of the viewer. The more accurately the producer can predict the audience reaction, the more successful the film typically is at achieving its intended goal: Your attention, your money and Your time.

In this episode I explore this new field and what it could mean for the future of films and video content. If you've heard of Bespoke medicine (which means tailor made for you), then you'll get a kick out of Bespoke TV. The future of film content is allowing the movie to actually change in real time based on audience reaction.

This sounds like an incredible advancement in entertainment and a scary advancement in military grade behavioral modification technology.

Watch this exciting episode to get familiar with this new world we're stepping into... and remember: You are the most powerful technology.