What if the faith you thought you had wasn’t the same as surrender?

Jason Kanapkey grew up in church. Baptized at eight. Knew the language. Believed in Jesus.

But by 12, he was experimenting with drugs. By 16, chasing highs. By 17, couch-surfing and barely holding life together.

He believed in God. He just wasn’t following Him.

Years later, sitting on his couch as a young adult, reading Scripture with fresh eyes, everything shifted. And when he finally let go of the identity he was clinging to, he discovered something unexpected: obedience felt like abundance.

In this episode, Jason shares:

• Growing up around religion but discovering relationship

• Addiction, identity, and the quiet drift from God

• The surrender moment that transformed everything

• Serving before fully understanding

• Finding deep discipleship and brotherhood

• Navigating open-heart surgery and learning to receive grace

• Living out faith in the marketplace, not just the church

This isn’t a story about having it all figured out. It’s about daily transformation.

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Read: Romans 12:1–2, Matthew 6:33, Hebrews 11:6, Revelation 3:20

What do you do when the faith you inherited never brings the peace you’re promised?

Suzanne Hancock was born and raised in the Mormon (LDS) church. She followed the rules, did what was expected, and built her identity around a faith tradition handed down for generations—yet peace always felt just out of reach.

In this episode, Suzanne courageously shares her long, honest journey of seeking truth:

• Growing up Mormon and quietly questioning what didn’t sit right

• Feeling trapped between loyalty, identity, and unanswered questions

• Wrestling with shame, anxiety, and depression while searching for peace

• Stepping into a Christian church for the first time—alone and uncertain

• Discovering Jesus not as a system, but as a relationship

• Walking away from a lifelong identity and choosing Christ for herself

• Experiencing baptism as freedom, joy, and new life

• Learning to trust God daily with anxiety, parenting, and purpose

This is not a story about switching religions. It’s a story about seeking truth, finding peace, and choosing Jesus—no matter the cost.

If you’ve ever:

• Felt spiritually restless even inside a faith tradition

• Feared disappointing people by asking hard questions

• Struggled with anxiety, shame, or identity loss

• Wondered whether Jesus could really bring peace

Suzanne’s story is a powerful reminder that Jesus keeps His promise: “Seek, and you will find.”

🎧 Listen now to hear how surrender, courage, and grace reshaped one woman’s faith—and future.

• Matthew 3:17
• Matthew 7:7–8
• Jeremiah 29:11
• Psalm 103

• Rooted
• Alpha
• Shalom Message Series

What happens when the life you’re chasing leaves you empty.. and God meets you at rock bottom?

Jackson Ford didn’t grow up deeply rooted in faith. For years, God felt distant - something reserved for holidays and church buildings, not everyday life. College only amplified that distance as partying, addiction, and isolation quietly took hold.

Then everything changed.

In this episode, Jackson shares his raw and hopeful story of transformation:

• Growing up around church but never really knowing God

• How COVID isolation exposed deeper emptiness and addiction

• Hitting rock bottom during college and encountering grace for the first time

• Saying yes to Jesus and watching identity, relationships, and purpose change

• Learning to love selflessly instead of living for himself

• Discernment, surrender, and an unexpected call into ministry

This isn’t a story about having it all figured out. It’s about curiosity turning into conviction.

If you’ve ever:

• Felt far from God even when you knew about Him

• Tried to numb emptiness with success, relationships, or habits

• Wondered if God could really use your past

• Wrestled with obedience when it didn’t make logical sense

Jackson’s story is a reminder that God doesn’t wait for us to clean ourselves up - He meets us in the mess and leads us forward.

• Watch: Defining Moments: Jackson's Story
• Read: Romans 8, Acts 11:1-3, and Matthew 6:25-34

• The Four Loves by C.S. Lewis