One hundred episodes. Two and a half years. This is the moment when we pause and look back, say thank you, and close this chapter that is so dear to our hearts. Amanda and Kyle take a trip down memory lane, pay tribute to guests who came on the show, and share two important letters - one to the person who made this show possible, and one for you: the people who made it real because you showed up, week after week. Much love to each of you.

Stay on the journey with Amanda as she pivots to a new show: The Healing Life

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We've been crying for days, and we're not done yet.

In this penultimate episode, Amanda and Kyle reflect on 2.5 years and nearly 100 episodes of The Cult I Left Behind — what it cost, what it gave back, and what they know now that they didn't when they hit record for the first time.

Amanda shares what this show taught her about her own healing, her foundational wounds around family and belonging, and a moment at the dining room table that gave her something she'd waited almost 40 years for.

Then it's Kyle's turn. For 99 episodes he's been the listener, the witness, the steady presence beside Amanda. Today we celebrate him for modeling what it means to be a safe person for thousands of listeners. Before we close this chapter, Amanda turns the mic around to honor what he's brought to this show and the standard he's set for all of us.

This one's going to require tissues. You've been warned.

Episode 100 — the finale for now — drops in two weeks.

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Many of us who were raised to be good little girls are facing some hard realizations these days.

This episode is a stark look at the links between cults, high-control religion, and sex trafficking rings, and their impact on girls and women.

Amanda grew up inside the Institute in Basic Life Principles (IBLP) cult, a high-control religious system where girls were trained to be compliant, deferential, and self-policing. Being “good” meant protecting the system. It meant absorbing harm quietly. It meant never being the problem.

In this conversation, Amanda and Kyle explore how “good girl” conditioning doesn’t just operate inside cults. It operates anywhere power is protected and girls are expected to stay agreeable. They talk about what it means to be “good” in these systems, about silence, about trauma in the body, and about why watching powerful men avoid consequences can feel destabilizing for women who were trained to keep everyone comfortable at their own expense.

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