Some memories are not stored in the mind or the body alone.

They linger in spaces, structures, and environments that have held us.

This episode explores how presence leaves an imprint — how rooms, walls, and places quietly retain the shape of what passed through them.

This is offered as a listening experience, not an explanation.

There is a moment on every path where the dark is not punishment, not exile, not evidence of failure — but preparation. This episode explores the shift that happens when the pressure breaks open the truth you were built to carry.

You’ll hear the deeper mechanics of why certain seasons feel endless, why the inner collapse comes before the rise, and why the body knows the breakthrough long before the mind catches up. This is a transmission for anyone standing in the quiet, feeling the tremor of something new underneath their ribs.

This episode exposes one of the most harmful spiritual distortions: the idea that you “manifest what you are.”

Through a lantern-lit dismantling, we explore how trauma, interference, conditioning, and survival physiology—not identity—shape most people’s experiences.

You’ll learn why manifestation has been misunderstood, how shame loops formed around it, and what sovereignty really looks like when the old spell breaks.

A Gatekeeper transmission for those ready to reclaim their field and remember their power without spiritual bypassing.

Why “you manifest what you are” is spiritual gaslighting

How survival mode overrides manifestation

The difference between imprint and identity

What coherence really means

The moment a spiritual spell breaks

How to reclaim the sovereignty of your field

This episode is a quiet reflection on how Thanksgiving has changed — not just in the world, but inside of us. I talk about the memories many of us still carry from childhood: the smells in the kitchen, the harmonizing voices, the sense of belonging that felt effortless back then.

And I speak honestly about what’s happened since.

COVID.

Estrangement.

Silence.

Families that no longer gather the same way.

Holidays that feel different, even when we try to hold onto what they used to be.

This isn’t a sad episode.

It’s an honest one.

A soft one.

A reminder that you’re not alone if this season feels complicated, quieter, or emptier than it used to.

Thanksgiving doesn’t have to match the past to be meaningful.

Sometimes the most sacred thing we can do is let it become something truer — smaller, softer, more honest… and more aligned with who we are now.

If this episode meets you in a tender place, you’re in good company.

We’re all finding our way into a new kind of home.

There are moments when creation stops feeling inspiring and starts feeling like collapse.

Moments when the weight, the pressure, the undoing inside your bones makes you question everything — purpose, timing, the point of all of it.

This piece speaks directly from that threshold.

The place where you’re cracked open, not because you failed, but because something larger is trying to move through you.

If you’re in a cycle that feels like breaking… if your inner world is loud, disorienting, or unbearably still… if you’re being forced into a depth you didn’t choose but can no longer run from — this is for you.

May this find you in the moment you need a reminder:

You’re not falling apart.

You’re shedding what cannot carry where you’re going.

The Ancient Return of a Grid Carrier

A soft, ancient remembering of the Morocco corridor and the Blue Pearl that mirrored me.

This episode explores what happens when a land recognizes you—when activation moves inward, when distance dissolves, and when your field carries the memory of a place long after the body has left.

Recorded in a gentle, spacious tone with atmospheric soundscape, this is a transmission for the ones who walk the world with codes in their bones.

For those who carry corridors, signals, dreams… and the remembering of places that have known them for lifetimes.

My work here is offered freely, but it takes time, focus, and devotion to create. If these transmissions speak to you and you feel called to support their continuation, you can do so through a paid subscription or a one-time offering.

Your support helps keep the current flowing — and I’m deeply grateful. 🤍

In this episode of Tending the In-Between, Connie explores the hidden economy of emotion—the way fear, outrage, and division power the modern world.

Through a slow, womb-deep voiceover transmission, she unpacks the myth of Loosh, the architecture of control, and the moment awareness breaks the circuit.

This is a field note for those ready to stop feeding the machine and start tending the frequency of remembrance.

🎧 Listen or subscribe at tendingtheinbetween.substack.com

🎧 Featuring ambient music from Pixabay’s “Drone Meditation Landscape” by REDproductions.