In this episode, we explore what it feels like to lose your sense of joy and connection, not through sadness, but through a quiet emotional numbness that so many people are silently carrying. Michelle talks about the “spiritual straitjacket,” the pressure to keep pretending we’re fine while the world grows heavier, more divided, and increasingly disconnected.

She reflects on a personal moment of feeling misunderstood and attacked, and how it revealed a deeper collective truth: we’re all exhausted, unseen, and longing for real connection. The episode dives into the grief underneath our “I’m fine,” the loss of community and tradition, and the way modern life has replaced genuine closeness with overwhelm, politics, and performance.

Michelle reminds us that feeling…. even when it’s heavy…. is a sign of being alive, not a weakness. As the holidays approach and old wounds surface, she offers a simple grounding practice to reconnect with yourself. The episode closes with a call to strip off the emotional armor, name what’s real, and rediscover connection in the small, honest, unfiltered moments that remain.

I didn’t go to Peru chasing enlightenment or jungle visions. I went because I needed to do something that scared the absolute hell out of me… something for me for once.

This is the raw, unfiltered story of what really happens when you sit with Ayahuasca 😳 the fear, the surrender, the unraveling 💥 and the truth that blindsides you in the best and worst way. I thought I knew what I was going there to heal… but the medicine had her own plans.

What came through wasn’t what I expected. It wasn’t gentle. But it was real. And it showed me a truth I’ll never unsee; about trauma, forgiveness, and who’s really been holding the knife this whole time.

If you’ve ever wondered what Ayahuasca actually feels like… what happens when your ego finally taps out… or what it means to meet yourself in the dark… this one’s for you.

✨ Listen if you’ve ever:

• Given everything away and wondered what’s left for you

• Been terrified to face what’s really underneath

• Wanted to know what healing looks like without the “love and light” filter

• Needed a reminder that sometimes medicine doesn’t fix you… it reveals you

Meet Michelle: The Medicine, The Mess, and The Magic.