She's Not The One Who Haunts Me

She’s not the one who haunts me.

I don’t miss her. I don’t long for the relationship we had. But I do keep running into the version of myself I had to become when I was with her. The one who knew how to stay quiet. The one who filtered every emotion. The one who thought being easy to love meant making himself smaller.

Now that I’m in something different — something safe, honest, and mutual — I’m realising how many corners of myself I tucked away without even noticing. And just as I’m starting to feel whole again, life throws a little test: she’s coming back into my orbit for a moment. Not emotionally, just physically. But it’s enough to stir something I thought I’d outgrown.

This episode is about that version of me. The ghost.

Not to judge him, but to finally acknowledge what he had to do — and why he doesn’t get to drive anymore.