Suzanne Salloum grew up the youngest of ten children in Mount Druitt, Western Sydney — the only Lebanese girl in her school, navigating relentless racism, cultural isolation and the weight of an immigrant family finding its footing in Australia. What followed was a life lived defiantly in spaces that didn't want her — she did it anyway.

In this episode, Suzanne opens up to Neil about growing up caught between two worlds, caring for her father from the age of 17 before losing him suddenly, scoring a role on Fat Pizza and why twenty years on she still won't lighten her hair.

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In April 2010, 21-year-old Pralav Dhyani was four months into his first voyage as a trainee deck officer when Somali pirates boarded his vessel. What followed was 332 days held hostage off the coast of Somalia — no contact with family, dwindling food and water, guns pointed at his head, and the devastating loss of a crewmate who didn't make it home.

Pralav takes Neil inside the moment the shots rang out, the terrifying five-minute window between attack and capture, and what daily survival looked like when hope was rationed just as tightly as the rice. He talks about the crew members who sided with their captors, the staged terror before every ransom negotiation, and the surreal moment a bag of cash floated down from a plane — and the pirates just vanished.

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In this special episode, competition winners Angela and Costa turn the tables on Neil — putting him in the hot seat with questions that cover 20 years of life in the shadows. From his first security job chasing shoplifters at Westfield Miranda to walking beside one of Sydney's most feared men, Neil opens up about the highs, the loyalties, and the cost of it all.

He talks about what it was like to be a target — for years. The drive-by at DCM where instinct alone moved him out of the line of fire. The moment his family gave him an ultimatum and he chose not to blink. And in one of the most honest exchanges the show has ever had, he talks about the night he put a hit on himself — because he couldn't see any other way out.

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