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  • The Good Little Drug Lord: Shawn’s True Story of Addiction and Redemption
    Aug 12 2025

    Sean Hemeon shares his powerful journey from a chaotic childhood in a strict Mormon household, through struggles with identity, addiction, and dangerous high-stakes drug dealing, to long-term recovery and reconciliation with his family. He opens up about feeling “not enough” from an early age, the role alcohol and drugs played in numbing that pain, and how his life spiraled into violence, federal charges, and life-threatening situations. After narrowly escaping prison, Sean entered recovery in 2004 and has since built a life grounded in service, creativity, and healing. He reflects on the emotional turning points that shaped his sobriety, including confronting deep wounds with his mother, finding community in recovery, and pursuing his passion for acting and art. Today, he uses his story, and soon to be released as a memoir, as a testament to the transformative power of connection, forgiveness, and purpose.

    More on Sean Hemeon: https://www.seanhemeon.com

    00:00 – Introductions & sobriety dates
    00:35 – Childhood in a Mormon household, family chaos, and parental conflict
    02:11 – Early emotional neglect and feelings of not being enough
    03:42 – Teenage identity crisis and discovering same-sex attraction
    04:58 – First experiences with alcohol and instant connection to its effects
    07:31 – High school years: masking identity, increasing substance use, hidden relationship
    10:13 – Violence and abandonment; deepening shame and isolation
    11:26 – Core belief of “I’m not enough” and the cycle of addiction
    13:05 – College years, heartbreak, suicide attempt, and coming out to his mother
    15:00 – Immersion in DC’s gay club scene and early drug experiences
    16:18 – Meeting a meth dealer boyfriend; thrill of underground life
    18:57 – Becoming a dealer, escalating risks, and major consequences
    20:56 – Federal arrest, decision not to inform, and mysterious case dismissal
    22:34 – Six more weeks using before calling parents for help
    23:20 – Entering treatment, relapse on inhalants, and final decision to get sober
    25:00 – Extent of substance use before recovery
    26:28 – Biggest regret: a friend’s overdose and missed chance to help
    27:00 – Recovery process: embracing 12-step programs and community
    29:28 – Moving to LA, finding strong recovery support, and focusing on rebuilding
    30:55 – Powerful meeting story about service and greater purpose in recovery
    31:43 – Evolving beyond 12-step rigidity and exploring spirituality
    32:43 – Breaking ties with his mother to protect his recovery
    34:35 – Slow reconnection and pivotal forgiveness moment during the pandemic
    36:24 – Emotional apology from his mother and her walking him down the aisle
    38:52 – Reflection on miracles, higher purpose, and the role of addiction in finding connection
    39:01 – The memoir The Good Little Drug Lord—origin, writing process, and future release
    41:53 – Staying connected via Instagram and newsletter
    42:05 – Advice for someone in their first 24 hours of recovery
    42:50 – Closing thanks and CCAR’s Telephone Recovery Support information

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  • “I Didn’t Think I’d Make It” — 25 Rehabs and a New Life at 22
    Aug 5 2025

    At just 22 years old and five months into recovery, Thomas opens up about his long road through addiction, street life, and nearly 25 treatment centers. From dark moments in New Haven to dancing sober at his god-sister’s wedding, Thomas shares how he finally found peace, purpose, and a way to live.

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  • Facing 65 Counts—Burglaries, Larcenies, Possession—He Committed To Sobriety
    Jul 29 2025

    Derek Benson of Investing in Sobriety shares his journey from a highly structured childhood and elite athletics through pills, escalating addiction, crime, prison, and finally a sustainable recovery built on a mental-physical-spiritual blueprint and strong community.

    Highlights:

    * Early structure: military/boarding school; learned independence and discipline.

    * First intoxication and growing access in high school; transfers to Avon Old Farms and The Hun School.

    * Purdue years: injuries, pills in the locker room, and the slide from use → misuse → addiction.

    * “Blind alley” spiral: funding use, losing work and relationships.

    * Turning point: 12/12/2014—turned himself in; first exposure to AA in jail; later transferred to McDougall-Walker (high bond, no outside meetings).

    * Letter that changed things: a family friend visits, connects him to 12-step support.

    * Court offered Connecticut Valley Hospital (CVH) 42-day treatment; he took it, then faced a judge’s 10-year cap warning—fueling commitment to change.

    * Recovery today: daily mental-physical-spiritual balance and a healthy circle of influence.

    * Practical advice for the first 24 hours: reach out for help and stay open-minded.

    * Derek’s project: Investing in Sobriety—conversations on personalized recovery blueprints.

    More on Investing In Sobriety here: https://www.investinginsobriety.com/

    Chapters

    00:00 – Intro, gratitude for recovery community; Derek at ~10 years sober.


    03:20 – Childhood & military/boarding school; structure and early independence.


    06:25 – First drunk; access increases; transfer to Avon Old Farms.


    08:00 – Senior year path to The Hun School; athletic exposure.

    10:32 – Purdue: pills after injuries; shift toward addiction.

    
12:53 – Use vs. misuse vs. addiction; trouble at college party.


    28:21 – “Blind alley” metaphor; life narrows around using.

    
30:06 – Losing work, unhealthy circles, doing anything for money.


    31:41 – Criminal activity escalates; path to prison.


    33:38 – 12/12/2014: turns himself in (beginning of recovery).


    41:04 – First AA in Hartford Correctional.


    42:17 – Transfer to McDougall-Walker; no outside meetings; pivotal letter to family friend.


    45:47 – 65 pending charges; attorney lays out CVH option.


    47:01 – CVH 42-day program; willingness and early momentum.

    
49:27 – Judge’s 10-year cap warning; why he doubled down on change.


    52:48 – Derek’s recovery blueprint (mental-physical-spiritual).


    55:55 – Building a healthy circle of influence.
57:37 – Advice for day one: reach out & be open-minded.


    58:39 – Derek’s podcast: Investing in Sobriety.

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  • How Gambling and Alcohol Nearly Cost Him Everything: A Dual Recovery Story
    Jul 22 2025

    Stephen Matos, a person in long-term recovery, joins TJ on the Recovery Matters podcast to share his incredible journey since his last use of drugs and alcohol in 1986 and his last gambling experience in 1987. Stephen opens up about his upbringing in Hartford, Connecticut, where his father was deeply entrenched in gambling activities. He recounts how his own descent into alcohol, drugs, and gambling almost destroyed his life, leading to broken relationships and financial ruin. However, recovery came through Gamblers Anonymous, Alcoholics Anonymous, and intensive outpatient programs. Stephen highlights his role as a peer counselor in Connecticut's exemplary problem gambling treatment programs, underscoring the importance of lived experience in offering hope and support to others. His narrative also sheds light on the stigma surrounding gambling addiction and the critical need for comprehensive treatment and recovery resources.

    00:00 Introduction and Host Backgrounds

    00:36 Growing Up with a Gambling Father

    04:51 Early Exposure to Alcohol and Drugs

    06:59 The Impact of Gambling on Relationships

    09:58 Descent into Addiction

    16:15 Turning Point and Seeking Help

    18:30 Recovery Journey and Support Systems

    21:51 The Journey of Recovery

    21:58 Managing Money and Responsibilities

    22:24 The Role of AA and GA in Recovery

    22:48 Strained Relationship with Father

    23:24 Making Amends and Financial Accountability

    23:52 Mending the Relationship with Father

    24:27 A New Chapter: Becoming a Peer Counselor

    25:06 Training and Embracing Multiple Pathways of Recovery

    25:58 Working with Problem Gamblers and Their Families

    27:58 Connecticut's Leading Gambling Treatment Programs

    29:37 The Importance of Lived Experience in Recovery

    33:03 Helpline and Support Resources

    35:20 Advice for Newcomers in Recovery

    36:48 Addressing Stigma and Shame in Gambling Addiction

    41:05 Concluding Thoughts and Gratitude


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    42 m
  • He Wanted to Help Others with Addiction—Before Starting His Own Recovery
    Jul 15 2025

    Gabe shares his story of growing up in a middle-class suburb in Long Island, struggling with drug and alcohol addiction from a young age, and the ensuing legal issues and incarcerations. He discusses his turning point in 2018 after a serious overdose and his subsequent commitment to recovery, community service, and faith. Gabe talks about his work as a volunteer, recovery coach, and founder of a nonprofit recovery community organization. He highlights his efforts in helping others through various programs, including sober living homes, recovery coaching training in prisons, and his newly published book on leveraging lived experience for community service. Gabe emphasizes the importance of self-worth, support, and finding one's own path in recovery.

    00:00 Introduction and Host Introductions

    00:25 Early Life and Introduction to Substance Use

    01:18 Struggles with Addiction and First Rehab Experience

    04:43 Turning Point and Commitment to Recovery

    07:48 Building a Life of Service and Recovery

    11:57 Challenges and Successes in Establishing Recovery Community

    21:21 Expanding Recovery Efforts and Final Thoughts


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    28 m
  • Six Months Sober After Fentanyl:One Day at a Time
    Jul 8 2025

    Angel, who is celebrating six months of sobriety from Fentanyl, opens up about his path to recovery, the struggles he faced, and the life-changing moments that led him to sobriety. He shares insights into the challenges of overcoming addiction, the pivotal moments that influenced his decision to seek help, and the transformation his life has undergone since becoming sober. The conversation highlights the importance of support systems, the various pathways to recovery, and the fulfillment that comes from being present and active in one's own life.

    00:00 Introduction and Host Backgrounds

    00:27 Angel's Early Recovery Journey

    00:48 Exploring the Sober Community

    02:15 Life in Recovery

    05:18 Angel's Addiction History

    07:24 Struggles with Fentanyl

    11:28 Attempts to Get Clean

    12:24 Manipulating the System

    14:02 Probation and Deception

    15:45 Hitting Rock Bottom

    18:01 The Turning Point

    19:58 Entering Detox

    22:22 Path to Recovery

    24:20 Life After Addiction

    26:18 Advice for Newcomers

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    28 m
  • Fear of Leaving Your Pet Behind? How Pawsitive Recovery Supports Your Recovery Journey
    Jul 1 2025

    Serena Saunders, founder of Pawsitive Recovery, shares her heartfelt journey from a challenging childhood marked by her mother's schizophrenia and substance use, leading to her own struggles with drugs and alcohol starting at age 12. After years of ups and downs, Serena found recovery four years ago and turned her life around by creating Pawsitive Recovery. This unique program helps people in addiction and mental health treatment by providing foster care for their pets. Serena also talks about the importance of animal companionship in recovery and the services Pawsitive Recovery offers, including workshops and partnerships with local shelters. Learn how her dog Oscar inspired this life-saving initiative.

    00:00 Introduction to Serena Saunders and Pawsitive Recovery

    00:16 Serena's Childhood and Family Struggles

    04:33 Early Substance Use and Teenage Years

    05:58 Realizing the Need for Help

    07:01 Journey to Sobriety and Recovery

    11:22 Founding Pawsitive Recovery

    14:25 Expanding Positive Recovery Nationwide

    15:23 The Impact of Animals in Recovery

    21:48 How to Get Involved and Final Thoughts

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    25 m
  • The Chemsex Survivor Empowering LGBTQIA+ Recovery
    Jun 24 2025

    Ben Kaye shares his powerful story of recovery after years caught in the world of chemsex—a term used to describe using drugs like crystal meth, GBL, and mephedrone to enhance sex, lower inhibitions, and feel more connected during sexual encounters, especially within the LGBTQ+ community. What started as weekend partying turned into daily drug use and emotional isolation. Ben opens up about how trauma, loneliness, and the search for love led him to addiction, including injecting meth to feel a sense of control and connection. In this honest and eye-opening conversation, Ben explains how chemsex became his way of coping, and how treatment, community, and time helped him rebuild his life. Now a therapist, he helps others find healing too.

    00:00 – Intro: Meet Ben Kaye
    01:05 – An idyllic childhood shattered at 15
    02:21 – First experiences with substances
    04:00 – Moving to London, coming out, and the party scene
    05:30 – Why the party lifestyle became so appealing
    07:00 – Functioning addict or barely functioning?
    08:22 – When weekend use turned into daily meth use
    09:27 – Injecting crystal meth: how it started
    10:45 – What is Chemsex? Breaking it down
    12:00 – The rise of Chemsex culture and hookup apps
    13:10 – Why young people are at risk
    14:24 – Looking for love, not just drugs
    15:30 – What intimacy looks like without drugs
    16:50 – How Ben got help and started recovery
    18:28 – The mental health impact of heavy drug use
    20:00 – Starting over through treatment and support
    21:50 – Learning to enjoy life sober
    23:00 – Becoming a therapist and helping others
    25:00 – Advice for anyone starting recovery

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