Phoenix of the Northeast- A Stella Bordoloi Memoir, Chapter 8- I Am Not Your Secret.

Welcome back to the Phoenix of the Northeast podcast — a memoir in motion, a sanctuary of truth, and a space where no part of us is hidden anymore.

Today, we arrive at Chapter 8 — I Am Not Your Secret.

This chapter is a door slammed shut.


A mirror turned inward.


A moment where I stopped accepting half-love, half-truths, and half-presence.


Because let me say it plain:

I am not something to be tucked away in shadows.

Not your afterthought.

Not your guilt trip.

Not your shame to carry behind closed doors.


I am not the woman you call at midnight but deny in daylight.

I am not your experiment in secrecy, in silence, in survival.


This chapter is for every woman who's ever been hidden, erased, romanticized in private but erased in public.


For every time you were made to feel like your love, your body, your fire was too complicated to claim out loud.


This is the moment I spit that shame back out — and say:

I deserve to be chosen in the sunlight.

I deserve to be spoken about with pride — not whispered like a sin.

I am not your secret.

I am someone you never had the right to hide.




This chapter might feel like a gut punch.

But it’s also a liberation.

A declaration.

A homecoming to self.


Because when I stopped begging to be seen — I realized: I was always whole.

It was they who were never ready for my light.


And I will never again be small to soothe someone else’s shame.


This is Chapter 8 of my memoir — and the beginning of every woman remembering:


You were never meant to be anyone’s secret.

You are the story, the headline, the whole damn truth.


Let’s begin.