What happens after everything falls apart—and how do you slowly find your way back?

Four years ago, I walked through the hardest season of my life. In 2022, after years of holding things together through stress, isolation, and the quiet weight of struggling mental health, everything finally fell apart. I found myself withdrawing from the world, barely functioning, and eventually leaving home for two months to enter a residential treatment program. In this special 100th episode, I’m looking back on that year and sharing honestly about what the last four years of healing have really looked like.

Recovery didn’t happen quickly, and it definitely wasn’t a straight line. In this episode I talk about the tools, treatments, and lessons that helped me find my way forward—therapy, community, TMS, learning about hormones and ADHD, and the surprising role faith played in keeping me afloat. Most of all, I share what I’ve learned about the messy, imperfect process of healing. If you’re in a hard season yourself, this episode is a reminder that even when progress feels slow or uncertain, change and hope are still possible.

In this episode, I share a powerful experience I had meditating with Buddhist monks in Chiang Mai, Thailand. That time sitting quietly in a temple halfway across the world taught me something simple but profound about the way our minds work. I talk about meditation through the lens of ADHD—the wandering mind, the endless stream of thoughts, and the feeling that we’re “bad” at focusing. But meditation isn’t about having a perfectly quiet mind. It’s about the practice of noticing when our thoughts chase squirrels and gently bringing them back. Every time we do that, we’re actually strengthening the part of the brain responsible for focus, emotional regulation, and decision-making. In other words, the wandering mind isn’t failure—it’s the training.

I also share a meditation instruction I read in a temple that taught me so much: breathing in, holding the breath for a moment, softening the eyes and the mind, and then expanding your awareness outward with compassion for all living things. Breath holds can briefly increase carbon dioxide levels in the body, which can sharpen awareness and help calm the nervous system when practiced gently. Combined with widening our attention and intentionally sending out love and compassion, this practice can create a surprising shift in mood and resilience.

In this episode, I reflect on how simple moments of mindfulness—whether in a temple in Thailand or in the middle of an ordinary day—can help us train our minds, build focus, and reconnect with a sense of calm and compassion. 🧘‍♀️✨

What do Gilmore Girls and my kindergarten meltdown over a happy face stamp have in common? I am glad you asked. Rejection Sensitivity Dysphoria (RSD) From a kindergarten meltdown over not earning a double smiley-face stamp to the emotional landmines of high school and adulthood, I share personal anecdotes about how RSD has shaped my life. I discuss how RSD affects creativity, relationships, and even the way we interpret simple texts like “Call me.” This episode is for anyone trying to understand themselves or their loved ones who may experience heightened sensitivity to rejection and failure. Tune in for insights, empathy, and a reminder that our unique traits—nerfs and buffs alike—can serve as both challenges and strengths.