Master Alchemist

Master Alchemist, I am assigned the task of transmuting

every elemental energy and emotion without judgment or reactivity,

Sacred Neutral, every step I take is leading to my happiness

I practice as the yidam even though I feel like an undeveloped fetus

like a raw peeled shrimp from the lower realms

the alchemical centers are the glands of the endocrine system

the chakras, they are the autonomic foci of the nervous system

portals from the subtle dimensions into the physical body

fusion of sun and moon in each one

Master Alchemist, the knowing of this

the need to balance it with development of the human

the paradox of needing to practice in these profound secret ways

just to tolerate being in this body

and in contact with other humans and form

forgiveness of the looking forward to new sweaters and crystals

and things that I don’t even really want