I Tried to Kill Myself 7 Times—Here's What Saved Me w/ Ned Weidner

“Every morning for 15 years, my first thought was: ‘How will I kill myself today?’ I put a gun to my head at 19—it misfired. That moment began a journey into the wild that saved my life and revealed an ancient path back to wholeness.”Most men today are living someone else's life, domesticated beyond recognition, severed from the primal wildness that once kept us alive and thriving. The result? Epidemic levels of depression, addiction, and spiritual emptiness that no amount of success can fill.In this raw conversation, wilderness guide Ned Weiner shares how tracking animals taught him to track his inner wildness, how nature became his therapist when therapy failed, and why the modern crisis of masculinity is actually a crisis of disconnection from our deepest selves.If you've ever felt like you're pushing a boulder up a mountain alone, this conversation offers a different path—one that leads home to who you really are.CONNECT WITH NEDwww.stepintoyourwild.com/🔥 READY TO STOP DRIFTING? → Take The 7-Day Reset for High-Performing Men: https://www.stumurray.com/7-day-reset Seven questions that separate the men who change from the men who stay stuck. Most won't finish it.ABOUT STU MURRAY & BROTHRI help high-performing men break free from the performance prison that's left them successful on the outside but hollow within. This channel is your roadmap from isolation to brotherhood, from achievement to fulfillment, from doing to being.🔺Key Timestamps :00:01:54 Rivers, mountains, and horses kept him alive → the birth of "Step Into Your Wild" 00:08:30 Store-bought food vs. honoring the hunt → deeper nourishment and connection 00:14:36 You don’t need gear to connect with nature + surviving suicide attempts through tracking 00:19:30 Tracking animals as a metaphor for tracking your inner wildness 00:36:45 Offering pain to nature → aloneness and the Sisyphus boulder struggle 00:41:49 Why asking for help feels so hard in Western culture 00:46:15 Learning to receive → reciprocity and growth in relationships 00:55:04 Healing in relationship with people and the land (fire, stars, moonlight) 01:01:05 Writing as healing → shifting from victim to creator 01:17:58 Closing message: “Just take that first step” → a life beyond imagination is waiting