Husband

protector, partner, lover, and sexual consort, father to children, intimate friend , the holy vow, Medicine Husband,

respect of man and woman for each other, Reindeer Husband,

crystal rod in my spine, Christ Light between the antlers.

unrelenting grief and shame that he does not want me for his wife, understanding this makes no sense, it was never a possibility.

the romantic projection of a one and only everlasting true love dissolves in the embodied awareness

that I am already inseparable from my Twin Flame Beloved.

but what about my love story Magdalena?

the stomach tries to not feel the pain,

thereby shutting down the pleasure