People spent ENORMOUS amounts of time and energy looking for the "right" one and are frequently looking in the wrong place, or putting responsibility outside of them. There isn't a Master Puppeter just itching to bring you the perfect partner. It's more of a preparation game than you think.

And you might be looking in the wrong place and not having fun while doing it.

You know what good head is, but your real head gets in the way of the orgasmic bliss of a good life all the time. What's waiting for you beyond your daily thinking which is distorted by over-thinking anxiety is the life of freedom and contentment you crave. How can you even begin to get past the harm done to you that you're still stewing over? You get clear and you get calm and you try the path of the WAY. The way is in your body because your body is the ONLY route to connection. Your thinking will give you unsatisfactory head again and again - and you'll stay for that til the better end when you'd leave a poor lover long ago. Healing is waiting...why ain't you moving instead of thinking more?

I know, you have a lot of rights you feel like people are going to take away from you.

You spend a lot of time asserting those rights in defense of the fear others hold over you.

However, have you recently stopped to consider what you DO have the right to do but should stop because it doesn't actually create any more space for your rights - while it also pisses people off?

Think about it a new set of anti-rights that might actually liberate you FULLY.