Through the Fire – Part 3 | Dreams, Dirt & Grace

What do you do when you’re doing everything right—surrendering, obeying, showing up—and still feel like you’re falling apart?

In Part 3 of the Through the Fire series, I’m sharing one of the lowest points in my Fire Academy journey. The moment I failed in front of everyone. The moment the whispers got loud—“You’re not strong enough. You don’t belong here. You’re failing.”

This episode is a raw look at the heaviness of discouragement, the lies that creep in during the middle of the fire, and the truth that pulled me through. Because even when the outcome doesn’t look how we hoped, God is still present. Still refining. Still carrying us.

If you’re feeling tired, stuck, or like you’ve lost your way—this one is for you.

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Saying yes to God sounds brave… until you’re walking it out in the middle of exhaustion, uncertainty, and doubt.

In Part 2 of Through the Fire, I’m sharing the real and raw moments of what obedience looked like for me—saying yes to Fire Academy without knowing the outcome, trusting God while juggling motherhood, training, and the constant feeling of “Am I doing the right thing?”

Obedience isn’t always pretty. It’s rarely easy. But it’s always worth it. Because when we say yes, God doesn’t promise clarity—He promises presence.

This episode is for the woman in the messy middle, the one who’s following God but starting to question the path. If that’s you, you’re not alone—and I pray this reminder gives you strength for your next step.

If you want to learn how to embrace the Dirt on your journey, come join me over on Substack at kawailani.substack.com

Welcome to a new Series...

Through the Fire: Trusting God When the Outcome Breaks Your Heart

This isn’t just a story about Fire Academy. It’s a series about what happens when you say yes to God—and then the story doesn’t go the way you thought it would. Through the Fire is a deeply personal journey of surrender, obedience, disappointment, and the kind of growth that only happens when you’re refined by the hard.

Whether you’re walking through uncertainty, facing your own unmet expectations, or just wondering what God is doing in the middle of your mess, this series is here to remind you: You’re not alone. He’s not done. And even when the outcome breaks your heart—God is still writing something beautiful.

If you want to learn how to embrace the Dirt on your journey, come join me over on Substack at kawailani.substack.com